[pm] They always say that. But it’s bullshit. Preying on vulnerability. Like your friend’s. It’s all for their own gain. Could be tragic, with a nature like that. If it weren’t so damn annoying for everyone else.
‘Least that’s promising. Imagine it’ll take a while to let go of all that hurt. ‘Specially after all this. Is she in good hands?
What was it like? Always imagined it’d be overwhelming. But I still wonder.
I know. Don’t worry ‘bout me. Truthfully, I’ll be fine. Always found a nice prance ‘round nature works. Or a good hunt. Worries of the mind melt away when hands are busy. Also enjoy some quality time with James and Tulip. If he doesn’t fuss too much. Are you managing well? You got tried-and-true tricks, too?
[pm] Ugh. I don’t know why I’m surprised.
And she’s in good hands, yeah. Or, well, she’s in the best hands I can give her. She’s staying with me now that she’s gotten out of that bad situation that prompted the wish.
So overwhelming! Especially at first! I felt like my skin was crawling in the worst way. Everything was so startling and I couldn’t process it all at once, at first, and it made me so clumsy and jumpy. And then, pain! Human pain is so weird and terrifying. I don’t miss that part at all. But the more I got used to it, the more it felt like--the world really is a beautiful, incredible place. It’s incredible we get to be here and feel so much in so short a time. And, okay, this might sound bananas considering I teach writing and literature, but the whole experience showed me just how inadequate words are for capturing our lives. Like, blueberry pancakes are fluffy, heavy, sweet, buttery, tart, and juicy. And that’s before you add in maple syrup. And yet all of those things get squeezed into just “blueberry pancakes.” There is so much that gets taken for granted, there is so much to discover. It’s sort of incredible.
A prance, huh? With your wildflowers? Also, you hunt?
I don’t really have tried and true tricks, per se, but I was conveniently overwhelmed with much bigger problems not long after the wish was undone. And by the time that happened anyway, I was just so relieved to not hurt anymore, to feel...familiar to myself again. I guess if I did anything, I compartmentalized. Put the good in one box, the suffering in another, and tried to focus on being grateful.