Hahaha hi guys, sorry I've been really quiet, but between health issues and real life stuff, I've been completely wiped. I am steadily recovering enough to get back into things, but currently am in danger of constantly overheating in my own room, even with an overhead fan running 24/7 and a door propped open.
So I need to get something to rectify that, plus some other amenities, so just a reminder that commissions are open, and I also have a bunch of adopts available on kofi
OC mystery, 2024
Fundraiser masterpost
This is a masterpost for the evacuation fundraisers I've vetted so far, a few other fundraisers I find trustworthy but have not been able to vet (inability to communicate with the organizer), and a few semi-completed fundraisers or fundraisers for a different purpose (like house rebuilding, or aid distribution). The numbers next to the names have no significance beyond ease of navigation for me for when I check their progress in the future. Occasionally I will update these with new info.
VETTED FAMILY ESCAPE FUNDRAISERS
- Walaa Abusamra (1). 10 family members. 13k out of 80k €.
- Ezzideen Shehab (2). 6 family members. 3.7k out of 32.5k €.
- Madleen Abu Jayyab (3). 4 family members. 4k out of 70k USD.
- Jehad Shehada (4). 1 individual. 1.7k out of 15k CAD.
- Aser Alassar (5). 5 family members. 258k out of 550k SEK. Or 24k out of 51k USD.
- My friend Mona Abu Hamda (6). 9 family members. 52k out of 75k USD.
- Mohammed Shamia (7). 7 family members. 1.9k out of 35k USD.
- Abdullah Al-Saghir (8). 9 family members. 65k out of 100k €.
- Randa Abubakr (9). 6 family members. 10.1k out of 14k €.
- Fadi Alshrafi (10). 9 family members. 40k out of 85k USD.
- Osama Abdelrahman. (11). 9 family members. 27k out of 45k €.
- Alhaw family and the Albittar family (12). Between 18 and 12 family members. 1.9k out of 90k €. (EXTREMELY LOW, NEEDS FUNDS)
- Verified Fundraiser by Palestine Asdiqa to help a malnourished baby with cerebral palsy. (13) 6.3k out of 31k USD.
- Rana Abu Ahmed (14). 6 family members. 63.8k out of 66k CAD. NEARLY COMPLETE.
- Mohammed Abu Matar (15). 6 family members. 5k out of 34k CAD.
- Moataz Abu Sakran (16). 3 family members. 10.4k out of 20k $.
- Ayah Abu Sidu (17). 10 family members. 15.2k out of 50.4k USD.
- Said Fadel (18). 7 family members. 19k out of 50k USD.
- Tasneem Nabil Musa (19). 7 family members (ALL INJURED, NEED MEDICAL CARE.) 13.2k out of 50k USD
- Belal Azmi Msallam (20). 14 family members. 7.1k out of 160k AUD.
- Mortaja Family (21). 11 family members. 28k out of 70k €.
- Abu Ramadan family (22). 14 family members. 10k out of 148k €.
- Mai Rajab (23). 42.3k out of 50k USD (CLOSE TO COMPLETION)
- Amal Abu Shammala (24). 4 family members. 33.1k out of 42k €.
- Maryam & family (25). 29.5k out of 50k USD.
- Haneem Abdelhalim (26). 8 family members. 31k out of 40k USD raised.
- Ahmed Masoud (27). 12 family members. 8.3k out of 60k €.
- Mohammed Fareed (28). 21.7k out of 60k CAD.
- Lena Nofal (29). 32.7k out of 35k € (NEARLY COMPLETE)
- Rasheda Alfaiomy (30). 6+ family members. 22.3k out of 65k USD.
- Ula El Hindi (31). 1+ individuals. 8.2k out of 15k €.
- Muhammad Safi (32). 5+ family members. 4k out of 30k BP.
- Yazan Khalaf (33). 18 family members. 12.4k out of 40k USD.
- Afaf Masoud (34). 5+ family members. 55.1k out of 75k €.
- Motasem Khayal (35). 5 family members. 442 out of 43k € (26.5k needed for escape.)
- Youseff Abu Saeed (36). 3 family members (1 is already out for treatment). 154k out of 200k USD.
- Abdulaziz & Abdullah, escape & surgery (37). 2+ family members (1 has already been treated). 95k out of 150k BP.
- Nadine Abdullatif (38). 8 family members. 103k out of 130k AUD.
- Sami Salhab (39). 6 family members (5 already evacuated). 13.1k out of 26k €.
- Jehad Al Ghandour (40). 5 family members (1 already evacuated). 30.6k out of 100k USD.
- Mahmoud Algharabli (41). 16 family members (4 already evacuated). 48k out of 57.6k USD.
- Dr. Marah & family (42). 2+ family members. 5.1k out of 40k USD.
- Khaled Alshabrawi (43). 5 family members. 1.4k out of 35k € (25k needed for escape, but will begin with 10k for stable housing).
- Muhammad Osama Alzaq (44). 5 family members. 2.1k out of 60k BP.
- Mohammed Wishah (45). 7 family members + 1 pet. 2.3k out of 71.5k €.
- Muhe Ayman (46). 5+ family members. 3.6k out of 60k €. (CAUTION: If you scroll down in the GFM there are photos of mutilated and dead babies.)
- Ottawa4Palestine’s vetted fundraiser spreadsheet (76 different families with listed fundraisers)
UNVETTED, BUT HIGHLY LIKELY LEGITIMATE ESCAPE FUNDRAISERS:
- Rasha family (1). 5 family members. 483 out of 15k € (EXTREMELY LOW, NEED FUNDS)
- Natasha Matar (2). 14 family members. 18.1k out of 200k CAD (140k needed for escape).
- Islam Daher (3). 6 family members. 2.3k out of 50k CAD.
- Qasim Al-Kafarneh (4). 12 family members. 5.7k out of 80k AUD.
- Ahmed M. Saleh (5). 4 family members. 7.8k out of 35k €.
- Salwa Zarifa (6). 4 family members. 1.6k out of 50k €.
- Moutasem Quffa (7). 6+ family members. 7k out of 65k €.
OTHER FUNDRAISERS:
- Eman Abdel Rahman. Need help rebuilding home and access to food. 7.1k out of 42.6k USD.
- Ibrahim Adil Osman. All intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need some financial support to start being stable enough to make money to get more family members to escape.
- Abd Al Karim Adnan Alakklouk. Most intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need some financial support to start a new life and send more family members money to survive.
- Samar Elrayih Hydoub. It seems that most family members have been evacuated, but they need an emergency 1.5k for medical expenses.
- Bana AZ. All intended beneficiaries have escaped, they just need a bit of support in establishing a new life. (only 866 € left to meet goal)
- Kareem Abu Samra. All intended beneficiaries have been able to escape. They just need support to establish a new life.
- Helping the People of Gaza – Mutual Aid Fund (run by my friend Mona)
- Supporting Displaced Families in Gaza (CareForGaza)
- Emergency Medical Relief for Gaza Refugees.
- Help Sudan Tarada Initiative.
- Amer Qudaih’s Relief efforts in Gaza.
Of course it does feel a little silly to make big update posts about how im burned out and am trying to take a break from drawing right in the middle of a time where im uploading new art more relatively consistently than i have in a very long time it feels like but i guess it was still important to make the distinction, between things that i enjoy drawing and can keep doing vs things i dont enjoy doing at all and need to stop immediately, just for my own sake.
Openly telling people "yuuup i'm not going to be drawing anything other than super basic shit from now on for a long time" means that whenever i think of drawing anything post-worthy i know i will feel silly for posting it after saying that, and from there if i still decide to go through with it anyway it was probably something i actually wanted to draw and enjoyed doing while if this thought made me self conscious enough to not go through with it then it was probably something i wanted to draw only due to impulsive obligation rather than something i wanted to spend time making just for the fun of doing it so the spell gets broken. So its a functional enough system, i guess.
&now that this distinction has been made in my brain i can spend more time doing shit i actually enjoy instead of letting it get beaten out by the things i "should" be working on every time
Putting my foot down and going "no, i am not going to keep forcing myself to do detailed clean lineart on even more detailed sketches when i get much more enjoyment out of just doing really rough and simple shit instead" after i have found myself independently coming to realizations about what kinds of art just suck the life out of me over and over again and then just disregarding these realizations every single time to go back to the shit that kills me because "well this is how you normally do it" or "this technically looks nicer, in some aspects" and finally just fucking forcing myself to stop doing that is probably overall more helpful to my mental health than just forcing myself to stop drawing altogether when thats a drastic move that may or may not be the actual solution. Now i am finding and re-learning ways to create things that don't make me feel like i am a walking corpse so i think i will take the feeling of thinking i look a little silly for seemingly disregarding my big life updates over never having found these things out for myself at all any day.
I don't really know why i feel like making update posts in the first place when to be honest i dont think it really matters, people arent paying me for any of this and i stopped feeling "sorry" for "not posting enough" or such things as that a long time ago so it's not like i feel any kind of legitimate need to tell people about what my status is creative-wise. But i guess a large part of it is just that i like talking and have a lot of things to say but for various personal reasons have no desire to post 99% of these thoughts publicly so it's the like rare chance i get to actually start saying shit on any of my art accounts that is actually relevant to the subject at hand without crossing my own boundaries and saying more than i am comfortable with
It is a little weird feeling writing update posts though because i dont really know how to word them in any way that doesnt come off as a fanfic authors note going "sorry its been a whole 20 minutes since the last update i got mugged and all my money was stolen and he broke my leg also but im trying my best to write more despite this" like girl focus on the mugging not this shit. When in reality i actually dont care very much about providing Content as much as the hypothetical fanfic author i just felt the need to say something because why not and didnt know how to word it in a way that makes me not come off like that. which is how you get this i guess. anyway i already forgot what the point of this post was i guess i just wanted to say some shit. which tracks i suppose.
The moral of the story or some shit i guess is that even if you are not doing art as a job it can still end up feeling like one and killing your creative spirit like one would and you need to be able to identify when this is happening and what things you dont actually want to create even though you feel like you "should" so you can kill these practices before they kill you
or something like that
I dont really care about having a point here i wrote this at 2 am
i just like talking