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"You will pass this, you will forget about him."

"Forget about him, you need to move on."

"You'll forget it all eventually."

Everyone must have been filled with all these conversations after a breakup. They convey a message that in order to move on, one should forget. And I beg to differ. One can move on while still remember.

Moving on can get along with still remembering. And for to me, forgetting is a big word. You will never be able to forget someone if they do take a great part of your life. So, if you success to forget somebody or still trying to forget, ask this to yourself; was what you have isn't meaningful?

Somebody has taken a part of your life, and so many things you have done together. A part of you now wouldn't be whole without their contribution; either bad or good. If you do have love on somebody in the past, it doesn't deserve to be forgotten. Embrace the past. Accept it. That is what sit right with me when talking about moving on.

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ninasdrafts

“It was the third birthday in a row that I did not call you. I wonder if you even noticed. If, despite yourself, you’ve been waiting for your phone to light up with my name - if my number’s still saved, that is. I couldn’t bring myself to delete yours, though seeing your name when I scroll down my list of contacts hurts. I don’t know how many birthdays have to pass in order for me to forget the meaning of that day. If one year I will wake up to a regular Monday or Thursday or Sunday and it will not even cross my mind that you’re one year older. That you’re probably out partying with your friends or staying in with your new girlfriend, celebrating being alive in the best possible ways. Maybe I will always remember the date, because I will always remember you and what being with you felt like. Maybe I don’t want your birthday to become a regular Monday or Thursday or Sunday one day. Maybe I will forever want your birthday to be a day to reminisce about what we used to have.”

— birthdays / n.j

Source: ninasdrafts

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mormorando

suedemotion

i hate modern technology, i hate phone “upgrades”, i hate social media and feeling totally out of the loop when i don’t have any. i hate feeling like an outcast because i like antiquated means of communication better. i miss when picking up the phone wasn’t like super gay or an emergency. whenever you call someone now the first thing they say is “omg r u ok??” and it’s like yeah i just literally miss you... i miss getting special phone calls drunk at night, i miss leaving awkward voicemails. i miss when these things were normal to do and not seen as cringe or weird or outdated. like idc abt following you around on a map and seeing where ur pin is, idc abt stalking you around on the internet and looking at your photos to make sure you’re happy. i want to know personally.

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originalferal

I need a hug right now. Someone to blend into, someone who will tell me that everything is going to work out in the end and actually mean it. I am so tired, my mind is not a happy place. It's ripping me apart. I just need a day or two where I don't have to think, where I don't have to exist, just lie down and die for a while. Yes that's it! I want to die for a day. And I want to be loved when I die, someone to hold my hand while I die, someone to sit by my side and wait for me to wake up. I want the person I love to love me back. But he doesn't. He doesn't love me. He doesn't love me. He does not love me. But I need him so that I can die peacefully. For a day.

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solitudeinmyself

I miss you. I miss our talks. I miss the way you smiled at me when I say something corny. I miss hearing about your day. I even miss the arguments we get in because us communicating through it showed how much we were willing to fight to be together. I know you need to make yourself happy, I know you want independence and time to be you by yourself. And I refuse to ever come in the way of you loving yourself! I just hope you know that I will be here when you’re ready. You haven’t lost me. You could never lose me.

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lil-reminders

just a reminder that you do not need to be with someone in order to have value. valentine’s day can be hard for so many reasons. it’s okay not to celebrate. (it’s also okay to celebrate if you’re single. you get to decide, not your relationship status).

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I miss him. And there’s nothing I can do about it unless he does something. I just keep waiting and waiting for him to do something. But everyday, there’s nothing. I miss him with all my heart. He’s all I think about. He’s the only person who can make me daydream with just the thought of him. He’s the only one in my eyes. So what do I do? How do I heal? How do I move on and forget about him?

c / nothing

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soulmvtes

i do this thing where if i'm not feeling good or if something happens i don't let myself feel it like i know that everything happens for a reason and that things will be okay again so i just brush it off but i need to stop doing this and let myself feel everything

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The thought of him loving someone else. The thought of him falling in love, of finding a fortress in some other person. The thought of that person getting everything I ever wanted. Loving the only person I ever wanted to love. Getting the chances I’ll never be able to take. Every time I think of him I think of these. And I think of him everyday. I just get this sinking feeling now. And life seems like it’s going nowhere, it seems like it’ll be nothing without him. Like I’ll live the rest of my life wondering, looking for him, feeling like I’m missing something. Like I’ll never be fully, truly happy. Every time I think of him these thoughts kill me, and a part of me dies along with them.

c / how many times can you die inside?