the art of getting by
Rain falls steadily during a cool, autumn evening, washing away the last tendrils of summer sun. Leaves have begun their annual migration, greeting wet cobblestone pavement with glee as the temperature becomes more bearable.
Inside a small brick house at the end of a small neighbourhood, a young child sings along to the silly songs playing on the television that hangs on the lounge wall. The child, no more than three or four, dances around in a too-large princess dress, her almost icy hair dancing alongside her in haphazardly tied pigtails. A large, golden-haired dog doses happily beside her on the couch, the loud noises and movements all-too familiar to her.
Standing in the kitchen, her mother pauses her slicing as she watches with amused fondness, chest warm at the sight of the silly dancing and singing. Never did she believe she would be capable of experiencing love so strong, so pure. A love that comes without cost and burden.
Shaking her head at a song that has been played in their household on repeat as of recently, she turns away, resuming her task at hand. The dreary weather outside their large windows has inspired only the warmest of meals, and seeing as her little girl has decided to only ingest liquids for the foreseeable future, she has been trying her hand at many soups.
“Only a few more songs, Ev,” she calls over to where her daughter continues to dance in their platformed lounge, her small body bobbing as she leans on the coffee table and bounces. She is spared a quick glance in acknowledgement, and reprimands herself for conceiving and birthing a child that seems to exhibit her exact brand of stubborn. Mala spare them.
Rolling her eyes, she rubs at her swollen stomach, praying to the Gods above that this next daughter takes after her father, a far more compliant person than she will ever be.
Brushing the residual scraps off her hand, she squats down to open a cabinet, beginning the search for her largest pot. Finding and grabbing the handles, she straightens at the sound of a heavy knock at their front door, a quick glance at the oven clock telling her Rowan is at least an hour away, based on his latest message. Besides, who uses their own front door when they get home? Standing up gingerly, she places the pot onto the countertop and heads towards the knocking that has picked up its intensity. Sparing a smile for her otherwise oblivious daughter, she opens the front door, eyebrows raising high at the sight before her.
Dripping wet and shivering cold, Lorcan Salvaterre stands before her, his thick, long locks plastered to his face and shoulders as his hand freezes, extended as if to knock once again.
“Lorcan,” she deadpans, simply staring at the towering man, whose expression is one caught between embarrassment and frustration, his shoulders tense. “What’s going on?”
His expression darkens, and it is obvious to her that she was not who he was here to see.
Her thoughts are confirmed instantly. “Aelin. Is Rowan home?”
Head leaning slightly to the side, Aelin looks over at their driveway where only her car is parked, before her eyes trail back to the soaked man before her. “No.”
“Right, well,” he mutters, his gaze having followed hers towards to the lone car in the driveway, “I’ll give him a ring then.”
Without so much of a goodbye, he turns, his shoulders hunched in that same tense pose as he makes his way back to his car, only too aware of Aelin’s passive gaze on his back as she watches him from the doorway.
“I’m making soup,” she calls suddenly, feeling only slightly pleased when he halts. The rain continues to pelt him, but he does not turn. “Come inside.”
It’s less of a dinner invitation and more of an order that Aelin Ashryver Galathynius Whitethorn extends to Lorcan, and he’s very much aware of that. He turns quickly, hand tight on the handle of his car door. Aelin simply stands back and extends her arm outward, gesturing to inside the warm house.
“You never make a pregnant woman wait,” she says, chin lifted as Lorcan quickly and resolutely walks back up towards the small porch, highly aware of the way his clothes drip, and the mess he will surely make. But Aelin only steps back to give him room to step into the foyer, a small smile playing on her lips as she shuts the door behind him, no indication she is annoyed by the small pond that is being constructed on her hardwood floors.
Leaving him standing rather awkwardly in her front hallway, Aelin disappears into a small room off the entryway, returning with a real smile and warm towels, of which she extends towards him wordlessly. He accepts them with a nod, and can only watch as she walks down the other end of the hallway towards where he knows her kitchen and lounge area are. Toeing off his shoes, he quickly towel dries his clothes, suddenly uncomfortable in a home he has spent more than enough time in, but never alone with her.
Finally dry enough to move without too much self awareness, Lorcan follows the sounds and smells of a family home, entering the open plan kitchen to see Aelin at the stove, pouring an array of ingredients into a large clay pot, her daughter dancing away to some children’s program on the television.
Evalin Galathynius Whitethorn is the spitting image of her father, but Lorcan knows exactly who’s personality she has inherited of her parents. He can still remember the first time he met the small babe, merely hours after she had been born. She’d been dwarfed in her fathers arms, and Lorcan could only stare as she mewled small noises he had never heard before, tucked away gently in warm blankets. Elide had moved around his frozen body, her own shaking with excitement as she took the baby in, arms immediately extending to hold her. Rowan had transferred his daughter over with an anxious expression and tender hands, tugging Elide over to where Aelin sat up in her hospital bed so he could be near both of his girls.
“Lorcan,” Elide had breathed out in wonder, her eyes alight with adoration already. “Come look.”
He’d moved forward towards the bed, sparing a quick smile for Aelin, who had smiled back serenely and nodded — it was perhaps their most positive interaction. Elide held out her arms, showing off the bundle in her arms. And Lorcan could understand her adoration as he took Rowan and Aelin’s daughter in, surprised at how…human the small babe had look. Weren’t most babies supposed to look like squished aliens?
“Oh no, not me,” Lorcan had exclaimed as Elide held the baby out towards him, and as if realising who she was being handed off to, Evalin had let out a wail that could rival her mothers own high pitched voice, and Lorcan knew without looking Aelin would be wearing a smug smile.
Rowan had more than happily taken his daughter back.
“In exchange for dinner, I’ll assign you to Evalin duty,” Aelin finally says, dragging him from his thoughts as she turns from the stove to see Lorcan staring at her daughter, an amused smile on her face. “I need that television to stop playing those songs immediately.”
Lorcan only nods, and heads towards his pseudo-niece, stepping up into the platformed lounge. She finally spares him a glance, and squeals with delight as she takes in the large man, though Lorcan knows Evalin is generally happy to see anyone. The television is immediately disregarded, and suddenly shuts off, and he smiles for the first time as Aelin casually lowers a remote from in the kitchen.
“Blocks! Now, Lorcan, please!”
Before he knows it, he is on his knees and helping the small girl build blocks into small houses that she has dumped from a bucket by the couch. It always shocks the young man how quickly small children move, though he is not one that has much experience with them. Aelin and Rowan are the first of their collective group of friends to have introduced children, and though he has had time to adjust to her, Evalin still surprises him.
He plays quietly with the little girl for a few minutes, the only sounds in the open area the falling rain outside large windows and Aelin moving around the cluttered kitchen, humming away as she cooks.
Aelin pauses as she has nothing left to add to her pot, and braces her hands on the counter, glancing over at Lorcan. Biting the inside of her lip, she considers him, such a dark and quiet soul who really only brightens for Elide, one of her dearest friends. She chooses to start there, usually the safe ground for any and all of their conversations.
“How’s Elide? She told me the other day she was loving her new job.” Aelin finally speaks, watching her daughter and her pseudo-uncle play together, both intensely focused on the blocks before them.
He tenses immediately, glancing towards her.
“Yeah, no, she likes it a lot, I think. She just…she’s been asking about…future things, I guess,” he confesses, balancing a block between nimble fingers. Aelin simply waits, still braced against the counter, stretching out her back as she allows him to process his thoughts. Though they are by no means close, after several years of friendship forged through Rowan, Aelin has figured out some of the intricacies of Lorcan Salvaterre, including his absolute inability to express himself fully. Especially to her.
“I don’t know, I said some stupid stuff about being better alone and not wanting to be too serious too fast and we’re both working our jobs and we enjoy them and we’re still young so what’s the point and who knows she might fall in love with someone else someday. We haven’t spoken in a couple days, but I can’t lose her. I didn’t mean that I wanted to be break up or be done, you know,” he rambles, blocks completely forgotten about.
Aelin desperately wants to snort at that — too serious too fast, her ass. From the moment Aelin had brought Elide to the bar they all liked to hang out in, Lorcan had been a goner, even if he had been an absolute shit in expressing his feelings and getting Elide to trust him. Instead, she bites the inside of her cheek, again waiting for him to finish his thoughts.
“Maybe you could talk to her for me,” Lorcan finally murmurs, his gaze focused on the tower before him, unwilling to look Aelin in the eyes. She is silent for a long while, and finally he has to look up in embarrassment, bracing himself for her trademark look she seems to wear whenever they are around each other, one he knows is rooted in slight dislike.
But the look Aelin gives him does not border on unkind or even judgemental. It’s not even sympathetic. It’s a gentle look, and a look that indicates that perhaps she is truly seeing Lorcan for the first time.
“I can, if you’d like,” she replies slowly and softly, and he does his best to mask his surprise at her agreement. “But what would I say? What would you want me to say?”
He considers her. “Tell her…I don’t know. Shit, tell her that it’s natural for men to feel that way and that all the future stuff will happen, I’m just trying to get my head around it all. Maybe tell her I love her?”
Aelin laughs at his response and he frowns, putting down his blocks and standing up to move towards where she is standing at the kitchen island, and sits heavily at a bar stool. Evalin is ignorant of the two adults, continuing to play with her coloured blocks, Fleetfoot now lying down next to her, chewing on a red block.
“What’s funny about that,” he demands, eyebrows knit together in an intense version of confusion. Aelin laughs again, moving towards the fridge as she pulls out a beer and slides it towards him. He frowns down at it for a moment before shaking his head, glancing at her swollen stomach, and readies to give it back to her.
“Don’t,” she laughs, pushing the cold beer further towards him, and grabs a tonic water from the fridge for herself. “I’m not ashamed to admit I accidentally got Rowan a little drunk once or twice when I was pregnant with Ev because I needed to live through him drinking.”
Lorcan cracks a smile at that, snorting at the thought of drunk Rowan, which hasn’t changed much since they were teenagers. Often emotional and clingy, he was always worse when he was drunk around his wife, who happily lapped up the attention.
“Where is he, anyways? I thought he had Friday evenings off.”
Aelin nods in confirmation, reaching down to scratch lightly at Fleetfoots head, who has made her way into the kitchen at the enticing smells now drifting from the stove. She hands Lorcan a bottle opener. “He’s at the hospital filling in for another doctor who had a family commitment,” she replies, before sobering again. “Look, Lorcan, I could say those things to Elide for you, but I find that I personally appreciate Rowan telling me he loves me and hearing his thoughts, no matter how panicked, rather than hearing them from one of his friends.”
Lorcan can only stare at the bottle and bottle opener, blinking as small hands reach forward to pop the cap off the top of the bottle and thust the drink into his hands. He smirks, finally taking a swig from the bottle.
“I do love her,” he mutters, meeting Aelin’s gaze, which is still soft. He almost wishes she’d judge the hell out of him and kick his ass into gear. “I do.”
“I think you’re overthinking this. Elide knows you love her, she knows you’re committed to her, but she also knows you can be a piece of shit,” Aelin finishes with a smug smile. He rolls his eyes. “She’ll appreciate you doing your best to communicate with her your worries and anxieties about not being ready for marriage rather than telling her that she might fall in love with another person or that you shouldn’t be together. You tell her you love her and you want a future with her.”
“What do those things mean if I tell her?” He asks, unsure of what the future even meant. “What am I confirming for her if I tell her those things?”
“It just means you love her, Lorcan, and you want to be with her. You don’t have to marry Elide today, or even tomorrow,” Aelin confirms, taking a sip from her bottle. “I think she wants to know you’re dedicated to a future with her, whatever that looks like. She just wants you, you know that, she doesn’t need all that other stuff. She’s independent and strong; she does’t need you. She wants you.”
Lorcan’s chest warms at Aelin’s confirmation, perhaps one of the only other people who knows Elide as well as he does. The small woman had surprised him in how independent and stubborn she was, quiet and unsure as she can be.
“How do you know all this? How do you even figure it out?”
“It’s the art of getting by, Lorcan Salvaterre,” Aelin declares, holding her tonic up to knock against his beer bottle. Lorcan laughs as she grins.
A sound from the corner of the kitchen interrupts their moment, and Fleetfoot begins barking.
“Daddy!” Evalin screeches as her father steps into the kitchen from the garage door, his almost-white hair glistening with rain. He has a grin on his face as his toddler abandons her blocks and runs for him, his expression turning to confusion as he takes in who is in his kitchen. He barely catches Evalin as she launches herself at him and straightens.
“Lorcan,” Rowan says, staring at his best friend and wife sharing a drink over the kitchen island. He can’t quite believe it.
“Rowan,” Aelin deadpans, rolling her eyes.
“Sorry for being here when you weren’t,” Lorcan says sheepishly. Rowan shrugs, nudging the door shut behind him with his foot as he acknowledges his just as excitable dog.
“You’re not barred from my house when I’m not home,” Rowan simply replies, squirming toddler held tightly in his arms, as he rounds the island to kiss his wife in greeting, eyes seeing only her. “Smells good,” he comments, placing Evalin back on the ground to begin pulling bowls out of a cupboard. He glances back at his best friend. “Staying for dinner?”
Lorcan considers, and looks at Aelin, who simply smiles at him. He shakes his head, standing and handing his empty beer bottle to Aelin, whose smile widens. “Nah, I’ve gotta go see Elide.”
Rowan looks between his wife and best friend, who usually are not so smiley and comfortable around each other, before settling on the dark-haired man who is now moving towards their front door, putting his shoes on.
“Thanks for the beer,” he says, before disappearing back out into the rain.
“Anytime,” Aelin calls to the closing door, a satisfied expression on her face as she watches him out the window as he hurries to his car, quickly driving away.
“Did he seem weird to you?” Rowan questions, also watching Lorcan drive away. “He seemed…I don’t know, resolute? Stable? Why was he here? What happened? Is he okay?”
Aelin laughs and ignores his questions, taking the bowls from his hands as she begins to set the table.
“It’s simply the art of getting by, Rowan Whitethorn.”