Growing up is actually all about realizing people don’t inherently dislike you and it’s a bit odd to assume they do

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there are more tweets in this thread

fucking SLAY

this isnt even the full thread, there are even MORE tweets to this thread that i think are really necessary to read if you do what op is talking about! it is not enough to know that feeling this way hurts the people you love, we already know that.

this rest of the thread continues after the third tweet from the reblog.

like THE FULL THREAD is genuinely so reassuring.

sometimes, it is not enough to just know, sometimes you might need that reassurance of "do you really think of me when i'm away?" and someone reassuring you that yeah, they do. and evaluate that! trust that! just like op did.

and then learning that ykw, it's NOT any of my business really. and finding comfort in that trust that like. whether they are or aren't thinking of me, they really do love me.

this full thread changed my life and i am ALWAYS going to give the full thread because the parts people cut out aren't enough for the people experiencing these things, speaking as someone who does. it, really it just makes us, made me, feel bad about my own capabilities when i saw the unfinished thread.

When I was a very suicidal trans activist in Texas, Benjamin Sisko saying “sure, you would [die for your people]. Dying gets you off the hook. The question is: are you willing to live for your people?” changed and possibly saved my life. It’s up there with “if we are going to be damned, let us be damned for who we really are” from Picard. Star Trek not only shows us a better world, it teaches us how to make it there

haha yeah girldick! awesome! hey quick question how do you feel about trans women and transfems when you're not talking about fucking them or them fucking you or just using them as the buttend of your sex jokes. no don't run away internet transmasc speak into the mic boy. 🎤

if you've ever wondered why there is such an over representation of transmasculinity on the internet, especially in fandom spaces, compared to actual demographics of transgender people in real life, this is one of the fucking reasons why. i've talked to a few of my friends about this, and the consensus seems to be that transfems have to literally only interact with other transfems to avoid getting constantly either yelled at, belittled, sexualized, or a combination of all three and more. mostly BY other trans people. trans men are just as capable of misogyny and enforcing the patriarchy as cis men and i am so tired of acting like experiencing misogyny makes you exempt from being a misogynist.

I am going to be so fr I hate that certain sects of tumblr act as if like. Basic dietary facts are ableist. Like I understand sensory issues and samefoods bc I also have them but at the same time its an objective fact that like. You need your vitamins and nutrients. You need a vegetable or at least a multivitamin or something now and then and it isn't a personal attack for someone to tell you this. Like gout and scurvy and anemia are all very real

hey has tumblr.com as in like the actual website itself been running like dogshit lately. load times have been atrocious. stuff just isn't working. etc.

oh this is because tumblr was storing THREE FUCKING GIGABYTES OF SITE DATA IN MY BROWSER CACHE

FOR COMPARISON:

holy shit

hey what the fuck

im starting to think you guys dont like it when stories make you feel things

Look, there's a lot to be said about the contemporary gaming industry's preoccupation with graphics performance, but "no video game needs to run at higher than thirty frames per second" – which is something I've seen come up in a couple of recent trending posts – isn't a terribly supportable assertion.

The notion that sixty frames per second ought to be a baseline performance target isn't a modern one. Most NES games ran at sixty frames per second. This was in 1983 – we're talking about a system with two kilobytes of RAM, and even then, sixty frames per second was considered the gold standard. There's a good reason for that, too: if you go much lower, rapidly moving backgrounds start to give a lot of folks eye strain and vertigo. It's genuinely an accessibility problem.

The idea that thirty frames per second is acceptable didn't gain currency until first-generation 3D consoles like the N64, as a compromise to allow more complex character models and environments within the limited capabilities of early 3D GPUs. If you're characterising the 60fps standard as the product of studios pushing shiny graphics over good technical design, historically speaking you've got it precisely backwards: it's actually the 30fps standard that's the product of prioritising flash and spectacle over user experience.

being a fan of a friend's ocs is actually so humiliating....... like yes my favourite character rn is tragically doomed and a pillar of humanity who i think is relevant to the current world. you can find information about them on discord dot com and sometimes in late-night conversations with this guy i know. what the fuck

up late at night thinking about a guy who exists to three people. such a desire to talk about him until my lungs give out and read every scrap of fanfiction on the internet and yet there is NOTHING!!!! and i have to pretend to be NORMAL about this. "oh yes your character is cool. have you considered writing more" meanwhile the wolves in my brain are tearing and biting

I think bringing up "it/its" pronouns is a good test for people who claim to be "trans allies" because it so easily weeds out the people who are only doing it superficially. I've seen so many people who will post "Punch your local TERF #transrightsarehumanrights" and then turn around and be like "If someone says they go by 'it/its' pronouns it's actually good to misgender them because they're just teenager trenders"

you can't claim to support trans people and then qualify it with "but only the people I deem 'real' trans people"

"why can't they just be friends" not in the homophobic way but in the "their platonic relationship in the source material is far more dynamic and complex than the sanitized personalities they gain as a result of shipping" way

"why can't they just be friends" not in the homophobic way but in the "this is a valuable exploration of intimacy and vulnerability that we’re conditioned to recognize only in romantic relationships but that can exist platonically as well" way

it is easy to see back n forths about transmisogynist discourse as some online thing that doesn’t matter irl but the kinds of rhetoric ppl use to coordinate ‘call outs’ against tma ppl online are the same as that which they use to isolate tma ppl irl. online is actually still real it’s just different and this has real effects on many of us

also hate to be the one to say this but online is a real place and the things that happen to real people there actually matter. If you get kicked out of housing because your housemates saw a post they didn't like about you, how are you supposed to "just turn off the computer" about that shit. If you lose a job, if your fundraising dries up and you run out of food. How are you supposed to "just turn off the computer" about any of that. Like, the stakes are way higher for a lot of people than anyone outside of the culture actually realizes

i dont like the idea that kids these days are doing their fandom rps with ai chatbots. that's how you're supposed to make lifelong friends as a weird really online teen.

it's because forums are dead. tumblrs become too janky to easily find communities and many are abandoned, twitter isn't very intuitive for it, we don't have mailing lists, facebook doesn't really let you make character accounts anymore, and all the old "omegle but for role play" type websites died out ages ago. toy house exists, sure, but can be hard to get into and in my opinion is more oriented towards displaying art and designs rather than writing.

these days there just isn't space to meet other online rpers and connect like there used to be. back in the day you could go to gaia, neopets, any number of pro boards and other custom forums, you could meet people in chat rooms, there were websites dedicated to rp matchmaking and ads, email lists and circles and "guilds", tumblr communities, just unlimited networking options.

these days if you don't have an established network your options are:

-reach out on mainstream social media (high risk of no one finding your profile, high risk of regular accounts finding your profile and being rude about it)

-join an MMORPG, LARP, or tabletop (not the same imo)

-get really into solo writing

-use the janky AI out of desperation

it sucks pretty bad but i feel like the best way to tackle the issue isn't "ugh why do people use these awful bots" so much as "hey where the fuck DID all the role play networking websites go"

it's the same energy as when people started wondering why kids don't go outside anymore after they were banned from the malls

Use RPG Directory for finding roleplaying forums. No established network necessary and there are dedicated fandom sections.

"I cant draw" then do it bad who gives a fuck.....

Partake in the joy of creation just for the fun of it. Just for a laff.

Me @everyone in the notes

some blogs i follow for fan content but others i am 100% just there for the person so when theyre like oh sorry for turning into a so-and-so blog im like. i would watch you liveblog the phonebook.

(I bring a sort of “Everyone has inherent worth regardless of their productivity” Vibe to every conversation that ableists don’t really seem to like)