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@pellaaearien / pellaaearien.tumblr.com

current fandoms: sandman, ffxiv, lucifer, doctor who | writes much fic | 32 | linguist, tolkienite, all around nerd | not currently open for prompts | streamer | she/her | sidebar image by zanarkand-s
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Hark! A pinned post!

I have finally decided to do an intro post, more for archival purposes than anything, but yes. Hello! You can call me Pella, or Pell. My name, which is very long, is a remnant from the olden times of the Barrow-Downs Elven name generator (and forums!), which shows how long I've been around. She/her pronouns, please. I welcome asks and ask games, and will generally answer them, unless I forget.

Mostly, I write fic:

Find me on Ao3! Please note you currently must be logged in to your account to access my works.

Please make fanworks of my work! I'd consider it the highest honour. Just please tag me so I can see!

Current Active Fandoms:

  • The Sandman
  • FFXIV

Not Current, But Not Forgotten:

  • Lucifer on Netflix
  • Doctor Who
  • Dragon Age

Tagging:

I am pretty horrendous about tagging (I'm frequently on mobile) but I do my best. I do try to make an effort for spoilers.

With that said, this is not a complete selection of everything that can be found on my blog, but most stuff should be covered--

pella writes - my writing pella reads - other peoples' writing pella answers - answered asks pella poses - for my FFXIV gpose endeavours otp: sun and snow - for all things related to Eyn'ara and Aymeric

OC Do Not Steal:

My FFXIV character is also my OC and the light of my life, Eyn'ara! Please pleasepleaseplease send me questions about her

(Commission courtesy of the wonderful mellifera38 here on tumblr!)

And... I think that's everything! Welcome, please enjoy your stay, and may you always walk in the light!

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This really ought to top every “Best Opening Lines,” list. The 21st century reading public is sleeping on Dorothy L Sayers.

(Have His Carcase 1932)

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Anyone ever put off starting a series or getting into a new craft or activity because you're current stimuli are doing you quite nicely and you KNOW there's heaps of dopamine stored in that new thing so you're saving it for whenever your next major depressive episode hits like a pika hoarding grass for winter or do I just have severe ADHD?

Oh hang on a minute.

That's why so many of us have piles of books on our shelves we haven't read or to-read collections on Ao3. Those are future dopamine stores, for when the current interests start having diminishing returns.

Well fuck I feel way less guilty about keeping all that shit now. Because I *will* get into it at some point. I get into all my art supplies within five years and I get into books within seven. I even get back into stuff I was previously engaged with and fell out with. It's a dopamine store that needed to recharge.

Cool.

I will also now be pleased instead of confused when people tag my fic "to read". It passed the quality threshold to be put in the emergency stores. High praise, that.

Hm. The Secret Social Recognition Euphoria when I realize I have successfully implemented a technique I learned in therapy for dealing with Alexithymia (identifying specific behaviors, identifying what I'm getting out of the behavior to identify the emotion at work, deciding what if anything I want to do about that) without prompting is pretty great. I love when therapy rewards me for using it and my ADHD gremlin gets rewarded for good behavior so I keep doing it. Great design there. Good job, therapists!

This is different than "this is being hoarded because I do not have the energy for New", which is an awful place to be in, but hoarding New Dopamine then will mean you have stores for later when things stabilize a bit and you do have energy for New. It actually takes the New Thing energy threshold down because it's right there, so you can skip the step of "looking for a New thing".

This is more "I could start that right now but tbh I don't really need it" which is a great place and very achievable to get to! Also, I am very pleased with myself for putting in the effort to get here. I am consciously noting that effort does work and pays off for the next time the depression hits. I am both doing better and doing well, and I should be proud of that.

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I remember discovering the fire of Notre Dame on tumblr, so I'm very sorry to inform everyone that the Danish Stock Exchange in Copenhagen, completed in 1625, is burning. Its unique spire has fallen, and as the building is, to a larger degree than Notre Dame, made of wood, mortar, and stucco, there may be very real structural damage. As you can see from the image, they were in the process of restoring it, just as it was the case with the church. Very real reconsideration should be done to how we restore very old buildings if we keep setting them on fire during the work.

People off the street have been seen running into the building and bringing out historical art pieces, primarily paintings. If you are close by, DO NOT do this! I know it appears the heroic thing to do, but no human life is worth the risk to save a painting, no matter how significant.

Before all this:

Update:

The fire is now under control, and the firefighters are dealing with the embers. It has been possible to save the superstructure, that is to say the outer walls, foundational supports, and main inner supports, but about half of the interior is completely burnt out.

The people who were seen running into the building were misreported as people off the street - they were, thankfully, employees and specialists who knew what was where, and who were let in by the firefighters while it was deemed safe. Hundreds of artworks and pieces of cultural importance have been removed under police escort to the National Museum and its storage and restoration facility in the nearby town of Brede, where they'll be indexed and carefully looked after by the best experts in the country.

Danish Business, who has their headquarters in the Stock Exchange, has sworn that no matter what the damage, they will rebuild. This has happened once before with a Christian 4th building, namely Frederiksborg Castle, where Carlsberg ended up buying and restoring the building when it burnt to a similar state in the late 19th century. One can only hope that this time the result will be as historically aware and beautiful, and that no one lets Bjarke Ingels close to the site...

Nothing left but a burnt out husk now.

Incredibly Bad News

On the evening of April 18th, 2024, the outer walls on the Stock Exchange collapsed. A photo taken from the next door Christiansborg Palace tower shows the extent of this new devastation: the intact parts of the building have also been ruined thanks to the collapse of the outer superstructure, and the fire has rekindled due to the new material:

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opiumvampire

tumblr user: time to make a completely innocuous post targeting a handful of mutuals who possess required context, interests, or opinions to understand and appreciate it :)

the densest, most unfunny person you have never interacted with before in your entire life:

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landwriter

trying to see something real quick! please rb for visibility and sample size

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Thank god they brought back An Amount Of Daylight That Makes You Want To Live. It was getting a bit scary for a minute there.

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apoemaday

"Have you got a brook in your little heart"

by Emily Dickinson

Have you got a brook in your little heart, Where bashful flowers blow, And blushing birds go down to drink, And shadows tremble so?

And nobody knows, so still it flows, That any brook is there; And yet your little draught of life Is daily drunken there.

Then look out for the little brook in March, When the rivers overflow, And the snows come hurrying from the hills, And the bridges often go.

And later, in August it may be, When the meadows parching lie, Beware, lest this little brook of life Some burning noon go dry!

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Everything is like “QUEER history” and “List of QUEER young adult books” or “Top 10 QUEER movies” and queer this and queer that and for the love of god please just say LGBT.

But queer is more inclusive

And faster to pronounce if you are talking instead of writing.

It’s not more inclusive, and if your excuse of using a slur as a blanket term is “it’s faster to say”, GENUINELY what is wrong with you

It’s called economía del lenguaje.

It’s also the respected academic term?? The acronym isn’t static and it’s usage is varied by things like generational difference, location, and knowledge of the community. Even just in the U.S. in the last few decades the common usage gone from GLBT to LGBT to LGBTQ, to LGBTQA/LGBTQIA/LGBTQIAP/etc (Which, let me tell you as someone who has given presentations in the past using these updated acronyms, are all real mouthfulls), to LGBT+.

Also yes, queer is more inclusive! Especially coming at it from an academic standpoint, people didn’t always use or identify with the terms we use now and you can’t always try to cram them into our modern perceptions of sexuality. We can argue for years about whether a famous historical figure was gay or bisexual or straight and trans or whatever, but if we can all agree that they were somehow queer then using that term allows us to move past the debate and into productive discussion. And not everybody everywhere shares the same terms for sexual and gender identity, or even the same concepts of those things, so queer really is a more inclusive term in a lot of cases.

Like yeah if you’re talking specifically about gay or trans people you can just say gay or transgender, but if you’re talking about more than one identity or someone who doesn’t conform to our perceptions of ‘LGBT,’ or a person or people whose identity you don’t know, queer is just the better word.

“That’s SO gay”, “Oh my god, you’re not a LESBIAN, are you?”

Your words are slurs, too. Why do you get your words, but I don’t get mine? What makes you so special?

I’m here, I’m queer, go fuck yourself.

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levynite

queer is not a slur, stop drinking the TERF koolaid

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darthsuki

every time one of you fools spout about ‘queer is a slur’ a terf laughs because their fucking plan to make that word ‘taboo’ is fucking working you dipshit.

I did not get my degree in queer literature for you all to keep pulling this bullshit.

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moki-dokie

baby gays,,,, i beg of you to learn your queer history and stop listening to terf bullshit

every single one of our labels has been used as a slur against us.

terfs and -phobes are always going to try and hurt us with what we identify as. but the fact remains these are OUR labels and always have been.

we’re here, we’re queer, get used to it.

I don’t know if this is just because I’m not American but I’ve never heard queer used as a slur. Ever. Meanwhile gay was the insult in the 2000s here. Everything you didn’t like was ‘soo gay’. Queer wasn’t even a word most of us knew back then.

It just baffled me that people would think an identifier is automatically a slur just because someone uses it to mock someone. If we did that gay would be a slur. Stupid would be a slur. Autistic would be a slur.

The reason people are upset about the word queer is that it’s a unifying term. You can say you’re queer and all people will know is that you’re part of the community. But you can’t say you’re LGBT, you have to say you’re gay or trans or ace. They don’t want you to be ambiguously queer. They want you to say which kind of queer you are so they can decide whether you’re undesirable.

yeah in the 90s and early 2000s kids would call each other “gay” as an insult. But no one ties themselves in knots over whether “gay” is a slur. So yeah, please ffs learn your history.

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rabidchild67

They want you to say which kind of queer you are so they can decide whether you’re undesirable.

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self-winding

"A cishet person must have made this, no queer person would ever portray queerness in this way."

"This artist must be white."

"No SA victim would ever handle the subject in this way."

"No woman would ever write women like this."

"This creator is obviously neurotypical. Everyone with autism/ADHD/depression understands-"

Nope.

People who make these blanket statements are very frequently proven wrong when the creator comes out as a member of that group. And even when they aren't proven wrong, even in cases where the creator isn't from the group in question, actual members of the group who don't fit whatever arbitrary criteria are being expressed will see these statements and feel excluded and erased.

Not everyone in your group is going to share your experiences. No single individual gets to personally decide what does or doesn't count as a "valid" expression of trauma or being part of a particular group, and creators are also not obligated to out themselves in order to "prove" their validity.

If something doesn't resonate with you, all that means is that it doesn't resonate with you. You don't have to like it. But you don't get to decide what it means to someone else.

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iamnmbr3

this is so important

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