At this point I really don't care who reads this. I know it won't be seen by anyone who can change this. So I am just going to rant. I don't get what happens to you when you grow up that makes you think you know everything. So far, I just keep learning that I know nothing at all. So why do parents especially say "when u was your age" and never take you seriously? Why is it that they have that look of "okay just keep talking I'll pretend to listen to amuse you, but in reality you are nothing but a dumb little shit" just why. You know nothing of what kids today go through. Yes when you were my age you finished your homework. You were a good kid didn't drink or do alcohol. Why? Well maybe is because you DIDNT FUCKING CUT. Today, there are literally more people that I know who cut, have eating disorders, or are going out of their minds watching their friends hurt themselves than people who don't. Except no one seems to take it seriously. If you're sad, well deal with it they say. Oh its not depression you're fucking overreacting. Stop crying youre acting like a 2 year old. Well you know what? How would you feel, if you had these problems? You know that feeling when u almost fall, and your heart drops and you think your going to be sick because u know the pain that going to come? That one terrifying second? Yeah imagine living with that every moment of every day. Or imagine just not feeling anything. Jokes don't make you laugh, terrible events don't make you feel sad. When u wake up you just lie there, because there is no different anymore than the nightmares in your head and the outside world. YOU DONT FEEL. You can't see colour anymore, you don't get nervous, its just all one big shitty blank. You know what? It hurts. It hurts to stay still for 7 hours because you didn't care whether you moved or not. That's not even the beginning of what depression feels like. Or looking in a mirror and seeing a big blob of fat, even if your ribs are showing that pouch on your stomach? You know you have to eat healthy, but it doesn't work. So what do you do? You don't eat. You starve yourself to the point where seeing food makes u want to throw up, even if u haven't eaten in days. And once u do eat, you binge on unhealthy food and throw up. Fun right? And everyone thinks you can just stop. Except it doesn't work like that. But if you say "mom, I'm depressed" they laugh and laugh and tell you that you are a silly young child who doesn't know what that word means. Well fuck you, why don't u tell that to my razor, or my scars, or the blood all over my carpet. And if they do take you seriously, if they catch you cutting, you are a disgrace. You are alienated, this is kept a secret, and you end up in a bunch of therapist groups. Fair right? This is reality. Wake up people.