okay so i might not jump into it and delete everything but i’m going through and deleting some things that i just,,, don’t want on my page anymore (things like posts that give too much information, fics i wrote that i no longer want to associate myself with, etc.)
this blog was a way for me to connect with people and stay sane during 2020 and it was great, don’t get me wrong, but i also think that i did too much that ultimately lead to burnout.
i initially made this blog with a friend to write bts fanfic together and then i took over the account after i started writing more fics than them (which they were totally okay with, btw.) i joined networks that i never even thought of doing, made some great friends, created my own network with those friends, lost touch with them, made more great friends. this was an amazing experience, don’t get me wrong, but after getting a new job, i no longer had the energy to keep going.
which lead to me feeling guilty that this blog still exists, because i was unable to keep writing. writing meant adding network tags, posting meant i had to keep up with admin work for my network. i ran away from this blog because it felt too much, promising myself that i’ll definitely come back, i’ll do it later, i don’t need to post a hiatus announcement.
i really just need to be honest. it’s been over a year since i said i was editing my blog. it’s been over a year since i posted my last long fic.
i want to go back to writing. just. stress-free writing. no more obligations, no more deadlines, no more promises. so i hope the people who still follow me are happy enough with the random bits and pieces i may post from time to time.
and to all my moots who still follow me, i love you all. you guys are my fondest memories of this blog. i hope we can still interact even with me being awol most of the time xx
hugs and kisses,
hikaru x
