Reblogged geckosquid
cute!!!!
Anonymous asked:
you are a misogynistic retard
I'm in a good mood and a cute bear i met online (who sadly lives a million miles away) on valentines day asked me to be his valentine after an hour of talking.
So honestly i really couldnt care less about a coward like yourself.
seriously you can make an anonymous blog devoted to sending hate mail to people and you still are so cowardly that you go on anon to send hate mail!
Conflicted
A friend of mine sent me a message last night that more and more he's pulling away from social media, and its left me feeling conflicted.
On the one hand I get why he's pulling away from it. Being on social media doesnt neccesarily lead to any kind of fulfillment of social desires and can lead, and i think in his case, can lead to a feelings of alianation and isolation. As people arent always honest about themselves nor about others. Likewise Social media can be draining and distract from other things. I mean spending hours on social media sites means you cant use that time and energy for other things you might enjoy more. Besides his last online relationship didnt exactly end well (though they did end up on good terms) and i can imagine that the possibilitry of coming accross old referrences to it might be awkward and painfull especially if some people still think badly of him because of it, and he might bump into those online. (as the king of being blocked i know those feelings all to well).
On the other hand its pretty much a given that it will end our friendship, simply because we dont live in the same country and because neither of us are exactly the best emailers or phone users.
So yeah... just had to get this off my chest
Every so often ill come across a blog run by someone i used to know.
And ill remember the hostility that caused the relationship to break.
But not the actual cause.
Its tempting to try to contact them.
Hell sometimes i try to.
Mostly out of curiousity.
Sometimes out of a desire to rebuild a bridge.
Most times im succesfull.
Time heals most wounds.
But some times im not.
And im left wondering.
What happened so many moons ago?
Sometimes ill see an old post from some blogger who im no longer friends with or who i used to hate, from the time when we did have that kind of relationship. and for the briefest moment it will all come back to me. And then subside and ill remember why the relationship changed.
Most times that be it. But sometimes ill feel regret and wish things had gone differently
Its an odd feeling looking at back at old posts from years ago.
I was just as intense as i am today, perhaps more so. But it was unfocused. More erratic, more wild. More like granade than a sword.
I was dumber and really had no clue what i was talking about.
I was more agressive and more disconnected. Whoever i was arguing with didnt really matter. What mattered was the thrill of the argument. It waa sadly more like a game to me back then.
But looking at my interactions with omega bellum, its palpable how lonely I was, and how creepy I could be. The fact that we're now genuine friends who talk almost every day is nothing short of a miracle.
Then again its also a miracle that I have any friends on this site at all given how many ive alianated. Though admittedly its really hard to alianate someone like @knightoflodis who absolutely deserves every good thing on earth.
Then again maybe it isnt a miracle considering how many former "friends" (political allies) became acephobic, transphobic, homophobic, antisemitic, misandrist, misogynist, against whatever is popular to be against, or just gave up trying not to be a manipulative fuckwit. And its more a miracle that anyone would want to be near any of em.