There’s nothing left for me
So why do I still wake from my sleep?
$10,000,000 but you wouldn’t wake up the next day
I would take it in a second and simply give it away
Like I said I’m stupid and weak
And that would be perfect for me
I wouldn’t have another failed attempt, it would actually happen
And everyone wouldn’t even care, they wouldn’t even notice
And I think that’s special, a special kind of shitty
That I wouldn’t be missed and no one would care about me
Like I get it, I’m nothing which is why she left
So why fucking try to survive and prolong my inevitable death?
I finally had someone who cared, who loved me - or so I would think
But the fact after five years, she would just up and leave is amazing to me
Five years means nothing to her, probably just a blip
In a year or two, our memories will fade from her mind, she’ll forget
Which is fine because I don’t matter even now
I’m just a fuck up who lets everyone down
I don’t get a second chance, never did get one so why’d I hope for one with her?
Because it was five years married and i had planned to finally get better
But she didn’t care about my words, didn’t want to see me again
Now she says she’d only check her phone on Tuesdays, hell we aren’t even friends
I lost everything and everyone I ever cared about
I hope they hear me when I can no longer say words out loud
When my heart stops and my body fades to gray
I hope that someone better is born into my place