3/28
I think i should just kilI myself hah
I’m acting like i want to be a fat slob forever
Not even trying at this point
Is it even worth it
🎀 3/27/22 🎀
❥ Intake: 650
❥ Steps: 12,866
❥ Exercise: none
🍓 178.8
3/26/22
Let’s not talk about it! 🥰🔌🛁
🎀 3/25/22 🎀
❥ Intake: 1174
❥ Steps: 19,955
❥ Exercise: none
Today was actually good. I won a decent outside scholarship and was only one of two people to get it =) also I’m finally losing weight again lol. I need to start sticking to my habits though :/
🍓 176
🎀 3/24/22 🎀
❥ Intake: ~1,200
❥ Steps: 15,062
❥ Exercise: none
Today was pretty okay actually. I had a few binge urges but I was able to resist them. I have to work tomorrow (Friday) and Saturday though and I thought I would get those days off :( I feel like work is the main reason why I’m struggling so bad so that sucks.
🍓 178.8 lbs
🎀 3/23/22 🎀
❥ Intake: ~1,200
❥ Steps: 21,062
❥ Exercise: none
Lol. Yesterday sucked.
🍓 179.8 lbs
🎀 3/22/22 🎀
❥ Intake: 1,000
❥ Steps: 10,000
❥ Exercise: none
(Ignore that this is posted a day late lol) oday was okay. I almost caved after school today but I ended up staying on track thankfully. My friend asked me to go to prom and I’m excited but also extremely nervous that I’m not going to be the weight I want by then… 140 is an ambitious goal but i think I’d be happy if i was at that weight by then. I didn’t get in all of my steps but I’m so exhausted and stressed trying to prepare for working and going to school for 8 days straight so honestly whatever.
🍓 179.8 lbs
🎀 3/21/22 🎀
❥ Intake: 990
❥ Steps: 16,594
❥ Exercise: none
Today was weird. Very hard to stay on track. And rainy…. and stormy… this was the closest I’ve ever gotten to a tornado in my life.
I felt very binge prone today, I contemplated just giving up and ordering a pizza and even now I’m debating whether I should just give this up and accept that I will be fat for the rest of my life. At least I’m too tired to do anything…
🍓 didn’t weigh
🎀 3/20/22 🎀
❥ Intake: 965
❥ Steps: 18,383
❥ Exercise: none
I have to be honest… today kind of sucked! I got around 4 or less hours of sleep last night and had to wake up super early to do a 9hr shift. I felt kind of sick from last night’s binge and it was extremely hard to stay on track this morning. I finished off my binge foods and had some other low cal stuff but I stayed under my limit so today was a success overall. I also showered and did some of my overdue homework so that felt nice… but tomorrow there is going to be a severe thunderstorm so I’m afraid i wont be able to get my steps in! :( Totally not looking forward to having to work outside tomorrow…🥲 at least I will end this day feeling skinny and clean.
🍓 187 lbs
My diet goals for this week! (3/20-3/26)
❥ Intake must be less than or equal to 1,000 calories
❥ Supplements + vegetable cals don’t count
❥ Take iron, multivitamins, biotin, ACV, and calcium every day
❥ Walk 15,000 steps per day
I can do this! 💗 I deserve to feel skinny, beautiful, and confident.
This is my last day. My last day of feeling sick and weighed down and disgustingly worthless. I bought a mini haul of things that I want to try during my diet so I will post that tomorrow.
I’m fat. It’s no secret. No matter how hard I try to hide it, the fat will always bulge out and everyone around me is able to tell that I have a serious food addiction problem. My entire life, I have been, “the fat friend.” Not even the fat funny friend. Just the fat one.
I hate taking pictures of myself. I can’t but cute clothes. I wear a size large, and all of my medium shirts fit too tight now. I feel so unloved and alone because of my weight. I will never be able to get a boyfriend with all this lard coating my body.
I will become thin this time. Tomorrow is my last day of eating like a pig. Then I will begin to restrict my calories until I finally become beautiful.
I deserve to feel beautiful and confident. I will succeed.