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DONE

@leofortis725 / leofortis725.tumblr.com

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nudesornaw

if you’re having a bad day, here’s a cute little marching band

this actually made me cry with joy also one of them is eating noodles

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readsquirrel

It just keeps going and getting better. *^^*

Me two minutes ago: “cry with joy? an animation of cats playing instruments made someone cry with joy?”

Me now: (sobs into a tissue) “OH MY GOD THAT ONE IS PLAYING TWO RECORDERS AT THE SAME TIME” (blows nose)

CAT PARADE IS BACK

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smlmsworld
😺😸😹😻😽🙀💋
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frickss75

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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leofortis725

Reblogging just so I can always find it when I need a shot of happiness.

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Feeling Nostalgic...

Hey everyone, long time no talk... very long time, lol.

I just wanted to get something off my chest.

So I was going through some stories on Nine Lives, wanting to find something to read and get lost in, and I was just kind of hit with nostalgia.

I was by no means here when the official Caryl fanbase really kicked off, but I began following it in the year 2015. Doesn't sound very far now, but if you think about it, that was nearly 10 years ago, and I fell in it hard. I began looking at all of the amazing blogs and posts that talked about how awesome caryl is and how there were hints here and hints there about them eventually getting together. I soon began making my own posts and trying to keep everyone positive and just talk about our common love. I started writing my own fanfiction, and some of the stories that came out of me in those years, I'm even surprised at how creative I was.

We weren't necessarily stressed about things or other ships or what have you; we just enjoyed caryl and what it was.

Fast forwarding to now, and I feel like this fanbase has gone through the fucking ringer. Bad writing, bad showrunning, shipbaiting, ship wars, gaslighting, trolls chasing Melissa off of Twitter, all that mayhem. We have just gone through so much crap. Now it's like we're holding our breath while we wait for the Daryl Dixon spinoff to give us what we absolutely deserve, but are constantly being pulled back and forth about it.

And the worst part is, some of us are just so tired of being let down that we might be thinking, "even if it goes in our favor... would it be worth it at this point?" And I wouldn't blame those people, I really wouldn't. We've all gone through some hell.

Anyways, to make a long story short... anyone else miss the old days?

Back then, all we did was speak about the shared Caryl scenes in the latest episode, and how Daryl's hair curling around his ears makes him look handsome. Or Carol showing her growing fierceness and self confidence. All the while, so many amazing writers were punching out fanfiction novels that would put the very show's staff of writers to shame. Life was good; we just enjoyed the fanbase we were in.

I just miss those days, you know?

Now everything is so complicated. It's like a once clean river has gotten polluted and no one knows how to clean it up. At the end of the day, most of us just want to enjoy Caryl and the beauty that it was and still is. But so many things are dirtying the water, it's so hard to bring the focus back on why we all came here originally.

Hell I haven't written anything fanfic wise in over a year, and that was only after not writing anything a year prior too. My mojo just got muddied up like the rest of it.

I don't mean to make anyone depressed of course; I'm just venting a little bit I guess. I just miss when things were so much more simple. Could we go back to that? Maybe... if Caryl actually becomes canon and it's done right for both the characters and the audience, but we'll see though.

In the meantime, I'm just going to read some fanfics and remind myself of why I joined in the first place. Maybe that'll remind me of how much I enjoyed writing for these characters.

Have a good day/night/week loves.

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equuleus86

Ugh yes I totally relate to this. I miss finishing work and checking reviews on my fics or the excitement of finishing a new chapter and putting it out there. I miss the good old days of staying up til 4am messaging fellow Carylers in CAPS LOCK freaking out because Caryl had a scene together. I miss having a three way watch with my two pals of season 5 episode 1 and the 3 of us just blubbing hysterically at that hug. I miss it all friend!

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leofortis725

I remember when Consumed premiered and calling a friend, who wasn't watching live, to tell her of the scene where they find the mother and child walkers and Daryl says you don't have to. I couldn't hold back the tears while telling her. I will never forget that night. I miss those days.

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WIP Saturday - Caryl Fanfiction Rec

Dear fellow caryler, today's WIP is an old but gold fic from 2014. A fic this old is almost surely abandoned (but never say never). Sad but that's okay. It happens. Sometimes the author's muse simply doesn't collaborate anymore. Sometimes the fic doesn't get enough reviews to keep the author motivated. Sometimes canon kills everyone's vibes. My point is that it doesn't really matter why an author doesn't finish a fic. What matters is that old fics deserve the same amount of love and praise that new fics get. They shouldn't be forgotten - finished or not. Kintsugi by @jaibhagwan has six chapters posted on 9Lives and AO3. It deals with what could have happened to Carol after Rick kicked her out if the Governor never attacked the prison. Summary: S4 AU. Carol was everything to him and then she was lost. When Daryl finally finds her again, everything has changed except his feelings for her. Can he help her remember the goodness inside of her the way she once did for him? Kintsugi is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery using gold to mend the seams. Is there a better metaphor for Caryl? I think not. Rating: E / Explicit Chapters: 6  Word count: 26286  Published: May 23, 2014 - WIP

This fic is a beautiful one. It treads carefully but realistic through the very difficult and emotional place both Carol and Daryl are after he finds her and gets her home. Characterizations are on point and every prison era character has a chance to shine (Michonne fans will particularly love this story). It's been a few years since I read it for the first time and I'm still curious to know where this story could go. Here's a little excerpt to get you interested to read this one. Rick realizes what he has done: With both hands, Daryl grabbed Rick by his shirt and pushed him roughly against the wall. He wanted to strike Rick in his face to make him feel how much his actions had hurt him. Maybe he could knock some sense into the man. But despite what he'd done, Rick was still family, and Daryl cared about him. He didn't want to be like his father and take his grief out on the people he loved. He was a different kind of man. He was Carol's man of honor. She had suffered enough, and he was damned if he was ever going to let her down again. [...] Hearing the commotion, Glenn and Michonne approached cautiously from the cellblock as Rick stared at the photo.

"Everything alright?" Glenn asked.

"How could I have missed it?" Rick wondered, pulling his eyes from the picture.

There was a long pause as he reflected on his interaction with Daryl.

"How could I not see that he loves her?"

Please, dear fellow caryler, give this fic a try. Leave a review while you're at it. I'm sure our dear author will appreciate it and maybe even feel inspired to write again. Who knows? *fingers crossed* Love you all! Caryl on!

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leofortis725

Read this!!!! It is heartbreaking and hopeful!

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Anonymous asked:

Honestly, just give Carol her own spin off. I'm sick and tired of these spineless men.

I want EPs who value her the same way we do, not the selfish misogynists AMC are scared to upset.

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Here's what I know is going on. AMC wants to hire an experienced female showrunner—a Caryler from what I hear—for S3. The men in charge want total control of the show and don't give a fuck about what the fans want, so they're trying to prevent the deal from happening. AMC—evidently still prioritizing the men's needs despite how poorly S1 did—are now considering hiring an unestablished male showrunner who may not even like Caryl, but he'll be easy for the three male EPs to push around. So basically, Zabel 2.0. If that happens or if they keep Zabel, we may not get canon or the strong storylines Caryl deserve or much of anything we want. If that happens, we know who to blame. And AMC will know why their numbers still aren't going up to where they should be.

Nothing has been finalized yet, and from what I gather, Melissa hasn’t been given the chance to weigh in (yet? 🤨). If this concerns you, I strongly recommend posting about it in the Caryl tag here or on Twitter with #TWDCaryl. Because that's what we want, isn't it? A Daryl and Carol show that honors both the characters, treats female EPs equally, and respects its audience.

For fuck's sake, AMC, do the right thing.

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leofortis725

Well, if AMC doesn't do the right thing, I will be saving my money.

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a little more hope

I have more to say evidently. I didn't talk about Caryl previously because I am just happy to have Carol on the screen but while she's there, I hope she finally accepts that she is deserving of a happy and equal relationship. One with Daryl. This is why I am glad that Melissa is an executive producer because she might be able to provide insight (to the male showrunner and male producers) into her character's relationship with Daryl and why the only possible outcome after all these years is for them to be a romantic couple. I'm not holding my breath because I've been strung along for 13 years but I still cling to a little hope.

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My hope

I stopped watching TWD in season 7 except for any scenes that involved Melissa McBride. Social media has made it easy to watch things that give one pleasure and avoid the rest. There was much that was written for Carol that was not great and some was hard to watch but I still watched because Melissa McBride embued that character with such honesty and passion. You could tell she loved Carol and was going to always do right by her.

When the Caryl spinoff was announced, I was cautiously thrilled. Just the thought that I would be able to see more of Carol (and Melissa) especially after the mess that was the last season when she barely had 10 minutes total on the show. Then the announcement came that the series had been moved to France and she would no longer be part of it. I was crushed but not surprised. I no longer subscribed to AMC+ and after that announcement, I knew I would not be subscribing again.

When it was announced Melissa would be joining season 2 and had two new titles including Executive Producer, I was so happy and proud. But again, I have learned to not trust AMC to handle great opportunities in the right way. If I see that the character I have loved for over a decade is being treated with dignity and given GOOD WRITING, I will start watching again. I trust that Melissa will use her voice to advocate for a true portrayal of a strong survivor. And I hope that the other EPs will see Carol's worth - and Melissa's worth - and understand what she means to so many and give us a wonderful story.

And look! I never mentioned Caryl. I even surprised myself.

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Trying to find a nice way to put this… what Norman said on that podcast was not okay. Insulting fans and admitting to being responsible for writers losing their jobs with such nonchalance, is downright disrespectful- although I’m thankful the truth didn’t stay buried. It’s careless behavior and it doesn’t reflect well on AMC considering this is a repeated offense.

Not everyone involved in television has to be an excellent public speaker but there should be someone at the helm who understands how to conduct themselves in interviews. Every show needs a spokesperson to be a direct link to the audience: for promoting the show, and making the fans feel included as well as appreciated. As a fan I’ve never wanted creatives to bend to the whim of every loudmouth on social media. Shallow fan service has never benefited any show. However, fair criticism and honest feedback should be welcome. Serving the self-interest of a man with an ego the size of the Eiffel Tower won’t do the show any favors either. AMC, like any other network, presumably wants someone as the face of their series who reflects positively on their brand. I’m hoping we will see some significant changes going forward to win back the trust of the fans. And I believe Melissa McBride’s input is essential to do so.

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There has been talk about a certain podcast

Few thoughts I had, besides it being painful to listen to, especially as I knew what was coming:

This was two guys (and two old friends) talking shit, but unfortunately some of it included being shitty. NR had his spin doctoring hat on, and he's talking about how much work co-producing is. And I'm here wondering how he is suddenly so involved with everything, including the story aspect, as at the time MMB "left", he put out interviews saying his story input is zero.

When it suits the wanted, chosen narrative, his story etc input is integral, and when it doesn't, he is not responsible for any of it. (And how dare any fan with half a brain question it.)

This all suits the incoherent narrative they have had all along; about Carol, MMB and how Carol first left and is now back; they can't get any story straight to save their lives.

Then NR mocks TWD/his fans again. He never mentions "factions", but he mimics fans who had questions or doubts about the great plan; "just wait and watch". I couldn't care less how Daryl got to France (one example he mentions); that was never a hot issue for me. I only wanted canon Daryl, and a huge part of Daryl is his relationship with Carol. Anything else is retcon.

I can't say what any of us or any of you should feel about the podcast, and wether or not we should feel targeted or called out by him. What I can say is that at this point in time I find NR's behavior getting very close to toxic. There are toxic fans, of course there are. But this can go both ways. We all deserve some modicum of respect.

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The Shipbaiting Is Not Okay...

It doesn’t matter that Isabelle is a nun. It doesn’t matter that Daryl’s feelings aren’t confirmed, and it doesn’t matter that they ultimately won’t get together. The baiting, the relentless effort to make the audience think that they will, is the most heavy-handed we’ve ever seen and that in itself disrespects Daryl, a character who "falls in love forever," who represents unconventional masculinity, whose fanbase thrived on the vulnerability, loyalty, and unconditional love he showed Carol over 11 seasons.

Whereas Angela Kang’s juxtapositions between Caryl and Daryl/Leah demonstrated Daryl's devotion to Carol, preparing us for eventual canon, the drama behind the scenes last year makes it highly unlikely Zabel wrote le spinoff with Caryl endgame in mind, at least not until much further down the line if at all. Yes, there are a few allusions to Carol in the first half of S1, but they seem shoehorned in or left open to interpretation. I fear that’s because, until Melissa signed on for S2, AMC and Zabel felt compelled to tease an alternative endgame just in case “cool dude doing cool things in cool places” wasn’t a strong enough motivation to watch. The problem is, aside from turning Daryl into the conventional hero he isn’t, they’re just recycling key elements of Caryl's relationship.

In the jarring bath scene for example, Isabelle and Daryl see each other’s scars, lending credence to an observation Isabelle makes later that they were both “broken until the world ended.” Well, that’s Carol and Daryl in a nutshell. The abuse they both suffered before the ZA helped them relate to each other, see straight through the misconceptions others had of them, and raise each other up to become the most loyal, most loving, and fiercest survivors of the flagship show. Fans clocked their soulmatism early on, rooting for their romantically-coded interactions during their search for Sophia to blossom into a full-blown relationship. Since the hope for a child's future also lays the groundwork for Daryl’s and Isabelle’s bond, it seems like AMC was hoping the similarities would evoke the same emotional response from viewers. Maybe they were hoping fresh eyes would see the same potential for Daryl and Isabelle that we saw in Caryl while long time viewers would get lost in the nostalgia of it all.

In any case, it doesn't work. It can't because as great as Clemence’s performance is, she and Norman don't have McReedus' chemistry. Daryl’s and Isabelle’s relationship hasn't had anywhere near the same amount of time to grow into what people love about Daryl and Carol. Female characters aren't interchangeable. People weren't fooled when Maggie adopted Carol's fashion sense in the pilot of yet another male-driven spinoff, and people aren't fooled now.

From the scenes I've watched and what many fans have been saying, some of Isabelle's behavior comes off as emotionally manipulative, especially when she accuses Daryl of abandoning Laurent the way his abusive father abandoned him. It’s an absolutely ridiculous line because Daryl is not like his father. Carol and TF showed him that. Daryl also just met this kid. Caring about him and wanting to keep him safe are honorable, but that doesn't obligate him to stay. The scene is unsettling, and when you consider Daryl's history, it makes the shipbaiting even more questionable.

I know some think it sets up the opportunity for Isabelle to take a darker turn in S2 much like Leah did in S11. Like I said, there's a clear juxtaposition between Daryl telling Isabelle that France doesn't feel like the place he's supposed to be and him telling Carol he does know where he's supposed to be. We know Norman and Nicotero are more than familiar with that arc, so if they wanted to, they could give us the missing payoff through Isabelle (sans having to sit through a canon relationship between her and Daryl first). The problem is, we also know Norman hated that arc and I can’t imagine he’d want to repeat it. What’s worse is that Zabel's comments about a potential romance between Daryl and Isabelle don't address the toxicity of some of their interactions, which makes me worried he's not even aware of what he's writing.

I’m not saying Caryl fans won’t get what they want. Now that we know Carol is back and Melissa has just as much input on her story as Norman has had on Daryl's, there's more reason to hope for S2 to be good. Daryl and Carol could, and should, go canon and I could go back to celebrating my favorite characters with deep analyses, minisodes, and whatever else I did to try to spread joy (I barely remember anymore. I was so young a year and a half ago).

In the meantime, especially because of S1’s gimmicky ending, I reserve the right to be angry and skeptical. The backlash following le spinoff’s announcement last April should’ve told AMC loud and clear what we want to watch and what we don't want to watch. They had so many chances to earn back our trust—revert to the original premise, revise Daryl’s arc, remove the shipbaiting, tease a Caryl romance, give Carol’s first appearance more substance, SOMETHING—but they were more concerned about saving face, and now their audience for S2 has a lot to think about.

What was the significance of Daryl's growth in the flagship if the spinoff was going to regress him to the person he was in the early seasons? What am I supposed to make of his most intimate scenes with Carol if he can be placed in (poorly nuanced) intimate situations with a stranger? What am I supposed to feel when Carol presumably does everything in her power to find Daryl, and he’s conflicted about where he belongs?

Daryl and Carol said they loved each other in TWD’s series finale. Neither of those characters ever throw those words around, so when they say it, we know it isn't just a simple declaration. It's a promise that should keep Daryl grounded during his misadventure in France, yet the spinoff never explicitly addresses it. They want to keep Daryl's feelings ambiguous so they can build unnecessary tension. It's frustrating. After having their worst fears exploited for years, Caryl fans deserve a story that fulfills their deepest desires. They—and Melissa herself—deserve peace from the cyber bullying AMC, Zabel, and co. perpetuate the longer they deny representation of an earned relationship between a man and woman both over fifty. Caryl fans are supposed to be resilient, but S1 overall is a pretty low blow. I just want to look forward to S2 without feeling like I'm getting jerked around.

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What she said.....

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The entire point of ship-baiting isn't whether or not every viewer watching takes the bait, it's a question of whether or not it's being utilized as a tactic to provoke the audience. And there has been relentless ship-baiting with the character of Daryl for years, including in TWD:DD. If you don't believe me, take a look at the articles that came out this week. Baiting is as much about the press surrounding the show, as it's about what transpires in the story and in both instances Darabelle is being teased as a romantic possibility. Not because it's going to happen but because they want people speculating about the "what ifs."

Examples of ship-baiting may include: any romantic tropes like 'hurt/comfort,' tending to wounds, sharing a bed, sharing intimate details, trauma-bonding, bathing one another, physical touch like embracing, angst/charged tension from a disagreement, performing surrogate family roles and suggestions from observing characters that Daryl may have found a new home and a new sense of belonging due to the connections he's made in France. It all carries the stench of BAIT and it is insulting to fans who have invested themselves in the Caryl relationship. This has been a problem for fans for as long as I can remember and it's one of the reasons why many have walked away over the years.

Even if Caryl is endgame, their relationship is in the process of being slowly chipped away by cheap attempts at fan manipulation at the expense of character integrity. I don't need to believe in ABC ships to see that they are being shoved in our faces at every turn.

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TWD: DD has managed to shipbait the Caryl fandom more in one season than TWD did in 11.

Y'all are just screwing with us AGAIN and don't plan to deliver in this new series, right?

RIGHT?!?

I hate this show so bad. I'm exhausted with a decade under my belt of emotional turmoil.

Just make them undoubtedly canon already and end our misery.....

I know they won't, but the shriveled up part of my heart that refuses to give up hope is sliiiiiiightly optimistic.

*I'm sure I'll regret this a year from now*

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I have some thoughts on Daryl’s arc that I want to share, but I’ll hold off a day or two because 1) it might get ugly and 2) I think Carol/Melissa deserve the spotlight a lot more right now.

Just seeing her on my screen again is a huge relief after so much uncertainty over the past year and a half, and of course the performance is insanely good. What I'm most grateful for is the fact that Carol has a clear emotional drive. We don't have to analyze her micro expressions for hours or turn over every stone to get a rough idea of her headspace. She says it herself. She's looking for Daryl. She's already gone to great lengths to find him when he doesn't turn up at the time he said he would, and thanks to the teaser, we know she'll keep going as long as there's hope he's still alive. I want to see where her determination takes her (once she gets across the ocean I mean), and obviously I want to watch the inevitable reunion between her and Daryl. It's the most anticipated scene of S2, so it needs to be big. Like, unambiguous canon big. It's what the characters and the fans deserve.

Bear with me though because I do have some issues with Carol's first appearance in 106. “God, MT, can't you just look on the bright side?” I could, but then I’d have to lower my standards, which enables AMC to keep lowering their standards when it comes to telling Daryl's and Carol's story. Theirs has always been an inspiring one, not because of all the people they've saved or all the things they've blown up, but because of the emotional core. They're two lost souls who find each other after the world ends, raising each other up to become stronger than the people around them, the audience, and even they themselves ever imagined. Their story is deep. It offers hope to fans facing their own challenges in life, so it has to be handled with a lot of care. Cheap gimmicks are beneath them, but cheap gimmicks are what we get in this scene.

It's a little bit like S7 when she runs into a group of saviors on the road, taking them out with a gun hidden up her sleeve. It reminds me that this woman is one of the most resourceful badasses in all of TWDU. And as a Caryl shipper, it delights me to see her ride off on Daryl’s bike—also badass for the record. To me though, when the nostalgia/shipper's high wears off, these things feel like distractions. There’s not really a compelling twist, like for example, finding out that Carol stowed away on the boat Daryl was on and had been in France the whole time. There's not enough momentum to keep me hyped through the long hiatus. The teaser does the vast majority of that right now, which is cool, but I want to see that same effort to market the show to me in the show itself. I want good writing. I want the connective tissue. I want the payoff. Will we ever see how Carol learned to ride a motorcycle in the first place or do I have to fill in the blanks myself just like I had to do throughout most of S11? Will we get Caryl beats that outdo the extremely unnecessary and OCC nunbaiting beats?

I don't trust Zabel to deliver everything I'm looking for. I don't think he's very clear on who Carol is, what she represents to the fans, or what her relationship with Daryl represents to the fans. Melissa does understand all of that though, so I have hope her input will make a difference. I've said it many times, and I'll say it again. I'm so happy she's back. I'm happy she seems so excited to be back. She deserves everything she's ever wanted for Carol.

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About the season finale of TWD: Daryl Dixon.

Not gonna lie the shipbaiting is hurtful and worrying.

But Carol is back and that is all I care about right now. So I will wait for the second season reminding myself of this quote:

"He's very dreamy but he's not the sun, you are."

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NYCC 23 Thoughts

I know Caryl fans are more than ready to celebrate. I am too for what it's worth. Believe me, I'm so ready, but I also have concerns that some may not want or need to hear right now. And I get it. Fandom is supposed to provide a space for us to enjoy our favorite shows and characters without real life obstacles bleeding into it. My blog has really pushed those boundaries over the past year and half, so if that's not what you're looking for, feel free to scroll on by or block. If for some reason my rants are of any use to you, however, then here goes another one. Ahem.

Four middle-aged white men walk onto a stage...

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This says it all and much better than I could. Four middle aged white men controlling the narrative yet again.

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Being a threat to Daryl has never worked out well for folks in TWDU.

  • Merle potentially could have caused issues in the prison: Carol threatened to kill him in his sleep.
  • The Terminites took him hostage and took away his crossbow: Terminus Carol.
  • Carol knew (though was never told explicitly) the Saviors did something to team family and Daryl while she was gone: Carol convinces the Kingdom to bring their guns and tiger in to save the day in ASZ.
  • Dream Alpha inferred Daryl might be in danger: Carol dislocated her own shoulder and took out a walker before going back home.
  • Lance threatened and tried to have Daryl killed multiple times: Bye bye, Lance.

French folk kindapped Daryl and put him on a boat for walker snacks:

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