Hello Again, Lovelies...
I know, I just can’t seem to stay away...
A few days ago I received an email from a submission on this account that someone had taken Sinners and was adding to it on Wattpad. Needless to say my initial reaction was to be absolutely furious, it took @completedylantrash and I THREE YEARS to finish it, and someone took it without permission and was adding onto it.
I know writing is a fandom is a tricky thing... fanfiction in general is taking something that someone else created and adding more to it. Fanfiction makes no money, we do not make it onto the NY Best Seller List (unless you completely change it into something brand new), we are ultimately causing no harm to those who ARE making money off of it. Taking someone else’s fanfiction and then creating you own additions to it just feels... I almost can’t explain what it feels like. We spent hours writing Sinners (and all my other fics), hours when I had no friends and was rebuilding a relationship with my family. Hours where I sat on my lunch break scribbling in a notebook because being a made up character felt better than being me. I spent those hours writing to make up for all the shitty dates I went on, every hook up that ended with me being ignored and feeling useless and pathetic and turning them into something else. 2016-2017 was the height of my popularity with a new fic coming out almost every couple of days because it was all I had to keep me from falling apart.
Very few people know this, but when I decided to no longer be active on my blog was because I found myself in a healthy relationship and fell in love. I am getting married in October. I have come a very long way from who I was. With that being said, every stolen piece of writing (even those with the best intentions) and despite being given credit... are the hurt and shredded pieces of my past self. Every word, every line, is a kernel of someone that I was and will always be. While my stories are favorites of many, whether for fun or because they too need a chance to slip into someone else for a few thousand words, they should not ever be distributed by anyone that isn't me.
With that being said, I am not deleting my stories. I might even start writing some other things on here. I recognize now that I can do both. I can be happy & healed AND I can create things on this blog and other places. So, I am going to fix my master list and I am going to create a compilation on Wattpad. Since that’s where my stolen stories end up, I think it’s time to finally put them there myself.
My messages are always open. I do not believe in holding onto resentments. I’m looking forward to rebuilding on friendships and creating new ones.