eira. so i came here and this was one of the first things i see in my inbox. i’m not sure if this is for my muse or for me, but either way, i do apologize for seeming to be quite busy lately. i am hurt that i can’t or haven’t been able to be around here on tumblr that much to roleplay despite how much of a muse i can have at times.work has been a pain (constantly having new employees that don’t know what they’re doing nor wish to listen or even bother doing it right, and managers that come and go and also like to be bitchy at times and make me bust off my ass more than what i have been doing and still get nothing in return, not even a simple compliment or anything).i have been trying to get my life worked out; meaning trying to find a new job. i have been wanting to move out for a while so i am finally going to make it a reality, which means going through my stuff and either selling it off or throwing it out, all while saving money and trying to figure out other things that might be beneficial to me in the future. overall, i have been exhausted and mostly in pain. sadly work is a huge factor right now and i have also been focusing on making sure to keep an eye on my tendinitis in my ankles so i don’t end up with broken tendons (my insurance only pays for so much and to be honest, getting hurt at work is almost my best bet in going at this point). other than that, i would get home from a long night from a graveyard shift, pass out only to wake up and repeat the process. sadly this means that my motivation to interact as much, especially to initiate the conversation goes down by a lot because of how introverted i am. again, i do apologize for seeming to be so busy as of late and i do hope that i will return someday if you guys will have me. ;;

     “Well, good evening, Atem. It’s good to see you again.” He gives the monarch a light peck on the cheek.

     “I had to grow up faster than when I was suppose to. My father was always away and my mother had grown ill when I was younger. Though she was capable of doing some things, I stepped up and did my best to help her around the house. I even promised that I would take great care of Amane from the moment she was born. That promise... meant so much to me as it had meant that my mother would be more at ease. So...” A sigh, turning away. “... do I really have to explain the rest...?”

     He flinched from the comment, brow twitching. “Then if that possibility is true, then I will still feel like I failed to let her have a good life. I wouldn’t want her to go through the shit that I went through. Don’t you ever think that. I would do anything to let her have all the happiness that she deserves, even if that meant sacrificing my life just to take away any negativity from her. Do not think that I haven’t thought about the possibility if our roles were switched if she would have to deal with the Millennium Ring or not. Just...” That was when he stopped himself, avoiding from becoming annoyed.     “Just leave me alone...”

     “Perhaps, but...” there was a brief pause to let out a heavy sigh, shaking his head while focusing his mind on his response. “I failed to protect her as an older brother. She could have still be here, living and breathing, and more importantly, enjoying her life herself... Believe me when I say that I want to live out my life the best I can for us, but it’s hard when I can still think that she could have had a good life if it weren’t for me...”

     “A spirit is... not quite the same... not when you’re comparing to bringing back to life within a body. If I wish for her to return as a spirit, let alone get into contact with her as a spirit, then no... it wouldn’t be impossible. But to bring her back to life in the flesh... No.”

     “That... is impossible.” Was it? “I... I couldn’t do that... that isn’t natural... No matter... No matter how much I would want to bring her back...” Despite his words, deep down he wondered if it could actually be possible. Anything to give his little sister her life that she deserves.