𝐰𝐡𝐨: ace & oli @hcwells . 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞: living room .
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the consequences of her actions had yet to be revealed. it were only in moments like these that robyn could understand all the things she had done and should have done differently. at the tender age of eighteen the world had still laid before her like a mystery to be unraveled. at that time nothing mattered more then her dream of making it big on broadway. even ace didn't matter more then that dream. while she had loved him in her own way at that time, she had never understood the magnitude of importance he left behind. there would be nobody she would share this love with ever again. if only she knew the destruction she left behind by leaving him at such a tender age. she had formed him into a monster she might not ever recognize again.
robyn listen to his little summary of history. it was short to say the least and robyn felt like he was leaving out everything either to spite her or simply because he felt embarrassed by it. she couldn't quite put her finger on it. what she did however knew was the way he tried to comfort her, yet would retract from the moment he registered it. how had their lives become so complicated that even a simple human touch couldn't be present anymore. it did not matter what the consequences of her actions were, she did reach out for his hand, if only to hold it for a moment and get familiar with sensation once more. " it would be easy, although being near you somehow makes it a tad bit better already." she doubted her cared for any of it, still she needed to say it out loud. " i just wish to hear the highlights. the major events i missed out on. " while she had still followed him on social media, she had never unraveled what he had been doing all this time.
ace hadn't expected for his terrible job of summarising the past decade of his life to be rewarded with physical contact . he tried to stay outwardly calm about it, even as her hand rested atop of his own and took him spinning through flashbacks of when they would go nearly everywhere hand-in-hand . a part of him wants to whip his hand away and set that boundary when he could . climbing into his bed ? sure . but touching his hand was an absolute no . but he let it . it was the secondmost comfort he'd felt since cat's death, even in the most simple movement . he'd never really gotten on with burak enough to seek comfort in him, he'd spent the past couple days fighting with kai and elias instead of leaning on them, and feeling comforted by freddie also broke his heart as he offered that comfort in return . the only person who had just been there for him had been axel . so his heart would take what it could get, even in the most traumatic of moments, and he flipped his hand over so that they were palm-to-palm, lacing their fingers together ever so slightly . enough to bask in the comfort, but not enough that he couldn't deny it later . " i want to hear about you, " he ignores her request for highlights, not wanting to reveal how low those actually were . " you're the one in the city, doing everything you ever dreamed of . how is it ? is it the way you'd thought it'd be ?" ace wasn't sure whether hearing about her achievements would make him feel better or not, but he'd take the risk if it meant not talking about himself . his eyes fixed on their hands . " i want to hear your highlights ."
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Axel sensed the weight of the moment settling between them, the heaviness of Ace's pain hanging in the air. He met his brother's gaze, observing the trembling of his hands, a stark departure from Ace's usual composure. Guilt gnawed at his chest as he understood the source of his brother's anguish, surpassing even his own grief. It was the fear— one Axel had instilled— of leaving Ace again. It takes everything in him to swallow the words 'I'm sorry for leaving you once' not wanting to cause any more distress on him.
He disliked making promises he couldn't guarantee. Despite his desire to reassure Ace that they would both survive, he knew the uncertainty of their fate. It struck him as ironic, standing on the precipice of life and death, contemplating a future where he might regain the lost connection with Ace. The request for a knife, though unusual, aligned with Ace's need for security. Uncertain of his response, Axel relented for the sake of his brother's peace. "Alright, I'll get one," Axel said with a half-hearted smile. "But, you know, people might not appreciate me wandering around with a knife under the current circumstances. And honestly, I have no clue how to use one if the moment comes," he remarked as he reached for the knife block on the counter. "Pick one."
all too often ace would find himself wishing that he could read someone's mind so that he could figure out how they felt about him, or if the words that he spoke were landing in the way that he intended . with axel, ace wished he could read less . he could feel the uncertainty in his twin's demeanour, and read his refusal to offer flat out reassurance . because axel knew better - knew that lying to ace for reassurance wasn't really reassurance at all . " what do you mean you don't know how to use one, " ace brought his hand up to wipe under his eyes with his palm, making an effort to pull himself back together . " you just jab it in the direction of someone . really hard . aim for an organ ." he was trying to dip back into his usual way of speaking, but his voice was too laced with gratitude to pretend to be sassy . he felt so much lighter for axel just agreeing to carry something to defend himself with, having expected to fight for his cause a little more . when the knife block was placed in front of him, ace let out a shaky breath and reached to pull the handles out one by one . how was this their life now ? not big enough, too big, too dull . when he'd decided on one, he handed it over to axel . " even if someone looks like they kind of might hurt you, don't hesitate . we'll figure it out after ." his way of saying he'd help axel cover up a murder - just stay the fuck alive .
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"maybe it is a losers convention," he quipped with a grin. despite his usual inclination to tease ace further, eren sensed a shift in his friend's demeanor that gave him pause. he wasn't one to be needlessly cruel, and despite their often tumultuous friendship, ace was still his friend. "and about those smokes… well, you know the saying, 'sharing is caring,' but unfortunately for you, my generosity only extends to those who aren't on my 'annoying friends' list today." he chuckled, the warmth of genuine affection softening his sarcasm. his expression sobered slightly, uncertain whether he wanted to delve deeper into the matter. "so why are you looking so down? is it the lack of smokes?"
ace raised his eyebrows because maybe it was a losers convention . someone rounded up all the losers to kill them off one by one . maybe this really would make a great plot to a movie . " how do i get myself off of that list, ez ? this is life or death over here, " ace switched up the dramatics to eren, not about to get into why everything was so shit, not even sure whether anyone had told the guy or not . eren's next statement made ace think that maybe not . " yeah that's exactly it . lack of smokes . running out of weed, too . you don't wanna know the man i'm gonna become ... " he trailed off, only half joking . he can't remember the last time he was stone cold sober, especially during a literal crisis .
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Perhaps Ace had short-term memory, Kai thought for a second. The first to wish death to the other had been him, not Kai, in fact, the more he thought about it, the more he realized he couldn't find a reason within him to justify Ace's tantrum. If he had been in a better place of mind he would have understood Ace and blamed it on the craziness of the situation, but he wasn't. Before he managed to utter a word back to his ex-friend, fingers were pointed. It was clear enough for Kai to understand that Ace's friendship had been superficial all along.
"You were the one to say I should be dead instead, Ace. Don't bark at me for saying it back." Maybe Kai couldn't understand it, because the deaths were not his, he had not been close to any of them, and if someone had asked him before whose he would have cried, he would have named Ace, but now, not anymore. "I was the first one to realize you are not a real one. All I said was because I cared about you, and all you did was lose it at me as if I had been the killer." The model didn't raise his voice anymore, it wasn't anger that moved him now but grief, for the death of a friendship that never was. That was the funeral Ace and Kai should attend.
" no i fucking didn't, " he'd deny wishing dead on kai . because if he did say it, he wouldn't remember it if it were during a fit of rage . he'd never mean something like that . actually, kai fell under the umbrella of the limited number of people that ace would be fucking devastated to lose . but somehow, in his limited scope of logical thinking, admitting something like that felt like weakness . the only thing that ace had ever really been good at is fighting, in his element when insults are flying and fists are clenched . if this is what they were now, then he was fine with that. .what kai had said was fucked up, and ace didn't know how to relent when he was pissed, anyway . " you suggested that we leave one of the only people i've ever really cared for out to fucking rot, kai . while we hike to god knows where to try and find god knows who . i didn't lose it to you because you cared, i lost it to you because you were being an asshole ." ace's finger was jabbing the air again, but this time fuelled by less anger and more sadness . he was losing friends so quickly for someone who so recently felt like he had nothing to lose . " how do you not see how fucked up that was to say ? what did you expect me to do ? smile and nod and thank you for your suggestion ?"
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he wasn't even touching her and yet she could feel the trail of his almost touch like fire on her skin. as soon as the bra was unclasped she reached to pull it off and let it fall on the floor instantly forgotten about. as her hands move back down to her sides her fingertip lightly brushes his hand and she knows it breaks one the rules of their game. miray can't find it in herself to care, in the grand scheme of things it's such a small infraction she could be doing way worse to ruin the game. she spun around to face him, realising immediately that they'd somehow became closer since she turned around. "such a gentleman."
as his fingertips ran along the fabric on her hips, he could almost imagine it away . swapping out the feeling of lace for warm, soft skin, he watched as miray pulled her bra off . his eyes never left her shoulders as the garment fell to the floor, and the light brush of skin-on-skin felt like a prize for how well he was doing . like maybe if he kept it up, she'd cave entirely . " what can i say .. i'm a nice guy, " he probably lied, not even sorry when his eyes flickered down to her body . this was completely unchartered territory for them, which means the rules hadn't been set .
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"i'm doing about as much as you're doing which is nothing. clearly both of our methods are working out with the same efficiency so get off your fucking high horse. you're no better than me just because you act like there's anything you can do to stop this." there was so much more he was going to say but the sudden searing pain near his eye stopped him in his tracks. it felt like an explosion of pain had hit him out of nowhere. although he'd been in countless arguments, elias had never been punched before and he wasn't sure he wanted to be again. he'd had always been more of a lover than a fighter but that didn't mean he was going to stand there and allow himself to became a punching bag. before ace could get another punch in elias shoved him away with all the strength he could muster. "yeah, this is really helping people get out of here alive." he muttered sarcastically.
" i'm not happy doing nothing . i'm searching for something - anything - that i can do to get us out of here alive . i'm not here declaring that nothing's going to happen to someone i love just because i said so ..." ace's words tumble out of his mouth one by one, aimless and purposeless: anything to keep his lips moving so that his fists can keep still, clenched at his sides in a white-knuckle grip . being shoved away by elias had grounded ace a little, although his vision is still a little fuzzy with white spots of rage . his eyes flickered to elias' own, observing the damage he'd done, but ace just couldn't bring himself to be sorry . " it helped me feel better ... "
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"Now you're getting it." Nathan nodded his head in agreement with the other as he looked up to the clouds again, letting the relaxation start to set in as the nicotine did exactly what he needed it to do right now. "Brave?" He turned his head to the side, looking at Ace with a slightly raised brow. "You mean because of the killer and shit?" Putting his cigarette to his lips as he really thought through his answer that question. "Just doesn't feel real, you know what I mean? I know they are dead.. I know Aaron, Cat, Leo, none of them are ever coming back but it just doesn't feel real that someone is doing this to us. I don't know if I'd called this being brave."
ace raised his eyebrows quickly, a silent way of saying ' sure, whatever ' as he focused on his cigarette . he huffed out a laugh at nate's description . " yeah, the killer and shit . that guy ." for some of the less favorable qualities, and the sharp pain at talking about cat so casually, ace did appreciate nathan's direct way of talking about this . even though he couldn't necessarily relate - it all felt very real to ace . " so it's not brave it's ... dumbassery ?" he smirked as he brought the cigarette back to his lips . a moment later - " or tactical oblivion . gotta stay sane to survive, right ?"
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He can't look at ace. He can't look at him, because he knows if he does he will break down. And he doesn’t want to break down, not again. “ I hope so - someone has to come. Someone has to come soon, right?” If he says it aloud, it might happen. “ Frankie - Frankie will come” there’s a laugh that follows his own words because he knows that’s not going to happen. He knows Frankie is dead. Everyone is dead.
“ I miss her already. ”
ace nods even though he knows freddie won't look at him . he isn't sure how he is keeping it together as he watches his friend feel such suffocating pain . his expression twists into an even deeper pain, not sure if this is just a protective blanket around his heart or if freddie is truly hallucinating . " someone will come . i don't know who ." it's the only way that ace can respond without being dishonest, but still showing some hope for them all . " i know . i know ." ace could only feel pathetic for how little he had to say . " someone's gonna come, and we're not gonna leave them here okay ? none of them . all of us are getting out of her one way or another ."
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✧ HARRY STYLES at the 79th Venice International Film Festival (Sept. 05, 2022)
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"A snorkel?" Lennon giggled a little as she repeated Ace's words. "I suppose if they could swim as fast as that killer from Friday the 13th I might be in a bit of trouble but I highly doubt it." She was confident that if there anything was going on at the Lake she was probably in the safest place right now. Before she knew it the man was leaping in the air and into the water, she brought her hand up to protect her face from the splash that was happening in hopes the water didn't go into her ice. "Now if I told you it was freezing you wouldn't have joined me would you?" She grinned at the man, "Now we're both in this fuckin' cold water."
" mhm maybe they move about under water . like a killer submarine ." ace shivered and then submerged himself again, trying to force himself to adjust to the cold . " lucky for you, i don't mind the cold . or believe in killer submarines ." being in the water took him back to the first weekend he'd been there . playing pirates and mermaids felt like forever ago . " jesus fucking christ, len, i could cut diamond, " he laughed at himself, poking himself on his nipples that were hard from the cold .
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"good idea. for safety of course. i should probably tell you i sleep naked, i hope that's not going to be an issue for you." miray grinned turning her back to him. "you couldn't be a babe and help me get this bra off could you? the clasp is tricky." she was perfectly capable of taking off her own bra but she wanted to test his ability to stick to the unwritten rules of their little game. there was something in the energy between them that was developing, causing a sense of inevitability and miray refused to be the one who caved first.
" not an issue . gives us something in common, " his eyes follow her shoulders, the curve of her waist and her ass . ace wanted nothing more than to let himself touch - throw their stupid game into the wind and show miray just how much better it is to concede sometimes . but he couldn't reach out and hold her hips, pulling her back against him and his lips weren't allowed to touch her neck . he ran his pointer fingers down the straps of her bra, starting at her shoulders and eventually reaching the clasp . ace was careful to keep his fingertips on the material, slow and purposeful when he pulled the clasp away from her skin so that he could unclip it . subconsciously, he'd taken a half step forwards once it was undone, his lips so close to her ear as he moved his fingertips to the material on her hips . " i'm always happy to help ."
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" you don't - you don't know that .. i .. i do stupid shit all the time, i -" he doesn't know what he's saying, a stream of thoughts that are almost incomprehensible. words he doesn't want to say, doesn't want to think but have been playing on his mind for days now. " I wish my mom was here, I wish I could - I wish I could speak to her, she would know how to fix this. she knew how to fix everything and now everything is fucking broken." a moment of anger, bitterness even before he pulls himself together. " I'm sorry - I'm sorry. I'm sorry you lost Cat, I'm sorry. She - she fucking loves you so much, you know that, right? "
" you can do as much stupid shit as you want, just keep it in the house . at least when it's dark . i know it's shit but there really is safety in numbers ." ace was biting the inside of his cheek to keep himself from falling apart, knowing now's not the time, but also hearing freddie talk about his mom threatening to send him over the edge . " there's only so much time we can be missing before someone comes for us . every day that we're stuck here, we're a day closer, okay ?" it's what ace had been telling himself to get through . the topic coming back around to cat made ace's bottom lip quiver as he tried to hold it together . he sunk his teeth into his bottom lip sharply, the corners of his mouth downturned as he tilted his head back to look at the ceiling . " she adores you ." ace brought his palm up to wipe a tear from his cheek before looking back at freddie . " i'm sorry, too . you're so fucking loved . by cat, by me ."
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the isolation was pushing him to the brink. no matter how many times he restarted his phone, it stubbornly refused to pick up a signal. frustrated, he stepped outside, hoping that if he walked far enough he would manage to get a bar of signal. as he approached the neighbouring house, he glimpsed a familiar face. "ace?" he called out, momentarily abandoning his phone to ensure his eyes weren't playing tricks. a grin spread across his face as he recognized ace. "well, i didn't realize they allowed losers in here," he teased.
ace looked up at the sound of his name, sending a ' sup ' nod eren's way when he realized who it was . " you must have known or you wouldn't have come, " he countered . a master when it came to their volatile friendship, ace wasn't in the mood to instigate a fight today . not when his fights with kai and elias were both still stinging . " good luck with that, by the way, " he nodded towards the phone in eren's hand, " you get a miraculous signal can you postmates me some smokes ? the supply's running low out here ."
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he'd been ready to apologise, to say that he really hasn't meant what he said and never would have wanted anything bad to happen to ace. all of those words has been on the tip of his tongue, until ace's rant stopped him in his tracks. "you think i have saviour bullshit? i'm just trying to stay alive. have you met yourself? you always think what you think is right and that you know what's best for everybody else. from where i'm standing you don't actually know shit. i'm pathetic because i wont go on one of your stupid escapades? we're not children anymore even though you never stopped acting like you are." elias paused to regain his breath after his rant and when he spoke again, his tone was low, quieter now. "you say you do something? how did all of that doing something help with cat? because as far as i can tell you couldn't save her. she's still dead."
the poison in ace's words acted like a cloak for how hurt he was, his default emotion of anger coming through to cushion the fall just like it usually did . " you're pathetic because you won't do anything . i don't give a shit about you coming with me to find signal, but tell me - what the fuck are you doing instead ? writing a poem to the killer asking him to pretty please leave you alone ? it's useless . you are fucking useless ." elias' words were far more piercing when spoken with a quieter tone . the one blow below discounting ace for dead was to say anything about the grief he was currently navigating - the exact grief that was making him so quick to anger in the first place . his hands were already balled up at his sides, scowl so deep that he'd be carrying it for the rest of the day . there was no hesitation, his arm pulled back when he heard ' you couldn't save her ' and colliding with elias' face as soon as the last word left his lips . the force put into the punch was a collection of all of his anger, regret, betrayal and fear . his hands immediately found elias' shoulders and shoved him backwards, hand pulling back to go in for another hit .
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Lennon still wasn't convinced that this whole thing wasn't some big elaborate prank the Howell twins were pulling on them all. She wouldn't put it past her ex at least, joking about their friends being dead wouldn't surprise the woman. "I doubt somebody could swim up and kill me in this lake without me realising they were coming towards me" she pointed out, she wasn't the fastest swimmer but she'd give it a good go. "Are you not going to join me in here? What if I just started getting attacked or started drowning and you're all the way out there?"
" maybe they have a snorkel, " he countered, smile pulling at the corners of his lips as he found himself leaning into her energy . it wasn't real, like living in delusion, but ace knew that she'd understand the seriousness of their situation soon . maybe he should take the escapism where he could find it . " well, we can't have that, " he spoke as he pulled his shirt over his head, balenciaga slides abandoned on the deck before he cannonballed into the water . when he resurfaced he pushed his wet curls back out of his face and let out a loud laugh . " fuck, coulda told me it was freezing, bet there's icebergs in this bitch ."`
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"when did i say that? don't put words into my mouth ace. what the fuck is your issue?" he asked too in his own head to realise how exactly the argument had started or why. in his mind ace had just started on him for no reason. "fuck you for acting like i wouldn't do whatever it takes it keep him safe. i've only ever wanted the best for him. you do whatever the hell you want ace, that's what you always do anyway. run off and get yourself killed for all i ca-" elias cut himself off the second his words registered in his head. "i didn't mean that."
ace's eyes narrowed, scanning elias' features as he tried to decipher whether he genuinely didn't know what he'd said, or if he was playing dumb . shitty responses cycle through his head, ready to make a sarcastic comment about elias ditching freddie for new york, or being willing to do ' whatever it takes ' ... other than go with ace to find a signal . elias' final words threw off his thoughts . ace took a step back, visibly knocked by how unexpected that had been, and how much it had hurt coming from someone he used to be so close to . " go fuck yourself, elias ." his words were slow and purposeful, the frown on his brow a permanent fixture . " you're pathetic . all of this saviour bullshit while you sit around and do nothing . you are nothing . you just want to sit around with your fingers up your ass until someone else figures this out for you . i do whatever i want but at least i fucking do something ." ace took another step back, eyes raking elias' frame and dripping in venom as he shook his head before repeating himself . " pathetic ."
