• “ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”
• “i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”
• “my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”
• “i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”
• “don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”
• “i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”
• “please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”
• “you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”
• “you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”
• “i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”
• “i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”
• “i fucked up, why do you not care?”
• “i can’t walk, just go on without me.”
• “you have broken ribs, take it easy.”
• “i have no idea how to do cpr.”
• “whose blood is that?”
• “apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”
• “don’t you dare fucking let go!” 
• “what the hell happened to you?” 
• “are they dead? did you kill them?” 
• “do you know what you’ve done?” 
• “you’re either with me or against me.” 
• “who the hell did this to you?” 
• “are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 
• “i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 
• “when was the last time you ate?” 
• “what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 
•  “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 
• “for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 
• “there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 
• “are you… throwing up in there?” 
• “why aren’t you eating?” 
• “just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 
• “i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 
• “i woke up, & you were gone.” 
• “just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 
• "it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

ouat oc. anna blanchard. emma swan’s twin sister. the black swan. based on swan lake’s odile​. written by ada. @blcckswan

❝ you look tense,  let me rub your shoulders. ❞ ❝ will you draw on my back? ❞ ❝ i love it when you sing to me ❞ ❝ i drew a bath for you,  let me make you some tea. ❞ ❝ do you want to just stay in bed today? ❞ ❝ come back to bed,  it’s barely sunrise. ❞ ❝ should i get out some candles? ❞ ❝ i picked up your favourite wine. ❞ ❝ will you play with my hair? ❞ ❝ i can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. ❞ ❝ i think you look beautiful. ❞ ❝ i love you even when you have morning breath. ❞ ❝ i cooked dinner for you. ❞ ❝ i brought you dinner. ❞ ❝ can you just hold me for a while? ❞ ❝ i’m just gonna hold you for a while. ❞ ❝ sing me to sleep? ❞ ❝ i’m going to treat you like a  ( queen/king ). ❞ ❝ you’re my whole world. ❞ ❝ a foot rub would be nice. ❞ ❝ are you going to join me? ❞ ❝ may i have this dance? ❞ ❝ shut up and kiss me. ❞

‘  i am a child of a money hungry, prideful country.  ’ ‘  hands so bloody.  ’ ‘  tastes like honey.  ’ ‘  i’m finding it hard to leave.  ’

‘  king midas put his hands on me again.  ’ ‘  he said one day i’d realize why i didn’t have any friends.  ’ ‘  i find myself alone at night unless i’m having sex.  ’ ‘  he can make me golden if i just showed some respect.  ’ ‘  i don’t let him touch me anymore.  ’ ‘  i’m not something to butter up and taste when you’re bored.  ’ ‘  i have spent too many nights on dirty bathroom floors.  ’ ‘  please don’t go away.  ’ ‘  it’s too late.  ’ ‘  i can’t stop thinking that i can’t stop thinking.  ’ ‘  i almost gave you everything.  ’ ‘  now the whole thing’s finished.  ’ ‘  i can’t stop wishing that i never gave you anything.  ’ ‘  i wrote a hundred letters.  ’

‘  i know what to say.  ’ ‘  it’s all the same.  ’ ‘  i know this game.  ’ ‘  if i keep my eyes closed, he looks just like you.  ’ ‘  he’ll never stay.  ’ ‘  he’ll never stay, they never do.  ’ ‘  if i keep my eyes closed, he feels just like you.  ’ ‘  you’ve been replaced.  ’ ‘  i’m face to face with someone new.  ’ ‘  would’ve gave it all for you, cared for you.  ’ ‘  tell me where i went wrong.  ’ ‘  he don’t realize that i’m thinking about you.  ’ ‘  he don’t realize that i’m thinking about you. it’s nothing new.  ’ ‘  it’s nothing new.  ’

‘  can you hear my heartbeat fucking kickin?  ’ ‘  you best believe that i got something up my sleeve.  ’ ‘  no time for wishful thinking.  ’ ‘  you thought that you were the boss tonight, but i can put up a good fight.  ’ ‘  i can put up a good fight.  ’ ‘  i flip the script like i can take a beating.  ’ ‘  i can put on a show.  ’ ‘  don’t you see what you’re finding?  ’ ‘  this is heaven in hiding.  ’ ‘  i don’t have no time for conversation.  ’ ‘  this ain’t what you usually do.  ’ ‘  a girl like me is new for you.  ’ ‘  i can tell you mean it ‘cause you’re shaking.  ’

‘  he tried to phone me, but i never have the time.  ’ ‘  he said that i never listen, but i don’t even try.  ’ ‘  i never listen.  ’ ‘  i don’t even try.  ’ ‘  i got a new place, but i’m gone every night.  ’ ‘  she asked if i recognized her and i told her i might.  ’ ‘  everywhere i go, i got a million different people tryna kick it, but i’m still alone in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m still alone in my mind.  ’ ‘  i know you’re dying to meet me.  ’ ‘  baby, as soon as you meet me, you’ll wish that you never did.  ’ ‘  you’ll wish that you never did.  ’ ‘  i got into some trouble with that drink in my veins.  ’ ‘  i got a problem with parties ‘cause it’s loud in my brain.  ’ ‘  i can never say sorry ‘cause i won’t take the blame.  ’ ‘  i know i always go missing.  ’ ‘  if you ask why i’m distant, i’m running away.  ’ ‘  i know you wanna slip under my armor.  ’

‘  i don’t wanna fight right now.  ’ ‘  know you always right.  ’ ‘  know i need you ‘round with me.  ’ ‘  nobody waiting ‘round with me.  ’ ‘  been through the ups and downs with me.  ’ ‘  got a whole lot of love.  ’ ‘  got a whole lot of love, but you don’t wanna spread it ‘round with me.  ’ ‘  never pick up, never call me.  ’ ‘  you know we’re running out of time.  ’ ‘  never pick up when you want me. ‘  i gotta draw a line.  ’ ‘  baby, we done enough talking.  ’ ‘  need to know that you’re mine.  ’ ‘  baby gon’ love me now, now or never.  ’ ‘  i want you to hold me down, down forever.  ’ ‘  you know i wanna keep you around.  ’ ‘  i’m turning off the light right now.  ’ ‘  i’m calling it a night now.  ’ ‘  wishing you were around with me.  ’ ‘  we’ve been through it all.  ’ ‘  tryna talk to a wall, but you could never tear it down for me.  ’ ‘  don’t take up no more time.  ’ ‘  i need you to make your mind up.  ’ ‘  don’t take no more time up.  ’ ‘  baby, you gotta decide something.  ’

‘  i’ve missed your calls for months it seems.  ’ ‘  don’t realize how mean i can be.  ’ ‘  i can sometimes treat the people that i love like jewelry.  ’ ‘  i can change my mind each day.  ’ ‘  i didn’t mean to try you on.  ’ ‘  i can sometimes treat the people that i love like jewelry cause i can change my mind each day. i didn’t mean to try you on.  ’ ‘  i still know your birthday and your mother’s favorite song.  ’ ‘  i’m sorry to my unknown lover.  ’ ‘  sorry that i can’t believe that anybody ever really starts to fall in love with me.  ’ ‘  sorry i can be so blind.  ’ ‘  didn’t mean to leave you and all of the things that we had behind.  ’ ‘  i run away when things are good.  ’ ‘  never really understood the way you laid your eyes on me in ways that no one ever could.  ’ ‘  so it seems i broke your heart.  ’ ‘  my ignorance has struck again.  ’ ‘  i failed to see it from the start.  ’ ‘  i tore you open till the end.  ’ ‘  so it seems i broke your heart, my ignorance has struck again.  ’ ‘  i failed to see it from the start and tore you open till the end.  ’ ‘  someone will love you.  ’ ‘  someone will love you, but someone isn’t me.  ’

‘  breakfast is cold.  ’ ‘  breakfast is cold, as cold as our bed.  ’ ‘  i’m watching you choke down the words that you said.  ’ ‘  i give you the messiest head.  ’ ‘  you give me the messiest head.  ’ ‘  you’re turning red.  ’ ‘  i’m tryna give the impression that i get the message you wish i was dead.  ’ ‘  i won’t let us finish yet.  ’ ‘  please don’t take this as a threat.  ’ ‘  all i’m saying is if you don’t love me no more then lie.  ’ ‘  i won’t let us finish yet. please don’t take this as a threat.  ’ ‘  you notice that we’re in love, that’s something we cannot change.  ’ ‘  treat her right and she won’t complain.  ’ ‘  there’s no need to lie no more.  ’ ‘  what you gonna die for when everything you’re told is lies?  ’

‘  i’m about four minutes from a heart attack.  ’ ‘  i think you make me a maniac.  ’ ‘  here we go, fist fight in a limousine.  ’ ‘  we both hope there’s something.  ’ ‘  we both keep fronting.  ’ ‘  damn, if these walls could talk.  ’ ‘  shit is crazy, right?  ’ ‘  that ain’t your baby no more.  ’ ‘  i’m about halfway through a cabernet.  ’ ‘  there i go, wasting a saturday sitting at home.  ’ ‘  told my new roommate not to let you in.  ’ ‘  you’re so damn good with a bobby pin.  ’ ‘  told my new roommate not to let you in, but you’re so damn good with a bobby pin.  ’ ‘  you gonna play me like a violin.  ’

‘  he tastes like jack when i’m kissing him.  ’ ‘  i never really liked his friends.  ’ ‘  he’s gone.  ’ ‘  he’s calling me a bitch again.  ’ ‘  he wants me in the kitchen with a dinner plate.  ’ ‘  i believe that we’re meant to be.  ’ ‘  jealousy gets the best of me.  ’ ‘  i believe that we’re meant to be, but jealousy gets the best of me.  ’ ‘  look, i don’t mean to frustrate, but i always make the same mistakes.  ’ ‘  i’m bad at love.  ’ ‘  i’m bad at love, but you can’t blame me for trying.  ’ ‘  you know i’d be lying saying you were the one that could finally fix me.  ’ ‘  looking at my history i’m bad at love.  ’ ‘  i thought that she could really be the one this time.  ’ ‘  i never had the chance to make her mine.  ’ ‘  she fell in love with little thin white lines.  ’ ‘  never told no one, but we look so cute.  ’ ‘  both got way better things to do.  ’ ‘  i always think about her when i’m riding through.  ’ ‘  i believe that i’m in too deep.  ’ ‘  i know that you’re afraid i’m gonna walk away.  ’ ‘  each time the feeling fades.  ’

‘  looking as fine as a damn monet.  ’ ‘  everybody’s thirsty. drinks on me.  ’ ‘  tryna take back what you say to me.  ’ ‘  i don’t give a damn what you say to me.  ’ ‘  there ain’t no time for games with me.  ’ ‘  i’m moving on.  ’ ‘  i’m getting paid.  ’ ‘  i’m moving on, i’m getting paid.  ’ ‘  i’m on my own.  ’ ‘  i had some space to deal with it.  ’ ‘  it’s getting late.  ’ ‘  go and grab someone and find a place to deal with it.  ’ ‘  don’t even try.  ’ ‘  can’t fuck up my vibe.  ’ ‘  motherfucker, don’t play with me.  ’ ‘  i am not the type to be out past dawn.  ’ ‘  i am not the type to admit i’m on.  ’ ‘  women, don’t play no games.  ’

‘  she doesn’t kiss me on the mouth anymore.  ’ ‘  she doesn’t kiss me on the mouth anymore ‘cause it’s more intimate than she thinks we should get.  ’ ‘  she doesn’t look me in the eyes anymore.  ’ ‘  too scared of what she’ll see.  ’ ‘  when i wake up all alone and i’m thinking of your skin, i remember what you told me.  ’ ‘  we’re not lovers.  ’ ‘  we’re just strangers.  ’ ‘  we’re not lovers, we’re just strangers.  ’ ‘  we’re not lovers, we’re just strangers with the same damn hunger.  ’ ‘  we’re just strangers with the same damn hunger to be touched, to be loved, to feel anything at all.  ’ ‘  she doesn’t call me on the phone anymore.  ’ ‘  she’s never listening, she says it’s innocent.  ’ ‘  she doesn’t let me have control anymore.  ’ ‘  i must’ve crossed a line.  ’ ‘  i must’ve lost my mind.  ’ ‘  i miss the mornings with yo laying in bed.  ’ ‘  i miss the memories replaying in my head.  ’ ‘  i miss the thought of forever, you and me.  ’ ‘  all you’re missing is my body.  ’

‘  i woke up to another mess in the living room.  ’ ‘  don’t wake me in my sleep.  ’ ‘  they talk and drink and laugh about things and fall in love.  ’ ‘  nobody seems to ask about me anymore.  ’ ‘  nobody seems to care about anything i think.  ’ ‘  nobody seems to recognize me in the crowd.  ’ ‘  i’m faded away.  ’ ‘  i’m faded away, you know, i used to be on fire.  ’ ‘  i used to be on fire.  ’ ‘  i used to be a darling starlet like a centerpiece.  ’ ‘  i had the whole world wrapped around my ring.  ’ ‘  i flew too closely to the sun and now i’m melting from my wings.  ’

‘  you said i should eat my feelings.  ’ ‘  i scream too loud if i speak my mind.  ’ ‘  i don’t wanna wake it up, the devil in me.  ’ ‘  gotta wake up.  ’ ‘  come back to life.  ’ ‘  you said i’m too much to handle.  ’ ‘  you said i shine too bright.  ’

‘  boy, you make it look so easy.  ’ ‘  promise that i’m gonna call you back in five.  ’ ‘  sorry, baby girl, but i can’t tonight.  ’ ‘  boy, you make it look so simple.  ’ ‘  i’ve known that girl for like my hole life.  ’ ‘  you know the truth hurts, but secrets kill.  ’ ‘  can’t help thinking that i love it still.  ’ ‘  there must be something real.  ’ ‘  you know the good die young.  ’ ‘  you know the good die young, but so did this.  ’ ‘  it must be better than i think it is.  ’ ‘  it’s easy to forgive.  ’ ‘  you and all your friends hate me.  ’ ‘  you and all your friends hate me, thinking that you’re better when i’m not around.  ’ ‘  you’re better when i’m not around.  ’ ‘  i can’t help the way you made me.  ’ ‘  i’m thinking that you want us.  ’