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Everything's Not How It Seems

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"i'll be dead but never dying, and i say that with a smile. it's just my way of trying to be alive. well, i'll never get to grey hair, and i'll never be in the black, but i can tell stories that most can hardly dream. dreaming is a luxury, like stopping-staring and beauty sleep. i'll stop when i'm finished; and sleep is for the weak."
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Anonymous asked:

i will choose to love you everytime. even if we are just some fucked up kids in this city. i feel calm beside you, and i want to feel like that forever. but you can never read this, and only time, not me, can heal your wounds from the past. but i can't wait to see you again. and it broke my heart to see you getting all hopeless lonely here. i'm not just in that position to help you yet. and sometimes i think about you may disappear and i'll eat up my loneliness again. and i hope it won't happen.

Go on/off anon and pretend we’re the person you want to talk to, and get everything off your chest.

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astrosoeur

paul valéry for the signs

Aries: “Power without abuse loses its charm.”  Taurus: “The definition of beauty is what despairs.“ Gemini: “That which has always been accepted by everyone, everywhere, is almost certain to be false.” Cancer: “The universe is a flaw in the purity of non-being.”  Leo: “What soul would hesitate to turn the universe upside down in order to be a little more itself?” Virgo: “Politeness is organized indifference.”  Libra: “My soul is nothing now but the dream dreamt by matter struggling with itself!” Scorpio: “To enter into your own mind you need to be armed to the teeth.” Sagittarius: “As for the world, all reality has no other excuse for existence except to offer the poet the chance to play a sublime match against it – a match that is list in advance.” Capricorn: “Consciousness reigns, but does not rule.” Aquarius: “Our most important thoughts are those that contradict our emotions.” Pisces: “Follow the path of your aroused thought, and you will soon meet this infernal inscription: There is nothing so beautiful as that which does not exist.” 

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today on “i am a petty ass bitch”:

a g uy i super liked and was dating for the last month broke up with me because i’m basically “too mentally unstable right now” - when nothing about me has changed since we first started talking when he told me that he wanted to be there for me and that my struggles did not define me and he was okay with us being in a relationship

anyway i got wasted and crashed at indigo’s house last night to cope and then tonight this guy is continuing to text me

and i keep sending him back :D and excessive exclamation points like a bitter ass bitch

 "how are you" 

 "great! :D" 

 "how was work?" 

 "it was good!! :D" 

 "whatcha up to?" 

 "just gettin ready for bed haha!! :D"

boy wants me to not have mental illness or be open about it then by god i’m gonna be as fake ass happy as i can be til he realises 

he doesn’t need to know i’m back in a suicidal place and binge drinking because i was actually happy for once and he tore it away! he clearly does not want to know that! so he’ll get the exaggerated bullshit!

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