we did it
people pleasing will be the death of me. it’s ruining my head. my sense of who i am feels so fragile and fake, like i’m in a liminal space between my grounded identity and a floating, dreamlike persona. i think i’m finally exhausted. i’m afraid of how untethered i am to my interests and aspirations and how much more willing i am to make someone else is happier. it’s only at my expense. it’s my fault. bell hooks taught me that i’ll never find love if i’m a liar, and she’s right. i only lie to please. i’m a hot-blooded deceiver. what i think doesn’t matter to me. i’ll be your doormat completely. i’ll do it for free. in some twisted way, i believe asserting normal boundaries is a cruel act, and i’m mean for doing it - where on earth is my self-respect? will i die old and withered, unhappy and unloved, because my fraud-of-a-persona made me forget who i am and what i like? i’ll let girls use my friendship like disposable income and i’ll apologise on behalf of men who treat me two-dimensionally. bell hooks, bell hooks, bell hooks; you told me it’s all about love, but if i’m stuck pretending to be someone else, will they love me, or only my people pleasing?
what are the top lockdown twitch streams that you recommend people watch??
this is actually my expert field and i thank you SO much for asking
my faves (that are available on youtube) are:
- iconic, a whole entire mess, who knows what was going on, cut my english garden innit
- the fact this stream was at like 9am-ish deserves its own analysis but the home of so many iconic moments ‘charles someone says you look like mattia binotto’ ‘okay’ ‘are these glasses to see or are they for style’ ‘no no to see..although i see anyway’ ‘go left go left’ ‘lEfT?’
- the infamous ‘GEORGE’ stream but honestly this whole thing starting with these exact quotes should tell you enough honestly:
george: boiiiiiiis bois bois bois
alex: euGeugh
charles in a chipmunk voice: hello
- a rare winter lockdown stream feature, the sheer amount of hopeless tech difficulty at the start is worth it for the live pringles ad reaction cam at the end
- i haven’t watched this one in a while but i recall SO many technical difficulties until we got to the gems that were ‘i like that when you died you blamed me like. oh alex. as if im in control of your thumbs’ and ‘you are trying to downgrade my talent’ and ‘a red banana’ ‘yeah an apple’ ‘a red banana is not an apple’
extremely special shoutouts to:
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
if i can’t have a win i’ll take charles leclerc humiliating sergio perez once again
Can’t Risk it
manifestations ✨
Fa sho
I’m just kinda curious! Please reblog for a larger sample size!
austin gp actually never happened none of it was real
so heather bamberg, the jeweller who designed all the bolo ties the drivers got this weekend has been posting close ups and explanations on instagram and theyre SO cool (under the cut cos there's 10 of them):
i love it when italians argue about italian. like we don’t even know how our language really works we just roll with it
Italian is 107 different provincial languages stuck together with spit and half a prayer
My bf lives in another region and we are constantly arguing about regional variations of words and we both live in the fucking north of Italy
one time i saw a map of italy but instead of cities and roads etc it was just covered w different ways you can say the word vagina. it was covered
oh I can think of at least seven ways to say the word vagina right off the top of my head rn. I can’t imagine what I could do if I tried harder
Fjgkahfmangksoajufnajejgnanfjakirjvjjs
this is the Italian Vagina Map, reblog to… I’m not sure actually. Can’t hurt though.
reblog to Italian season your pussy
CHARLES POLLLLEEEEE
I am looking respectfully
respectfully !!
i’m gonna be laying here, recovering from carlos’s NY photodump 🥲 i’m not well. i’m not doing okay. i’m gonna throw up
that pic of him in a hoodie!!! he just looks so cozy, i need to sit down to recover!!!
incredible race weekend everybody! let's never do it again
dreamy
cr: ig