Of Trauma And Surgeons

anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful

@ktlsyrtis this is what I mean!! ❤️‍🔥

Characters being compared to dogs always use terriers or pitbulls or something for their metaphors. “They grab on and they don’t let go” “They keep worrying at it until it’s dead” etc.

Anyway, I want to see collies used as metaphors. Albert Payson Terhune style. “He was like an attack dog–making slash-and-run attacks, cutting them up worse every time, never staying in range long enough to get hurt but circling back over and over.”

@animatedamerican yes EXCELLENT.

“He was like a bloodhound–not actually that violent at all, but his reputation did the work for him.”

“He was like a corgi: by all signs unaware that a fight was even happening, just enthusiastic and delighted to be involved.”

“He was like a labrador– so known for being friendly and having a soft mouth that everyone forgot that he was actually quite large and had teeth.”

“He was like a poodle - much smarter than you’d expect for someone with such flamboyant hair ”

“He was like an Irish Wolfhound - he could do more damage being friendly than most people could do in a blind rage.”

He was like a beagle - AAAUUUUUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *breath* AUUUUUUUUUUUUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Tags via @ragsy: #he was like a mutt; no one knew what he was meant to be and everyone was disappointed in him anyway

“he was like a husky -

Okay, so, looks like Google Docs might actually start implementing their rule about not sharing explicit content. (This includes writing.) How in the ever loving fuck am I supposed to back up 1,000+ stories that equate to 3 million+ words into fucking Microsoft Word????? And efficiently, for that matter?! HELP.

I figured out how to move all my stuff onto Microsoft Word!

See those three dots next to the folder name? Click on that.

Then it'll give you the download option.

Once downloaded, it'll save the folder as a compressed zip file! All the documents inside are changed to Word files, and you can view and edit them now.

Now I know how to move 3 million+ words onto my laptop. It'll still take a bit, but not nearly as long as I'd imagined.

I would like to add that I am not trying to fear-monger. However, it is part of Google Drive’s TOS to not share explicit material, be it sexual or violent. (So, basically what I write.)

This occurrence seems to be rare. Read about it here.

Besides, it is better to have everything on your own hard drive vs Google docs. You retain more ownership over your work that way.

Someone pointed out that I did not provide the ToS, which, my bad. Again, not trying to cause a panic or anything. Just saying that Google is not a safe place to keep your writing/art.

This is the specific part of the ToS that I was looking at:

And this is the part that says they can restrict access to your writing or remove it entirely for breaking the ToS:

So, yeah. An author lost access to their writing due to sharing it with beta and alpha readers. It seems like an isolated incident as far as I’m aware, but you can never be too careful. Back up your stuff if you can.

I honestly and truly believe all good AUs should be a little “”””ooc”””” in the sense that good characterisation involves understanding that changes a characters backstory and circumstances will have an effect on how they respond to the world around them

Good characterisation isn’t about creating a perfect 1:1 canon replica it’s about understanding why a character is different in your work and about grounding the changes you do deliberately choose to make in canon character traits

#big fan of putting people into situations #and seeing how that changes them #I can believe a lot of supposed ooc behaviour if you show me how you got there (x)

Slam it to the left if you're havin' a good time~

zoe evans, feat. the jeremy irons pun that nobody asked for

THIS IS A WORK OF ART

Special thank you to @ktlsyrtis for the inspiration and to a very productive zoom documentary on bee keeping

so this incredible work of art has my brain in a chokehold 😅, which resulted in this companion piece...

Berena appreciation week [insp] Day Two: Favorite Scene/Episode(s)   └ “It’s Only Love if it Hurts” and “Missing You Already”

HACKS!!!! SERIES 3!!!!! BREEEEEEATHEEEEEE!!!!!!

Filing this under ‘People @akaanonymouth is convinced kissed in a coffin’

Hey,where are you looking at,Bernie?

this is your gentle reminder to stop fighting against your adhd and instead structure your life around it

buy a pack of chapsticks and put one in the pocket of all of your coats and jackets because you always forget to bring one and chapped lips is sensory hell

leave important things where you can see them. if they go in a box or a drawer you will forget they exist

put any appointments or deadlines in your phone calendar As Soon As you get them. set a reminder for a week before, a day before, an hour before, as many as you need as often as you need them.

when that little voice in your head says "i dont need to write that down, ill remember it" that is the devil talking!!! write it down anyway!!

plan for down time. have a few hours at the end of every day to just do fun stuff like engage in your hyperfixations. even if you didnt get all of your work done that day, have the rest anyway. you probably spent the whole day beating yourself up for not doing what you Should be doing, so you still need the break.

if you never eat vegetables because its too much effort to chop and cook them, get the frozen or canned shit. it doesnt go off for ages and you just have to microwave it. theres no point buying fresh vegetables if they just keep going off and being left to rot in the bottom of your fridge

if you struggle to decide what to have for dinner every day, take the decision out of it. choose a set of meals and eat those on rotation until you get sick of them, then choose some new ones and do it again.

its not stupid if it works! our brains literally have a chemical deficiency. you are allowed to accommodate yourself. go forth and stop making your life more difficult than it has to be because "this shouldn't be this hard". it is hard, so make it easier.

You have no idea how pleased I am that more and more people are accepting the healthy middle ground between the equally unhealthy "I must be able to do things normally or else" and "I am neurodivergent so there is no hope for me."

Accommodating my ADHD is an ongoing process because discovering where those problems are is an ongoing process. But the minute I have even one thing on lock, it helps me start hunting down those other things and fixing them.

(Also Bird's Eye steamfresh bags are a godsend, especially the ones that have pasta or rice included.)

“Killing Eve ended with Villanelle’s death. This is why I’m bringing her back to life” - Luke Jennings

When my transgressive heroine came to a sticky end on screen, many Killing Eve fans felt cheated. Now they can pick up her story again – this time for free.

In April last year, the final episode of the BBC drama Killing Eve was broadcast. The series was adapted from my novels, initially and brilliantly by Phoebe Waller-Bridge, and with Jodie Comer and Sandra Oh in the lead roles of Villanelle and Eve. All in all, it was a spectacular ride. Phoebe passed the reins to the capable Emerald Fennell for season 2, and other teams made the third and fourth season.

These last two seasons went in a very different direction from the novels. In the final seconds of the show, having finally shared a kiss with Eve after three-and-a-half years of elaborately perverse courtship, Villanelle is summarily killed. This doesn’t happen in the books. The third novel concludes with the couple living anonymously in St Petersburg, having lost everything except each other. This is where I pick up the story again.

Villanelle, for all her winning ways, is a homicidal psychopath, and transgressive characters often come to a sticky end on the screen. There’s a long history in film and TV of the same treatment being meted out to one or both members of same-sex couples, a trope known to LGBTQ+ audiences as Bury Your Gays. Killing Eve’s fanbase was, and is, acutely attuned to such issues. I know this because many of them have contacted me. The Killing Eve universe is their escape, they tell me, and Villanelle their heroine. Not because she murders people, but because she’s powerful, she’s her own creation, and she goes through life doing exactly as she choses.

Publishing using Substack, I am writing my book in instalments, with readers commenting along the way. The process would be more organic than conventional publishing.

I’ve posted three instalments of Killing Eve: Resurrection so far, and I’m enjoying the process. Writing a novel like this is fun, a series of sprints rather than a marathon. And it feels so good to return to my mismatched heroines.

One of the lessons the wider Killing Eve project has taught me is how much the relationship between writer and reader (or viewer) has changed in the past decade. To create memorable characters today is to invite shared ownership, because the growth of fan-power – fan-fic, fan-art, social media opinion – ensures that those characters will live multiple lives in multiple dimensions.

It’s in that spirit that I’m bringing Villanelle back. The story will continue unrolling over 2024. “I read the first sentence and literally started to cry,” one subscriber wrote, and that’s good enough for me.