Bye for now
Hey everyone, I didn’t think I’d write a post about indefinitely leaving simblr but since I’ve formed some really lovely and special friendships here, I thought it’d be nice to say something.
Around December 2019, I hit a low point regarding my mental health -- my depression, anxiety and especially my dissociation skyrocketed. Throughout my life, the Sims has always been a comfort for me. Naturally, I turned to it again and it consumed all my time. I obsessively played it night and day, to the point where I felt crippled. Mentally (and even physically), I felt even worse. I didn’t even want to play that much but my mental state wouldn’t let me do anything else. I didn’t want to see my friends, clean my room, skimped on my hygiene, lacked in sleep.
Being here, I cared so much about wanting to be accepted and liked and was so unkind to myself when making posts. I wanted to have the perfect blog. Inevitably, playing became extremely toxic for me and unfortunately being on simblr didn’t help at all... I know you some (or a lot of you) can relate to that.
It’s taken a while, but I’ve finally been able to connect to the outside world again. It always happens, I snap out of it out of nowhere and want to get out again -- to connect. I want to see my friends, I want to learn new things. A big deal for me is wanting to write music again and create art. I’ve been given opportunities to work with a Western Sydney youth organisation to make sure at risk youth are engaging in their creative nature. I am part of a duo with my bestfriend and we’ll be creating art, music, performance pieces. I may possibly be featured in an art exhibition in December. I’m going to be my friend’s wedding singer in February. I’m going to go on a solo trip to Europe next year.
I’ve realised there’s so many things out there for me... but I’m thankful for coming back here, even if there was a lot of sadness and self loathing involved. Being surrounded by so many talented people who are extraordinary artists, killer interior designers and stylists has inspired me greatly. It’s personally helped me grow. So thank you.
I may lurk around from time to time and I still owe some of you beautiful people some sim requests (there’ll be posts of it when I have the chance), but I’m not sure I can fully return.
Please know that I’ll always care about you guys and support you. You’re absolutely amazing individuals with big hearts.
