And I’m now realizing after losing my old external harddrive to a power surge, I no long have @ask-graywalkerpony previous blog posts or the last update post I was working on. I now HAVE to restart her blog entirely. This isn’t good.

This is true and will happen in the next coming weeks.

So after a good few years I now can do stream my art on picarto again. Have a new pc that run more things. I plan to stream on my days off work.

HALLOWEEN LIVESTREAM/BLOG UPDATE!

Livestreaming in 30 minutes!

What should @ask-graywalkerpony be for Halloween?

Send me your ideas!

And What should Zephyr be?

HALLOWEEN STREAM!

Realizing it’s 11 days til Halloween.

I plan on making all my ocs from all my ask blogs, @ask-graywalkerpony and @ask-thelostoneroaming in their Nightmare Night costumes!

It’ll be posted on Halloween! So keep an eye out for spooky art!

An apology and explanation.

I want to apologize and explain my previous posts that I posted throughout my work shift yesterday. It’s a hard thing to even bring up or even talk about as I dislike talking about my personal life, so I am sorry if I worry people.

For the past few days, my close friends have noticed a change in me since I started taking antidepressants and sleep medications. I started to suddenly exhibit far more depressive mood changes and now today I was numb and I had suicidal thoughts that I normally don’t have. I genuinely thought I would kill myself tonight after I got off work by overdosing on my sleep meds and antidepressants, so I asked @tazerpones if he’d take over @ask-graywalkerpony blog as I believe I wouldn’t be alive to do so.

Near the end of my work shift, my brian finally cleared that fog of suicidal thoughts and numbness and I was able to think and be somewhat normal with a hint of anxiety. By the time I got home I was stimming on a Lion King toy I took from work. I was able to talk to my friends about how I felt all day and the past few days and come to a realization that my current dosage mixture of my meds have been affecting me poorly. I also asked @tazerpones to let me have @ask-graywalkerpony back as I wasn’t in a proper state of mind to even give away my blog.

So I will be taking a day off from work tomorrow/today to recover and talk to my doctor about my medications.

Again. I apologize as this may/ is a sensitive topic to talk about. But please try not to worry as I’ll be taking care of things to make me better mentally and I have wonderful friends to help me with that.

If anyone has ANY questions, please ask me. I am open to talk about what happened today and about my past medical history regarding depression.

Happy Pride Month everyone! Remember to stay gay and happy during this last day of Pride Month and to keep staying gay and happy during the rest of the year!