You held me there, up high
You loved me, and you held me high
I laughed and giggled to the sky
and you were always there
beneath me, holding me up high
You cared for me, you loved me, deeply
filled my soul and heart completely
you were my light, my sun, my stars
you held me there, up high
And all our laughs, and all our moments
held me later through the torments
though, I didn’t know this yet,
that you would let me go
No, all I knew was love, completely,
sore and tender, light and deeply
I sparkled diamond, shone like sun
my life was moments, pure and fun
I was my self, all through and hole,
I was alligned and with my soul,
you held my hand, my love for you
evolved, and shone, and grew
So there I was, confused, completely
when that day arrived, you deeply
cut our bond, your eyes were shame
and things were not the same
I started, as all children do,
to seek and look and search for you,
where had you gone? All by yourself?
Without me in your hand?
My mind would look with childrens eyes;
my favorite place, I liked to hide;
the closet with the clothes that carried smells
of you and I
but you had chosen darkest side;
betrayal, sorrow, lies.
I searched for you for many years
my heart closed down; as did my tears,
and sorrow was my signature,
my closest friend was shame
I tried to change to get you back,
from colored world, to darkest black,
I never found your eyes again,
to brimm they filled with shame
They never were the same
Until your last year came.
You left me cause your firm belief
was; heart and body carried grief
I’m not of worth, not worth to live,
to her I cannot give.
But you were wrong, you see, I know!
I know cause now I hear your love,
and now my mission is to know
that I am not alone.
Your love, it gives me ground and core
it keeps me tender, loving, sore,
for I will take the vow
to do the opposite of you
- To love myself
all through, completely
through the core of me, all deeply
I will never do, what you did
- never let me go;
No, I will hold myself up high,
I hear her giggle to the sky,
and I am always there,
beneath her,
holding her up high
I care for her, I love her, deeply
I fill her heart and soul completely
I am her light, her stars, the sun,
I hold her there up high
This was what you could never do
and now; my angel in the skies,
you hold her with me there,
between my heavy breaths and tears
you're there again, without your fears,
and you've made promise to my soul,
that you will make me whole;
you'll never leave again
and every night; a bedtime story
when we meet
in former glory
in realms that I don't see,
but where you now will be
- and where you'll wait for me.