I beg you I beg you do not block me i m not a bad person i m not anything i m just a worm with a brain i am just chilling and wasting time around here all I wanna do is follow ur blog we can disagree on things because life is not that serious nothing is deep enough to stop two souls from sharing and celebrating this beautiful world and the gift of life let me see the world through ur eyes let me see things how you see them let me understand you let me learn and let me grow don't block me just let me see just let me follow I won't disturb you I won't hurt you please let me a glimpse of ur soul please please please ~.~ ♡.♡ >.< ○_○ ♤_♤

I hate myself, I am the root of all problems

I give my parents so much bullshit idk how to not

ok this love bs is crazy and the fact that I feel detached from my emotions rn like I am faking everything and acting all the time idk what to do with the amount of drama I have rn

I want him I want him only I want to hold his hand and kiss his cheek in front of everyone I want then to know I want him

what's the point of doing all the fucking work if i am not going to be graded on it anyway

m so fucking stupid and infuriating i literally fucking cant

ok too much happening I need to calm

imma shitpost my life on insta I wanna lay my heart out there I want to be seen

I think I am really tired of this bullshit so I am going to change my life this summer or end it

crazy how one person will talk ab the matrix and be like yeah I believe it's real and even tho they are really into it they are still rooted in reality and functional and someone who literally can rationally be like no my delusions aren't real struggle to fully digest it in different moods

people really think it's all a joke ur imagination doesn't even begin to comprehend the beginning of some of these symptoms of mental illnesses people think oh a narcissist has a god complex he think he is better than everyone else and then maybe some people would go on a couple different levels and get it a bit better understanding of it maybe they wil read somewhere that grandeuse can be a cover for massive insecurities or that they aren't evil and get it moderately right but like some of the ways these symptoms show u can't imagine delusions of grandeur can look like having psychotic breaks where you believe that u r a being who has lived a million lives all of them seeming so real and then u think u have to be god and it's painful and u don't want to be it it's terrifying u hate urself for believing it also u also sometimes know u r not god but its so hard to tell which one is real and u fucking hate urself for it but what can u do so u just play into this reduced version of it called god complex and let people think u r just an asshole with a massive ego fucking hell

I am betting 20 francs on the fact that the moment he is gonna move to his new place he will find someone else to be romantically/sexually engaged with... and because I won't be as easily available and around all the time... he gon leave this poly bs and just not be involved with me at all

I gotta start predicting shit to see how accurate I am

what i would give to have the trauma and experiences that make people wanna be overachievers and do stuff out of spite and be self-protective and zealous yeah oh no it's so hard to be a workaholic and ultra independent oh no must me so exhausting to be able to make a living and not beg god ever night to send you to hell while cutting yourself because you just fucking are disgusted by your pathetic fucking loser self

bro feminism go and shit but some of these motherfucking bitches i swear to god why is this asshole dickfuckinghead being so difficult bro i know i can do well in this class this university is a fucking joke and a fucking buisness anyway why the fuck i will fuck her mouth with a giant rod why does she think that putting up this front and taking out her bipolar fucking bitchyass attitude what makes her a strong woman fucking do something better with ur life u braindead capitalist fucking whore u act like merit is a sacred principle it's made up fucking shit and u know it bc if u were any better u wouldnt fucking be here stop taking out your fucking mid life crisis bullshit on me

i should kill myself