ahhhhhhh (incoherent screams) you finally saw that reblog of mine where i just ugh (proceeds to hide) i just.... let it all out. you see, sometimes i`m just a ball of emotional wreck & whenever i read some outrageously good, my emotional side of the brain just start gearing up its engines.
idk how to explain but i was nervous after posting my thoughts under sad machines because i thought what if you got weirded out by me spilling all those extremely personally thoughts. i was like "ah you stupid, why did you go so overboard with your thoughts?? what if em thinks you`re just plain weird?" i was just very very nervous.
BUT after seeing how you were happy reading whatever the fuck i wrote (god, it`s still embarrassing, that`s like me confessing my love for sad machines) i`m glad i wrote it, nonetheless, i hope that made you happy. that`s all that matters.
also, you`re amazing, em! i hope you & your best friend had a good laugh. i hope you`re doing well these days? please stay safe & make sure to stay hydrated! you`re extremely precious & deserve all the happiness in the world.
i love love love love you & your brain & your hands which writes these amazing stories, em. take care.
~koyel
i've been hoarding this message for ages so i apologize if you were waiting for me to respond sooner and for suddenly getting a random notification from me. it's been a while since i've logged in on here. i'm in grad school now, in a different city, and in a different period of my life. but what i will say is "sad machines" holds a wonderful place in my heart. your words were not weird, and i am truly, undoubtedly touched that you spent as much time as you did to write your sweet thoughts. i am doing very well these days! still battling writer's block, but i'm a poet now. i write scenes of fic and am trying to transition into non-fanfic writing, so that's been fun. still finding my way, but finding that it's coming together quite nicely. i love you and your kindness! i really hope you're doing well, staying safe, and most importantly, taking care of yourself, koyel!