I just saw I got a bunch of messages which my phone didn’t notify me off so I will get around to them. Some of them beeing very old >.< For everyone that texted me I’m so sorry i was’t ignoring you i was just too dumb to use this side. 

I will get around to the messages I promise.  

明浩 - Hotel nights

Well apparently my Bio doesn’t matter anymore haha and this is a but about Xu Minghao but I felt like it and I hope you are fine with it.

Disclaimer: This mentions blood just briefly but if you are sensitive to those kinds of things just a warning.

SMUT with FLUFF at the end 

Minghao picked me up at one of my companies events as he was my best friend and we decided to stay one day longer to explore the place a bit more. So after a long day walking around seeing the town we decided to just chill in your hotel room and order room service. We ordered the food and decided to order some drinks as well so we were waiting for the food catching up on the days we haven’t seen each other. Room service arrived pretty soon so after some time we were both joyfully eating food and laughing our asses off sitting on the floor at the end of the hotel bed. With the alcohol already taking some effect we both found everything more and more hilarious. At some point I had raised my arm and put my hand at the back of his neck playing with his longer hair.

‘Minghao can I tell you something?‘ My words were already slurring a bit. His head, that was resting on the bed frame, rolled to the side to look me in the eyes and nodded.

‘Your hair. You are the only one that can pull this normally ugly hairstyle off‘ he looked at me confused then laughed at my ridiculous statement. ‘You are so fashionable that you make it look good‘ I added, now he really laughed making me laughed as well.

‘Thanks … I guess‘ he laughed but soon became very quiet. I was still playing with his hair just looking at each other. Slowly, as if we were drawn to each other, our faced moved closer. We could have had countless opportunities to pull away but neither of us did so soon our lips touched. The shock of kissing your best friend didn’t came over neither of us.

Our lips connected and we stayed like this for a moment, lips just pressed together. Then as if we had the same thought we both started to move our lips softly. Minghao‘s hands found their way into my hair holding my head softly in place while mine wandered to his shoulders squeezing them ever so slightly. We both sat there next to each other slowly and sensually kissing each other. Minghao‘s thumbs running over my scalp our kisses grew harder and a little bit more demanding. I swung my leg over to face him hovering over his lap. He pulled away and looked at my face for a few moments then our lips crashed together again. His hands went from my face to my hips pushing me softly onto his lap. He bit my bottom lip and a soft moan escaped my lips. His growing bulge made me realise how turned on I’ve already became just by this quick make out session. His hands wandered under my shirt his light fingers giving my shivers. I disconnected our lips and pressed his head into my chest breathing heavily. After a few deep breaths I pulled his chin up again to kiss him again. His hands on my hips and his skilful kisses made me roll my hips in an instinct against his growing bulge. His breathing hitched and a moan escaped his lips as well. He kissed my neck instantly finding the sweets spot. His hands guiding my hips against his crotch more and more soft moans escaped my lips. His breathing got more airy and I could feel his teeth running over my skin. Lust taking more and more over my body I pressed harder against Minghao’s lap needing more and more contact he let out a grunt the air tickling my skin.

‘Stop‘ he whispered and I pulled away and looked at him. His dark brown eyes were hazed with lust, lips pink and swollen parted, he was breathing heavily. ‘My legs are falling asleep and I don’t wanna cum into these pants.‘ he mumbled against my lip and I stood up. My hands immediately wandered to his pants the moment he stood up.

‘Let’s take them off then“ I said already opening the first button. I palmed his erection through the fabric of his pants kissing him hungrily biting down onto his bottom lip. He tugged at my shirt and it was off in seconds his followed right behind hitting the floor with a soft thud. Softly rubbing his erection he opened my pants and slipped his hand inside. Feeling his fingers between my your wet folds I pushed more towards him. Feeling my wetness Minghao hummed in approval.

‘Already so wet’ he mumbled. I opened his pants fully and pushed them down. Both of us ridding each other of their pants and underwear we stood in front of each other fully naked. I glanced at his erection then back at his face kissing him hard. My hands brushed over his chest muscles then giving him a assured push. He fell backwards to the bed giving an audible thud and a faint squeak from the bed. I grabbed my toiletries bag and found a shiny package. Opening it up I knelt over his knees. Stroking his already full on hard member I rolled the condom down his length, Minghao moaning with every touch. I looked at him our eyes connected before I hovered over his length. He grabbed my hips and pulled me to his side. He kissed me starting to hover above me again. Hands moving down my body squeezing my boob then my hip then the inside of my thigh I could feel his erection on the inside of my thigh. He aligned himself with my entrance and slowly entered. Bliss waved over me making me close my eyes and pulling my head back. My nails running over the skin of his back he started moving. He felt amazing with every of his skilful and sensual thrust a new waved rushed over me building a giant one in my abdomen. Moans and breathes slipping over our lips like water.

‘I love your moans‘ Minghao moaned attacking your neck again a strong powerful thrust making my moans a bit more high pitched. Each of his thrust grew more powerful hitting all the right spots inside my body. His face appeared in front of my vision again. His hair was sticking to his forehead little sweat beads running down his temples. He looked into my eyes pumping into you mercilessly. I parted my lips my moans getting more breathy the closer i got to my orgasm. Without words he understood how close in was and angled another thrust deeper inside. I screamed softly Minghao now completely getting out of focus as the pleasure let my body crash. His hips spasmed and he collapsed on top of me. Kissing my forehead my surroundings slowly got into focus again. I felt him rolling off my and getting rid of the condom. He brushed my equally sticky hair out of my face and kissed the tip of my nose. He managed to pull me into his chest before the exhaustion knocked the both of us out.

I woke up, excruciating pain in my abdomen and my thighs feeling sticky. An arm was placed around my waist holding me softly. I looked over my shoulder and saw Minghao his hair all over the place and peace painted onto his face. I slightly panicked in pain and realisation what happened yesterday preparing myself for a very awkward conversation. My light panic turned into a borderline panic attack when I lifted the covers to see a blood all over my tights. Of all the days I needed to be surprised by my period it needed to be the day I was in a hotel with my best friend naked right next to me. Trying to move, doing anything, Minghao pulled me closer to him. Now not being able to move without waking him up tears started to run down my cheeks. In embarrassment, pain and panic I started to mumble under my breath not knowing what to do. I felt movement behind me and fell dead silent. Minghao moved his arm and shuffled right behind me. I felt his lips on my shoulder as my tears were still streaming down my face silently.

‘Good Morning‘ he husked but I didn’t moved at all. His free hand wrapped around my shoulder and pulled me towards him. I closed my eyes but let it happen, Minghao gasped.

‘What’s wrong? Are you ok?‘ he scooted a bit away and let go of me probably thinking I was panicking because of him which I wasn’t I didn’t panic because I slept with Minghao I panicked because I didn’t want him to find out I just got my period.

‘I’m sorry‘ I whined and now he looked at me even more worried.

‘Sorry for what?‘ I closed my eyes and grabbed my stomach as another pain wave ripped through my body. Minghao raised his arm slowly and grabbed the cover my hand clenched around his wrist to stop him. 

‘Y/N what’s wrong?‘ he asked softly brushing over my hand that was wrapped around his wrist tightly.

‘I’m so sorry it’s so embarrassing‘ I sobbed hiding my face with my free hand.

‘Shhhh it’s ok‘ Minghao whispered and softly removed my hand from his wrist, I let it happen already engulfed in embarrassment.

‘Did I do that?‘ he asked shocked but I quickly shook my head.

‘Period‘ I sobbed quietly. He grabbed my hands and pulled them from my face. He kissed me softly to stop me from crying.

‘Hey it’s okay. Are you in pain?‘ he asked, his soft brown eyes looking at me thumbs brushing over my cheeks gently. He placed a kiss on my forehead trying to calm me down. And it worked tears were still falling down my cheeks but there less uncontrollable.

‘Stop crying. It’s ok‘ he whispered softly and kissed me again. He kept whispering ‚it’s ok‘ between small pecks and soft touches to calm me down. After minutes of calming me down Minghao managed to stop me from crying.

‘Now look at me‘ he mumbled and I raised my eyes to look at his face, he was smiling gently at me. ‘Are you in pain?‘ I shook my head.

‘Just a bit, I’m fine. I’m so sorry Minghao‘ he shook his head.

‘Sorry for what? You don’t need to be sorry.‘ he brushed the hair out of my face. ‘Do you want to take a shower it will ease the pain.‘ I nodded. Minghao rolled out of bed, wrapped me in the blanket and carried me to the bathroom. He put me down next to the shower and opened the shower door. He started the water and held his hand into the stream adjusting the temperature.

‘It shouldn’t be too hot still be careful‘ I nodded and smiled at him mumbling a small thanks. He removed the covers softly and I stepped into the shower. Minghao left the bathroom and I sight the hot water washing some of the tension and pain away. Closing my eyes I just let my body get rained on. I heard the shower door and Minghao stepped in.

‘Better?‘ he asked a soft smile on his face. ‚So were you crying because of me?‘ he asked carefully, gently rubbing my shoulders.

‘Sorry I panicked‘ I whispered back at him looking him in the eyes.

‘Because of me?‘ I shook my head.

‘no not because of you I was just embarrassed‘ I moved towards him and moved the wet hair out of his face. He smiled holding my waist softly. I pulled him closer and planted a soft kiss onto his lips.

‘We were really drunk yesterday weren’t we‘ I laughed against his lips his thumbs circling over my hip bones.

‘yet you are still kissing me‘ he grinned and connected our lips quickly. ‚and I think we are sober now‘

I nodded ‘I think so too‘

Bye Bye (Choose your bias)

hi it’s me again after a good month but I tried something different with this one you can choose any member you want just put the name in y/b/n. 

Angsty

You were crying for hours now still looking at the same article. The picture was haunting you: his arm around her shoulder both looking at each other so intimate. And then all the comments; sure there were the ones that were just plain hating, not caring who that girl was but just that she was taking him from them and honestly those comments didn’t surprised you. But those comments that liked her, those hurt you a lot, this girl was supposed to be you. You were his girlfriend,well at least that’s what you thought. You were still talking and it was all like it was before you even left for uni. You loved him with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your being. But those rumours weren’t fake you checked so many sources and it was even confirmed by their management. But why were you so surprised? He was around beautiful women all the time, beautiful women that could easily picture themselves in his shoes they knew his world. And no matter how much you two talked that was something you couldn’t do, you would never knew how he felt and how it was to be an idol. The constant pressure to land the next hit and always be perfect, along with the hours and hours of practice, TV shows and performances was something you could imagine but you could never understand. But she could, she knew how he felt and she could understand him fully.

You knew it would be difficult to maintain a relationship you were so many miles apart and texting and calling was not just the same and you knew it, but neither of you could bare to know that the other one was not going after their dream or taking the best opportunity in life.

You looked at your phone. You couldn’t even be really angry at him, he deserved to have someone that makes him happy, someone that was there for him. You were just so sad that you this couldn’t be that person for him as he was that person to you. But you couldn’t bare to let him suffer for the sake of your own happiness. Opening the chat you started to type him a message.

>> hi I hope you are doing fine. I know you are doing promotions again I hope you will have some time to rest. I also hope she is making you happy, happier than I can ever make you. Don't feel bad I'm happy that you are happy she seems like a nice girl. Thanks for all the great times we had I will fondly remember all the conversations we had. Thanks for loving me. You don't need to justify not breaking up with me, I think we already did. I just want to say goodbye. Love you y/b/n <<

You felt tears rolling down your eyes even more as you put your phone away. You know you should've been angry at him you had all the right to be angry he was cheating on you he even pretended like you didn't exist. But you just couldn't. You screen lit up and you saw he texted you.

>> I'm so sorry! I didn’t want you to find out that way, I should have told you! I’m so sorry. Thanks for everything even though I’m a total asshole you are still too nice to me. I hope you find someone that gives you everything that you deserve. I’m so sorry! Have a great life Y/N<<

You locked your phone again closing your chapter y/b/n with a numb feeling.

Someone’s there

It’s currently nearly 3 am in the morning and I’ve been trying to sleep for the last 5 hours until i admitted defeat and finally wrote down what has been swimming in my brain for the last 4 days or so. 

This might be a bit confusing as my brain is probably in a delusional state right now but it made sense to me so I’m gonna look over it once I slept enough. 

I recently feel like writing some smut however I don’t really know about who so if you have some suggestions just leave me a message.

Also this doesn’t really change the story but the Mark this is about is Mark Tuan and not Lee. 

Sehun ANGST/FLUFF

Today was a weird day, you’ve woken up next to mark once again which was a common occurrence and you hated it. You've told yourself a million times that you wanted to stop sleeping with him but every time he texted you or showed up at your door you ended up next to him the next morning. You grabbed your clothes that were all over the floor of his apartment and put them on as quietly as possible. Opening the squeaking door just as much so you could squeeze through it.

'thanks' you heard mark mumble followed by some sheet ruffling indicating he had just turned around to sleep some more. You left the apartment as quickly as possible, closing the door behind you, you sighed again. You did it again, you came when he called. 

It all started when Mark offered you to drive you home as you've been out drinking with Yugyeom and Bambam. You let him in as he needed to use the bathroom and then he kind of stayed longer than just a quick bathroom break and being drunk you somehow of ended up in bed. You didn't really remembered how it really happened but after that night you developed a friendship with benefits and it was just the start of many nights that ended in his bed. You both saw it as a stress-relive, no feelings. At the beginning you enjoyed yourself but now you wanted to stop. You didn't develop feelings for Mark you just grew sick of this meaningless sex, there was no passion no real affection between the two of you. You were friends but nothing more and you would never be anything than friends it just bothered you that sex became meaningless to you. It used to be something that was shared between people who deeply cared for each other and loved each other now it was just something you did after you had a shitty day just to release some tension in your body. But it was the easiest way to relieve all that stress that you both had and you two worked together efficiently, Mark knew what he was doing. Trying to quit him was difficult especially because you never felt very wanted, you had many guy friends and they all loved you deeply and you loved them just as much but just like they were your family. You just wanted someone that truly wanted you and Mark gave you that illusion of being wanted even though you were just a better stress-relieve than his hand and his imagination. But you realised soon this was not what you truly wanted. You could have slept with Mark a million times getting to know his body like your own and it still wouldn't make you feel any more wanted than before.

Arriving at home you took a long shower removing the scents from last night, Mark's scents. Being angry and disappointed at yourself you went about your day with nothing really working out the way you wanted to. The raining weather outside reflected your gloomy mood. You wanted to be alone but on the other hand you didn't, with your mind and mood being a mess you couldn't really pinpoint want you wanted today. So when your friend Sehun asked if he could come over for some time and chill with you as his Hyungs were annoying him again you agreed.

Now you were sitting on the sofa next to each other, takeout boxes on your coffee table and a random movie pulled up on the TV.

'You seem weird today' Sehun broke the silence and you sighed.

'What do you mean?' you asked eyes still glued at the movie you had no interest in.

'That. You seem sad' you smiled

'I'm not sad Sehun I'm just a bit tired today was not my best day' you sighed again putting your head on the backrest of your sofa looking at the ceiling.

'wanna talk about it?' he asked softly you rolled your head to the side to look at him.

'mmh not really' he nodded smiling at you then looking back at the screen.

'I'm here if you change your mind.'

'Thanks I appreciate it.' You looked back at the ceiling, mind flooded with thoughts about Mark and regret.

'Do you sometimes feel like no one really loves you?' You saw Sehun's face turn to you in your peripheral.

'You have so many friends I'm sure they all love you very dearly' He said softly you closed your eyes chuckling, tears started to tingle in your eyes.

'that's exactly what I mean. My friends love me but like no one has romantic interest in me. And I've been doing stupid things because of that.' You looked at Sehun. He must have seen that you were on the verge of tears as he came closer and pulled you into his chest.

'It's ok. You can tell me I'm sure it's not that stupid.' he brushed over your hair. His arms around you made you feel save to finally talk to someone about it.

'I feel like I'm everyone's friend but no one's dating interest. They all love me for what I am, but I just crave a romantic affection someone that doesn't just sees me as a friend but more of a potential girlfriend.'

'that all sounds reasonable to me I don't think this is stupid at all' you could feel the vibrations of his voice on his chest as he softly spoke, his chin on the top of your head.

'that's not the stupid thing I did' actual tears were now falling down your cheeks.

'then spit it out. It clearly stresses you and you will feel better once you've talked about it.' he softly padded your back. You took several deep breaths before you could form the words.

'I've been sleeping with Mark.' You said slowly but after that the words just flooded out. 'I just wanted to feel wanted and well we ended up having sex and it developed into something regular. We just text each other and then we meet just to have sex' you now turned into a sobbing mess in Sehun's arms.

'and you love him now?' Sehun asked brushing over your hair calming.

'no, I don't love him I'm just sick of this meaningless fucking. We are just relieving stress and honestly, I hate myself for it. Sex used to be intimate and special it became worthless and meaningless. It's just a tool now. And I'm telling myself that I don't want to do this anymore but I'm always ending up in his bed, I'm giving myself the illusion that at least one person wants me as more than just a friend when in reality, I’m a fuckbuddy.' Your arms now found themselves wrapped around Sehun's torso as you were mercilessly crying into his shirt. He hummed softly swaying you a little from side to side until you could stop crying.

'It's okay don't worry. Please don't hate yourself for that but you know that you deserve more than just someone that you can sleep with.' You nodded still pressed into his chest.

'Sehun?' you asked, your voice still shaky from all the tears. Sehun hummed as a response. 'can you stay here for the night I don't want to be alone' you felt him nod. Sehun pulled the coffee table with his legs towards him and put his legs on it, shifting into a position that you could both sort of lay on the couch. He pulled you closer to his chest arms wrapped around you securely, one hand in your hair the other one softly on your back.

'are you comfortable?' he asked, you just nodded and buried yourself deeper in his arms. The emotional exhaustion took slowly over you and you could feel yourself drifting into sleep.

'It's gonna be ok and tomorrow I'll show you that there is someone that wants to be more than your friend.' Sehun mumbled more just for him than actually for you to hear. He kissed the top of your head, softly smiling affectionately at you as you in response hugged him closer in your sleep.

‘I’m very very ok’ ( Drunken Confessions alternative ending)

ok here I am again. So this is the thing that I felt drunken confessions turning into. It took me ages but i really want to get into writing again. I just fell so restless and I couldn’t really sit down to do much proper writing but it felt good to finally finish this and I’m slowly feeling that I get my life back under control. (fingers crossed it stays like this)

so well if you want to read the other ending you can read it here but I think i copied enough so that the story is still understandable.

I hope you are having a great day! 

ok enough now here we go 

slight ANGST mostly FLUFF I guess 

You let your eyes wander around the party you were. You quickly found Jae standing in a doorframe talking to a girl a bright red plastic cup in his hand. He was smiling and the girl was just like all the others. Grinning at him brightly acting cute when he was making a joke and standing way too close to him.

‘ why are you doing this to yourself?‘ you heard a familiar voice right behind you. You turned around. Ten was smiling at you pushing a red cup in your hand. Without even questioning you took a sip. The strong alcohol burned your throat but warmed your stomach.

‘What do you mean?‘ you asked and he nudged your shoulder laughing a little.

‘C‘mon I know about your little crush‘ your eyes widened. ‘Don’t worry your secret's safe with me.‘

‘I doubt that‘ you answered dry and Ten scoffed. ‘Please don't tell him i don’t want things to get awkward.‘

‘Why? I can understand that you are afraid but why do you literally torture yourself? You help him with all his relationships. I can’t imagine how painful is to see him with all this girls‘ you gulped and took another big sip from the cup practically emptying it. Ten grabbed a bottle from a nearby table and filled your cup again. ‘ so why are you doing this to yourself.‘ you took another sip before you answered him.

‚That’s love‘ you whispered and he looked confused. ‘to love someone doesn’t mean that no matter what you want that person to be with you. It means you want that person to be happy and sometimes that means that you get hurt. It doesn’t matter that I get hurt picking out gifts for Jae‘s girlfriend what matters is that Jae is happy.‘ you said fumbling with your cup swirling the little remains that were left in the cup. You had nearly finished this one as well without even noticing.

‘You are way too good for this world‘ Ten said smiling at you

‘no you mean way too naive and dumb‘ he shook his head.

‘No. Really. I think it’s admirable that you are so selfless if I were in your position I would not step down that easily‘ you smiled and shrugged it off.

‘Let’s fill this cup again‘ you said wiggling the cup in an attempt to change the topic.

‘Drowning our feelings in alcohol. Is that a good idea?‘ Ten scolded in a fake serious tone smiling from ear to ear.

‘yes for today that’s a good idea‘ Ten nodded and disappeared with your cup. You leaned against the wall eyes swaying over the crowd trying not look at Jae. Ten‘s word touched you a bit, maybe they stirred something up. You sat down on the nearest sofa waiting for Ten to return with your drink. Sitting still and having nothing to do you started to feel the effect of the alcohol but you felt comfortable with it. It was giving you something else to think about than Jae and the girl. You leaned your head on you hand looking at the floor in front of you. You felt the sofa dip and Ten appeared next to you. You took the cup from his hands and drank from it.

‘I‘m sorry for bringing that up.‘ Ten said but you shook your head resting it on the headrest of the sofa.

‘No it’s fine don’t worry just don’t say anything to anyone‘ Ten nodded. You continued to drink with him, joking about a few things both of your heads on the headrest looking at the ceiling.

‘Have you ever thought about... like going out there?‘ you rolled your head to the side to look at Ten.

‘But wouldn’t that be unfair‘ you whispered.

‘Everyone has a first love that they keep in their heart but not everyone stays with their first love and that doesn’t mean that you don’t love the new person any less‘ He smiled at you and you closed your eyes.

'But I wouldn't feel comfortable doing that' you whispered more to yourself than Ten.

'well I can understand but don't you feel like you restrain yourself? I mean a lot of people just like go to clubs and make out with some attractive boy. And sure like oh I don't know how to word this without sounding like a douche. I just don't want you to regret that you like never been out there. Your young and most of us young people do stupid shit and that’s part of the experience kind of I guess.' he took another big gulp sighing.

'I know what you mean Ten and I know you are wanting to help and I also know that you are kind of right.‘ you looked at him and smiled. Ten was right you felt that way Jae seemed to find his happiness so many times and everytime he didn’t seem to feel bad when he got a new girlfriend. Sure you kind of dabbled into dating but you always felt bad and most of the times it were like more of a double date or something you’ve been more or less talked into.

‚You’re right I‘m young and I should do some stupid things‘ you said sitting up straight.

‚why do I feel like I created a monster‘ he laughed and you nodded grinning.

‘Maybe you did but maybe you helped me to realise I need closure.‘ Ten now looked confused. ‚I don’t mean closure on Jae in general but more like closing on potential boyfriend Jae.‘ Ten nodded and brushed over your arm.

‚I’m glad that you realised how to be a bit more happier‘ you looked at him for a second and felt adrenaline rushing through your veins realising what adventures await you. You grinned and took his hand warmth spreading from your hand, warmth that felt like something new, a beginning to something that you enjoyed very much.

‘were are you taking me?’ Ten asked a little bit afraid but you could still heard the curiosity in his voice.You grabbed his hand tighter dragging him through the people into the middle of the room. Stopping in midst of the people dancing you turned around and looked at Ten.

‘Let’s start dancing’ you shouted grinning already dancing to the music. Ten laughed and mumbled something you couldn’t hear him but you thought you saw his lips forming an >>alright<<. Ten slowly put his hands on your waist smiling at you.

‘if it gets uncomfortable just tell me ok’ He shouted at you, nodding you placed your hands right over the insides of his elbows. You danced like that for some time until Ten grabbed your hand swirling you around the dance floor. You couldn’t stop laughing swirling around Ten like a ballerina.

‘Ten… TEN! I’m getting dizzy’ he stopped spinning you around and dipped you laughing as well. After he pulled you back up he hugged you laughing into you ear. Everything was spinning around you , the people in your vision were swinging from side to side.

‘are you having fun?’ he asked and you nodded grinning widely.

‘Yes thank you Ten’ you pulled away and smiled at him. He put his hands on you neck smiling softly at you.

‘I’m glad that I make you happy… Now I just need to make you feel loved’ and with this words he pressed his lips softly onto yours. You kissed guys before but it was nothing like the way Ten kissed you but it wasn’t those exploding butterflies that you always read in books about either. It was a comfortable warmth and calmness, like the first real sunlight after a long winter. After realising you didn’t pushed him away Ten smiled for a second then pulled away. He looked you in the eyes and brushed over your hair.

‘are you ok?’ he mouthed still smiling, although you could see some worry in his eyes. You nodded smiling.

‘yes Ten I’m very very ok’ he grinned and kissed the top of your head.

Slow Days [Happy Sehun Day]

Slow days with Sehun were not only your favourite but his favourite as well. Having a hectic schedule he loved to just crash at your place and worry about nothing but you for the day. Today were one of those days Sehun came back from practice at an ungodly hour this morning and nearly fell asleep in the shower. He had mumbled a quick hi when he fell into bed and pulled you close then instantly falling asleep. The light peaked through your blinds letting the dust dance in the beam of light. Your arms were pinned to your sides in the bearhug Sehun had trapped you in, leaving you little to no space to move. You could feel Sehun‘s breath down your neck and his body warmth on your back. It would have been enjoyable if one of your arms didn’t decide to fall asleep leaving a tingling slightly painful sensation. You tried to wiggle a bit trying to move to to your back. Sehun grunted annoyed and laid on his back dragging you onto his chest. 

‘Stay‘ he moaned pressing you closer to him. You could feel his heart beating steady. 

‘I need to move my arm it fell asleep‘ you whispered trying to lift your arm. 

‘Oh my gosh you are annoying‘ he said but lifting his arm so you could shake yours to get the feeling back. After a few moments you let your arm fall onto Sehun‘s torso closing your eyes again. Sehun kissed the top of your head then burying his face into your hair. After another hour or so of just you dozing you opened your eyes again. 

‘Hunnie?‘ you whispered knowing he heard you just fine. He just hummed as a sign he was listening. 

‘What you you want to do today?‘ you asked grasping his hand and playing with his fingers. Sehun sighed his breath running down your scalp. 

‘Nothing much... let’s have breakfast and then think about something we can do.‘ you two rolled out of bed and shuffled to the kitchen. Having a lazy breakfast you two just mumbled a few sweet nothings, Sehun holding your hand. 

‘How about we watch a bit of tv and I really want to take a bath‘ you thought out loud and Sehun nodded smiling. 

‘Sounds like a good Plan‘ he took your bowl putting it into the sink then dragging you towards the sofa. He fell onto the sofa with open arms so you could lay on top of him. His arms wrapped around and your head on his chest you laid there in peace. The tv silently playing none of you really spoke but you didn’t needed to your presence was enough for each other. The water flew loudly into the tub the dark blue bathbomb fizzing and turning the water a vibrant colour. The slight sea breeze sent was filling the bathroom while Sehun lit the candles. Sehun slowly got into the water, after he sat down comfortably you got into the water as well. The warmth surrounding your body you rested yourself against Sehun. He hugged you from behind drawing random shapes on your arms.

‘I love this. I love doing not really anything just floating a little. I love you‘ he mumbled kissing your shoulder, holding your hands.

‘I love you too Hunnie‘ you whispered closing your eyes resting your head on his shoulder.

Happy Birthday my noodleboy ♥

this is not the best but it feels good to start writing again even if it’s just as short as this. Hope you are doing great.

Hi guys

here I am again with not a scenario or one shot or something and noone probably wants to read this but I kind of need to get that of my chest. I feel like shit, well not really but then I kinda still do.

I haven’t touched any of my texts in like 2 month and that feels shitty but I can’t change it. I feel so fucking restless I can’t even put it in words but at the same time I get nothing done. I want to sit down and write something but then I can just walk around its physically impossible for me to sit still well I never ever sit really still in my life but right now it’s fucking unbearable. I can’t even get one straight thought out of my brain it ( this even mentally hurts me to write all this down so it kind of makes sense) I struggle so much doing my work for uni and I can’t even describe how stressful and difficult it is for me to get any work done. My room looks like shit and every time I try to tidy nothing really changes and i spend hours on nothing. I feel like I have nothing in life like I have no real goals nothing to work for. I have no routine whatsoever in my life and I feel like I’m just floating around. I feel motionless but then I’m physically not. I feel bored out of my mind with my mind racing about the most random and unconnected thoughts. I feel like I have no purpose with having things I want to achieve but I feel unable to reach. 

tbh I don’t even know why I put it on here and I currently really wanna delete all of the above and I probably gonna delete it tomorrow but I feel like I needed to rant. 

I’m really sorry for everyone that read all this and feels like shit now. I truly am and I would like to promise that I will soon upload something proper but realistically I cannot promise that. I tried to have some regular uploads but I managed to hold that one not even for a month. So I will upload once I have something that I feel like I can upload. I’m really sorry but I just can’t help it.

Kun #lucky3people

Can someone please explain what is going on on the smrookies instagram. I’m to hyped I already screamed my lungs out. Is kun gonna debut? Can someone please give me answers

Tourist Attractions [Johnny SMUT]

remember how I said I felt like shit just yesterday, well it got worse. I couln’t sleep at all so this happened. It’s really long for my oneshots but I kinda like it.

SMUT 

Travelling alone was one thing but going to a club on your own was a different thing but you didn’t want to miss out on this part on your trip. So here you were in a club full of people you had a very vague understanding of their language dancing to music also in a language you could barely understand. You were enjoying it tho. Although it was kind of weird to dance all by yourself or get drinks by yourself and not with a bunch of friends. Swinging to the music you just looked at people while enjoying your time. You saw a bunch of boys drinking at the bar that passed your view a few times one of the boys was meeting your gaze quite often. You decided to go and get another drink passing the group of boys looking at the one that meet your gaze quite often specifically. You smiled faintly at him and joined the big group waiting for their drinks. You waited a patiently rehearsing your order in your head again and again. Someone tapped your shoulder and you turned around. A guy with a simple dark button down shirt and dark messy hair was smiling at you. It was the guy that was with the big group of boys. 

‘멋지네!’ He smiled looking at you. Whatever it was it sounded like a compliment. You smiled even tho you had no idea what he just said and shook your head.

'한국말 못 해요’ you answered with one of the few sentences you knew.

'can I still buy you a drink’ he said in perfect English and you beamed at him. 

'Yes sure!’ You took a closer look at him. He was tall and a bit bulky but muscular bulky and his smile was very charming. 

'Do you wanna do shots?’ He asked you and you nodded. You waited on your spot while the guy moved smoothly  between the crowd all the way to the front of the bar and ordered. He came back with 2 shot glasses and a bottle of clear liquor. 

'Let’s go to that table’ he nodded towards a little table on the side. You stopped at the table and turned towards him he stopped next to you and put down the glasses and the bottle. As he was filling your cups you got a good close view of his side profile. He looked at you from the corner of his eyes and grinned at you. He pushed your glass towards you and held his one up.

'Cheers’ you said raising your glass.

'건배!’  he smiled, you looked at him confused. 

'What?’ you asked, he grinned.

'That’s cheers in Korean.’ He laughed and you repeated it slowly. You two clinked glasses and took your shot. 

'So are you just visiting?’ He asked and you nodded.

'Yes I’m just traveling a bit and you? Are from here?’ He shook his head.

'No I’m from Chicago but I moved here some time ago’ he answered and filled your glass again.

'So you’re all on your own?‘ he asked with a curious smile on his lips,you nodded again.

'Wow that’s impressive and you went here also all by yourself?’ Again you nodded. You two took another shot. 

'Yes I wanted to know what it’s like’ he grinned and nudged you.

'And do you like it?’ You nodded grinning at him turning towards him, your side pressed against the table. 

'I’m Johnny by the way’ he said grinning and bringing the glass to his lips again. His lips were plump and probably very soft you thought to yourself. He looked at you with slightly wider opened eyes as he finished his and you realised you haven’t told him your name yet you just have been staring at him.

‘Y/N’ you said and blushing a bit.

‘wanna go and dance Y/N?’ you nodded smiling. Johnny and you finished a last shot then you walked to the dance floor. You grabbed Johnny’s elbow to not lose him in the crowd. He  safely moved you through the crowd until he  found a spot that seemed like a good place to dance. The music was loud but upbeat enough to dance to. You were both dancing smiling at each other and making weird hand movements. You were just dancing in your own little bubbles not invading each other’s personal space. Not until some group of people shoved you around and Johnny grabbed your waist. He pulled you towards him to make sure you weren’t swept away with the crowd. Unconsciously you grabbed his arms to hold onto him.

'Thanks’ you mumbled and you were sure he couldn’t hear you. You stepped a bit back but his hands didn’t leave your waist. You looked up at Johnny and he smiled at you. Putting your hands back on his upper arms you started to dance with him. There was still a lot of space between the two of you and it was a little bit awkward at first but then he pulled you closer. You smiled his shoulder was right where your forehead was so you rested it against him. Being that close to Johnny you started to notice more and more things about him. First of all he smelled amazing. Like great cuddles takeout and amazing conversations. Your hands rested on his muscular arms and you couldn’t help but let your fingers run up and down his muscles. And to top it all of he had a really good sense of rhythm and that is always a turn on. You felt his hands resting on your hips comfortably and suddenly you remember him taking the shot. His plump pink lips on the glass. You pushed yourself a bit away from Johnny so you could look at his face. He smiled at you, his dark brown locks falling into his face looking way to perfect to be a real person. You looked at him grinning. You felt one of his hands leave your hips and he placed it softly at the the side of your neck. Simultaneously your two eyes flickered to each others lips and your faces inched closer. You were sure about his lips, they were soft. Super soft. Johnny softly held your face and slowly started to move his lips. It felt like the music totally faded and everything was just Johnny. Your skin started to tingle and before you even noticed your hands were in his hair and you had pulled yourself closer to him.  Johnny slowly brushed his tongue over your bottom lip and you kissed him back harder. After some time you inched away to look at each other. You grinned and giggled at him, he smiled back at you. Your fingers played with his hair letting it run through your fingers. You smiled at each other for a few moments than Johnny grabbed your waist and pulled you quickly towards him kissing you passionately. Tiptoeing you leaded into Johnny chest kissing him like there was no tomorrow. You didn’t breath which you didn’t even realised until the lack of oxygen forced to pull away. You rested your head on his shoulder. His thumbs were circling over your hip bones. He kissed the side of your head and whispered into you ear.

‘When are you leaving Seoul?‘ he asked. You looked at him again you right hand on his chest the left one still around his neck.

‘Why are you asking?‘ you kissed him again pulling him down to you by his neck. Pulling his bottom lip softly with your teeth you pulled away again. You both were panting, grinning at each other.

‘I just want to know how long I can enjoy your company‘

‘A few days‘ he smiled at your answer. You saw a skinny dark haired boy waving at you trying to get your attention even jumping up. You looked confused at him and then looked back at Johnny.

‘There is a guy jumping and waving‘ you mumbled. Johnny turned around, his shoulders rose and fell in a sigh.

‘It’s one of my friends I quickly talk to him and find out what he wants‘ he quickly pecked your lips and turned around. Quickly grabbing his hand you followed him. He grinned over his shoulder and let you to group of guys you noticed earlier. He was quickly discussing something with the other guys. A tall muscular one was grinning at you, blushing a little bit you looked back at Johnny. After talking back and forth for a few minutes Johnny turned around and stepped closer to you so he could talk to you. He held you close by the waist to talk to..

‘they wanna go home‘ he said into your ear his lips softly brushing against your ear. You raised an eyebrow smiling.

‘And you?‘ You asked and Johnny grinned putting his head the side squeezing your hip lightly. He bit his bottom lip and smirked at you.

‘I’m staying’ he grinned and you nodded smiling. He turned to his friends once again, said something to the small skinny boy that was jumping trying to get your attention earlier. He laughed and friendly hit his shoulder; then he turned around and winked at you waving a bye. The other guys followed and Johnny looked back at you.

‘I’m sorry about that’ he brushed your hair behind your ear. You shook your head looking into his dark brown eye. He kissed you again his hand travelled down your back resting on your butt. One arm around your shoulder the other one around your butt he pulled you as close as possible. He nibbled on your lip and a soft moan escaped your lips. You felt him smirk against your lips.

‘Do you wanna go home?‘ you suggested lips still hovering over his. He nodded kissing you once again, holding your face. Abruptly he pulled away and grabbed your hand. You got your jackets and walked outside johnny‘s hand still firmly wrapped around yours. You told him the address of your hotel and he immediately managed to stop a taxi. He told the taxi driver the adress and you looked at him in awe, the way Korean rolled over his tongue mesmerised you. You felt his hand on the inside of your thighs playing with the fabric. You held his arm making sure he wouldn’t tease you too much inside the taxi. The right wasn’t too long but no one really talked. Although it was like you could feel the electricity between you and Johnny. Arriving in front of the hotel you quickly paid the driver and thanked him hurrying out of his car. Confidently you walked to the elevator your steps echoing on the big marble floor. Waiting for the elevator to come you looked at Johnny grinning. It was very late and there were no many people around except from the staff in the lobby so you pushed Johnny against the metal wall of the elevator as soon as it opened. You reached next to him to press your floor number then moved right back to his lips. Hands tangled in his hair, tiptoeing you pressed yourself against him. Pushing your hips against his crotch his grip tightened on your waist. The bell indicating you reached your floor rang and the two of you pulled away. You let him quickly to your door. You opened the door and were immediately pushed inside by Johnny. The hard surface of the wall hit your back. Johnny attacked your neck, kissing, sucking and biting down on the delicate skin. Rolling your head to the side you looped your arms around his neck holding his hat and pulling him closer to you, moans escaped your lips again. His hands groping your body you grind against his hardening crotch. He pushing himself more into you already pushing all the buttons grinding into you. Lifting your leg and wrapping it around his waist so he could get a better angle he pushed you harder and harder against the wall. Already feeling like a mess you tried to hold onto him as much as possible, strong moans now leaving your parted lips.

‘does that feel good baby?‘ Johnny‘s voice was dark and shaking with his own pants. You nodded wrapping your leg harder against him.

‘Let me hear how good I make you feel‘ he husked thrusting hard into your clothes core. You shrieked dragging your nails across his back. He looped his arms under your legs pulling you of your feed. Like you were weightless he carried you to the big hotel bed. He was on top of you seconds after he laid you down. Hands rinsing under your shirt squeezing your boobs you were topless in the next moment. Legs wrapped around his waist again you moved against him trying to get some satisfying friction. Your hands were all over the place tugging at the pieces of clothing trying to get them removed as fast as possible. Being fully undressed you both took a moment to slow down and look at each other. Johnny was muscular strong arms and a toned torso. And his face, his hair was sticking on his forehead already sweating a little bit eyes fixed onto you.

‘You look stunning‘ he said hands ghostly stroking your skin giving you goosebumps.

‘Right back at you‘ you said making him grin. He kissed you again first on the lips then going further to the neck, nibbling at your collarbone leaving a small purple mark on your skin. His lips continued to train downwards first to your breast then further down.  His hand reached between your legs stroking over your folds.

‘Johnny‘ you breathed your hands already collecting fabric with your fists.

‘Yeah?‘ he looked up at you grinning smugly.

‘Keep going on‘ you moaned closing your eyes. Johnny dipped his fingers into you.

‘Fuuuuuck‘ you moaned already feeling heat rushing over your body.

‘Feels good baby?‘ he asked still that grin plastered on his face.

‘Yes‘ you breathed rocking into his fingers.

‘Does this even feel better‘ he massaged your clit with his thumb while skillfully curling his fingers inside you. You couldn’t even answer you just moaned and whined under his touches. Feeling your walls clench you gripped hard onto the bed frame.

‘Johnny I’m gonna‘ you couldn’t even finish the sentence before every crashed around you. Mixing johnny‘s name with all sorts of swears you quivered under his touch. Johnny removed his fingers and grabbed his wallet. Everything was still foggy for you but you saw him pulling out a shiny package out ripping it open and pulling the condom over his rock hard member. Johnny didn’t gave you much time to recover. He was back on top of you, hands right next to your head pushing him a bit apart from you. You looked you in the eyes as he entered you groaning at the sudden sensation.

‘Fuck baby you feel so fucking good‘ he moaned kissing you again. Johnny started to slowly thrust into you. Louder moans escaped your lips but you tried to bite them down. Johnny looked at you holding up your chin with his hand.

‘No no baby. I want to hear everything. I want to hear how fucking good I make you feel. Don’t bite back‘ he looked at you stern while pounding harder into you,you could feel another high approaching. You couldn’t hold back anything. Johnny‘s moans and the sound of your two bodies colliding were filling your mind with euphoria. Soon the whole room was filled with curses and borderline screams. Your vision got blurry and you dug your nails into his back holding onto him while riding out your high. Johnny followed almost instantly groaning and breathing shakily. He pounded into you sloppily and collapsed after you two reached your end. He brushed the hair out of your face removed himself. He quickly chucked the used condom in the bin on the nightstand and pulled you into his chest.

‘I hope this is the best memory of your trip‘ he mumbled holding you close.

‘You better bet it is‘ he chuckled kissing the top of your head and closing his eyes.

Happy Birthday KUN ♥

Happy Birthday Kun! I hope that you have a great one and you will be happy for the start of the new year. 

I feel, No I know, you will debut this year and everyone knows we are not prepared and ready!

So fighting KUN and I love you!

So I felt like shit the last days so I couldn’t write really and I’m a bit dissapointed with myself because I’m so excited for Kun and I love this awkward bean. but that’s all I could do.

Imagine: Taking Kun to a small park with a pond for his Birthday. You both just stroll maybe talking a little bit but mostly enjoying each others company. For the end of this little birthday date you take him to a fancy Chinese restaurant because you know he is secretly missing home especially on his birthday. 

EXO’s Christmas trees

D.o D.o‘s style is clean and casual. So your apartment was too. However you didn’t want to miss out on a Christmas tree but naturally it turned out to be simple yet beautiful one. D.o‘s Christmas cookies in the oven were filling the air with their amazing smell while to two of you were decorating the tree. 

Kai Kai loved Christmas. The food was amazing and he could spend more time with you. Kai would watch you closely following the instructions you gave him, knowing you love Christmas as much as he does. Prepare for eating a lot of food until you fall into a food coma.

Chanyeol

Chanyeol and you were way to excited for Christmas so you got a little over to top. Both of you were screaming Christmas songs at the top of the lungs. Chanyeol carried you on his shoulders so that you count decorate the top of the tree. At the end you drank hot cocoa in front of your big tree. 

Xiumin

Xiumin loved winter and he loved Christmas. Everything slowed down a bit and you cuddled a lot more. With Christmas songs softly playing  in the back you were decorating the tree Xiumins arms around your waist. Prepare for a lot of hugs and pecks so it might take the whole day to decorate the tree but it was worth it. 

Lay

Lay wanted to make you happy so he gave you all the creative freedom he might was not totally convinced by a purple Christmas tree but he trusted you enough. He was watching you from the sofa in case you needed any help holding the boxes with the ornaments. He was complimenting you all the time way more that you could take. Needles to say Lay was more than happy with the tree. 

Sehun

Like with most things with Sehun you two were sassing each other. Lovingly like always but shots were fired. You two decided on a white Christmas tree because according to Sehun it complimented the apartment and by apartment he ment Vivi. Nethertheless if it complimented the apartment or your dog it looked pretty and you both had a funny Christmas. 

Baekhyun

Similar to Chanyeol, Baekhyun was overly excited. You still somehow managed to still be able some tree and have not all the colours in your tree. Still Christmas songs were blasting in you apartment and you were both singing at the top of your lungs. At the end you were both laying on the couch admiring your tree. 

Chen

You knew this was going something when Chen came with a big Christmas tree to your door this morning. After a few failed attempts to put up the tree Chen managed to secure the tree whining a few times. You two struggled with the lights but you couldn’t stop laughing during the whole process.

Suho

Suho‘s tree looked soft and tasteful. Decorating the tree was a calming activity for the both of you. Christmas was always a stressful time so having an evening where you two were just talking and decorating the tree was a great way to have some quiet time. Prepare for some deep conversations and maybe talk about your guys‘ future, Christmas tents to be a time when people reflect on their lifes.

Happy Holidays everyone and have a great start in the new year ♥