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embroidery on blouse, by Elsa Olsson/Fevernest, 2019
Image description: a black blouse with a red anatomical heart embroidered over the heart, a thread is left lose with the needle stuck through the fabric above the heart. end Image description
Peachtober day 21: Greenhouse
[image description: a black and white watercolor painting of a greenhouse at night. it is illuminated from the inside, and three large ghosts are floating up from its roof into a dark background. /end i.d.]
[ID: Stylized chibi art of Fluttershy from My Little Pony of her laying in a loafed position. It's drawn with a pixel brush and has a transparent background. End ID.]
found this weird puppy does anyone know what breed she is
I'm normal in a lot of ways (enjoy bread, etc)
painted over this piece from may 🌈 prints coming soon :)
[ID from alt text: A digital painting of several long, slender, white, dragon-like creatures with feathery wings and ears in flight. The sky is bright blue, with interspersed clouds, two rainbows, and a burning sun in the bottom right quadrant. Large raindrops fall in the upper left quadrant. End ID.]
hi yeah i'm a drawtectives fan did you know that
[ID: art of the Drawtectives telling Eugene: "If a medium can speak to ghosts imagine what a large could do." A drop of sweat runs down Eugene's head. End ID.]
Omg you're back! Welcome 💖💖💖
it is almost certainly temporary, but good to know im appreciated around here! <3
[ID: A symmetrical digital drawing of two white, feathered dragons, touching faces in an upright, joyful dancing pose. The background is green with simple leaves. End.]
A pair of swan dragons 🦢🩵🦢 happy belated Valentimes Time!
Inktober nr 4 ✨⚔️
id: digital art of a female knight in plate armor with celtic knot designs, long white hair, and a golden crown. She is being held by a woman with a golden circlet, long black hair, and a red dress. They are surrounded by branches with golden leaves on a starry background. end id
id: a screenshot redraw of No Evil by Betsy Lee, in greyscale, of Kitty and Huey both in animal form. Kitty is leaning slightly back looking surprised, and Huey is holding a basket of eggs with an intense look on his face. Subtitles read 'Hey, Kitty, we got eggs.' end id
Ultimately an RPG that uses playing cards as a randomizer but doesn't actually utilize the cards for. You know. The things that cards can do. Is just using them as a fancy, weirdly shaped die.
A few things that cards can do that dice can't:
A few other stupid card tricks you can use in your tabletop RPGs:
Are we talking about that old RPG about Ziggy Stardust actually being an alien and fighting the war on drugs?
Okay, I don't usually single people out for the "mistaking a widespread trope for a reference to a particular piece of media because that's the only example of the trope in question they've ever heard of" thing, but I've gotta ask: what the fuck does your prior experience with the tabletop roleplaying hobby look like that the only tabletop RPG which uses playing cards for conflict resolution that you know about is Starchildren: Velvet Generation? That's actually more surprising than if you'd never heard of the trope at all – I'm genuinely curious!
I just saw a comic on my dash about how much of adult fantasy novels are focused on romance and sex etc, which is pretty fair and frustrating if you're looking for a non-romantic read. All the time I'm looking at rec or deal lists for fantasy and often a lot of it is romantic, which can be a letdown. So I thought I'd make a brief list of my favorite fantasy novels without major romantic elements.
What I learned writing this list: 1) I do read a lot of romance lol, but also 2) there's a lot of books I read that I can't remember the plot that well anymore??? to the extent of being unsure if there's romance or not. I think I need to do some more rereading.
people say folks with adhd struggle with "delayed rewards" aka long term goals and as such we tend to focus more on short term rewards. what they don't talk about is that at when we Do accomplish long term goals we don't actually feel anything proportionate to the amount of work we did to achieve it. In my head I suffered for a while and then money spontaneously appeared in my bank account.
"Don't you feel satisfied that your windows are so clean now?" It sucked and it sucked and now I don't care. I just remember the sucking.
Hello, I have ADHD and I am also a licensed clinical therapist!
This part sucks. Not gonna lie to you. That said, our brains DO still get rewards, just not from "task completion" (something something, the combination of executive functioning whammy that is task initiation, task break down, task execution, and task transition following completion). Instead our rewards tend to come from one or more of a few areas:
Sometimes individuals have other things that can trigger rewards for them, and it's always worth making a note when you run across something like that!
I find that by popping off one of these options DURING or IMMEDIATELY AFTER a task that would otherwise be next to impossible to get thru without becoming a raging self hating asshole can make a big difference in how one experiences that task.
Examples: when I need to clean the house because my maintenance routine has fallen apart, I prep a vape with sativa delta or sativa THC, and shove it in my binder. I take a hit periodically throughout the task process to keep me functional and regulated. I also set pomodoro timers for 45 min each so I can alternate between "working" and "resting".
When I fall behind on notes, my wife buys me peanut M&Ms from the corner store and I pop a pair of M&Ms for every late note I submit for work.
When I'm having a low-function work day, I will prioritize taking my breaks outside with the dogs, and sometimes will splash water around from the hose on them and myself for a bit of a temperature change.
If I've overextended myself but still have essential tasks to complete, I will pause about every 15-30min to do a breathing exercise (5-6 count breath in through the nose, and 2-3 count breath out through the mouth - this is really good for short energy boosts and overcoming brainfog)
It's important to keep in mind, that these are not "incentives" in the traditional sense, where if you don't do the task, you don't get the reward. ANY use of your executive functioning would be rewarded in the brain to some extent for regulated neurotypicals, and just because our reward systems aren't great at self-activating as expected, doesn't mean we should have to live without the positive reinforcement that EVERYONE is supposed to get. So if you made an attempt at the thing, you get to trigger your reward response.
Overtime, myself and clients I work with have all noticed a shift in how we perceive tasks once this becomes common practice. Because we now have history and memories of tasks feeling positive to do (even when they are demanding or difficult for us), it becomes easier to interact with that task overall. You start to better notice the changes in approach that may make it even easier. You stop dreading the knowledge that the task needs to be done. It's easier to hop back into maintenance routines even after they've fallen apart. Basically, when you manually trigger what your brain NEEDS and can't self-create, a lot of the distressing aspects of executive function become WAY more manageable.
There's also a lot to be said about the experience of shifting self shaming and self blaming around what it means to "succeed" at a thing or "complete" a task, but that's sort of a different post. For now, suffice to say that being the kind and compassionate and understanding person you likely are for others, FOR YOURSELF, makes a big difference in how easy or hard the above strats will be to execute.
You probably know a few of the things that manually trigger that reward response for you. How can you make that ability work in your favor?
So if your brain won't give you a reward for completeing a task...store bought is fine?
I've Endured, Now What?
Blue Iris - Mary Oliver / So This Is All I Will Ever Be? - Fatima Aamer Bilal / Vive, Vive - Traci Brimhall
id: three pictures of text. the first reads 'Now that I'm free to be myself, who am I?' The second 'how did i forget to live before i lived at all?' and the final, "God, God, what do I do after all this survival?" end id.
When I think of you, I want to be alone together. I want to strive against and for. I want to live in contact. I want to be a context for you, and you for me.
id from alt: Illustration of red and blue from this is how you lose the time war. They are floating on a white background, hands clasped, with the other hands on a knee and in the hair. Red is robotic, with a full face visor and black short hair with red tips, chest armour and armoured arms with cybernetic patterns, a red hood, and a long split skirt over legs that go to points. Blue is planty and animalistic, with a mask-like face with 6 yellow eyes and fangs, long curly dark hair, insect wings, four arms with vines going up them and bent back feet. She is wearing a short sleeved top and long skirt. end id.
one tadpole marked as 'released'. It's just you left
id from alt: a digital drawing of twelve metal sheets. on ten of them are dissected frogs with pins holding their torsos open. the top left corner tray is empty with a trail of blood leading off it. the bottom right tray has sol bufo sitting up having taken out his pins, looking for the missing frog. end id
