I am finally letting you go.

Every inch of my being, touched by your soul, has stopped yearning for your caress to be whole.

All the things that reminds me of you, doesn't make my heart ache as much they used to.

Every memory we had, all the good and bad, has now been put to rest at the back of my chest.

Promises that were kept & words that were said will now remain as echoes of a love once shared.

It's all going to be a nostalgic story of how I first fell in love at nineteen and how our love was both calm & exhilarating until we grew apart without us knowing.

I am at peace knowing we gave our all, that we shared a love that was once so tall. I have kept you in my heart for so long, but now its time to finally loosen the grasp from everything we were, we'll ever be, and all the unknown.

I'm sorry for all my shortcomings and all the things I couldn't be. I will always be grateful that I had been seen, heard, & loved by you and I just hope I had made you feel the same way, too.

Farewell 🎈

three years na ako dito pero i can never seem to adjust enough ang lungkot pa rin talaga :-)

weird how i used to at least have stories to tell every day and now it just feels like nothing is really going on except the same old plain routine which is basically wake up-work-eat-sleep haha i plan to at least be active and stop being lazy starting tomorrow lol we'll see :–)

3 am.

why am i never enough for anyone?

i have to be a proper lady, a perfect daughter, a better sister, this kind of friend, an understanding person, an ideal woman to be worthy of marriage and so on. its tiring to pretend to each person that i am someone they want me to be. its so tiring that sometimes i don't even know if im still pretending or maybe i am just confused about my own self.

"you can rest and stop pretending to be someone else and start being yourself. as long as you're happy, you're always enough for me"

i have always long for these words that im even wishing maybe someone out there will magically say it haha

mahal kita :–)

after six o seven??? years binago ko na url ko hahaha grabe naman kasi 2nd year high school pa ako nung ginamit ko nobodysqueen panahon na ata para magpahinga siya hahaha wala akong ibang maisip eh either gunita, marahuyo o alaala eh taken na lahat kaya ok yan nalang hahahaha

12:35 am

hindi ko alam bakit ako nagkakaganito ang labo labo labo hahaha hindi ko na alam kung ano bang dapat kong maramdaman??? kung tama pa ba 'to???? dapat pa ba akong manatili dito hahaha konting konti nalang magb-break down na ako at natatakot akong baka pati yung mga taong nasa paligid ko eh itaboy ko na naman hahaha ang hirap kainin ng lungkot :–)

ang funny lang kanina sa office kung sino pa 'yung di nagcecelebrate ng christmas sila pang nag-ayos ng christmas tree hahahaha libre pa lunch namin kanina kasi nag-aya yung boss namin huhu nakakapagod mag-trabaho pero swerte ko nalang din siguro kasi masaya ako sa ginagawa ko at sana kayo rin!!! nakakalungkot lang kasi wala akong ibang kaibigan dito na magpu-push ng adventurous or spontaneous side ko kaya laging nakamukmok lang ako sa bahay. next year promise mas magkakaroon na ako ng activities outside of work and home!!!!