happy 2019! try new things. haunt people. befriend the monster under your bed. be the cryptid you’re destined to be. make it your best year yet.
fuck people, fuck the holidays, and fuck everything right now
i will choose to love you everytime. even if we are just some fucked up kids in this city. i feel calm beside you, and i want to feel like that forever. but you can never read this, and only time, not me, can heal your wounds from the past. but i can't wait to see you again. and it broke my heart to see you getting all hopeless lonely here. i'm not just in that position to help you yet. and sometimes i think about you may disappear and i'll eat up my loneliness again. and i hope it won't happen.
Go on/off anon and pretend we’re the person you want to talk to, and get everything off your chest.
mmkay rb for an archive mb (tag your aes tag in case you arent an aes blog)
come celebrate with me that everyday something has tried to kill me and has failed
— Lucille Clifton, from The Book of Light
concept:
it’s raining super hard outside, and i’m spending the night at your place. it’s dark in your apartment and we lay there together, cuddling, wrapped in blankets. i can’t sleep, but i find myself at peace listening to the rain and your heart beats.
- An extract from ‘Love has another three letter name’, by Mhari Grace ( @graciepoetry )
paul valéry for the signs
Aries: “Power without abuse loses its charm.” Taurus: “The definition of beauty is what despairs.“ Gemini: “That which has always been accepted by everyone, everywhere, is almost certain to be false.” Cancer: “The universe is a flaw in the purity of non-being.” Leo: “What soul would hesitate to turn the universe upside down in order to be a little more itself?” Virgo: “Politeness is organized indifference.” Libra: “My soul is nothing now but the dream dreamt by matter struggling with itself!” Scorpio: “To enter into your own mind you need to be armed to the teeth.” Sagittarius: “As for the world, all reality has no other excuse for existence except to offer the poet the chance to play a sublime match against it – a match that is list in advance.” Capricorn: “Consciousness reigns, but does not rule.” Aquarius: “Our most important thoughts are those that contradict our emotions.” Pisces: “Follow the path of your aroused thought, and you will soon meet this infernal inscription: There is nothing so beautiful as that which does not exist.”
today on “i am a petty ass bitch”:
a g uy i super liked and was dating for the last month broke up with me because i’m basically “too mentally unstable right now” - when nothing about me has changed since we first started talking when he told me that he wanted to be there for me and that my struggles did not define me and he was okay with us being in a relationship
anyway i got wasted and crashed at indigo’s house last night to cope and then tonight this guy is continuing to text me
and i keep sending him back :D and excessive exclamation points like a bitter ass bitch
"how are you"
"great! :D"
"how was work?"
"it was good!! :D"
"whatcha up to?"
"just gettin ready for bed haha!! :D"
boy wants me to not have mental illness or be open about it then by god i’m gonna be as fake ass happy as i can be til he realises
he doesn’t need to know i’m back in a suicidal place and binge drinking because i was actually happy for once and he tore it away! he clearly does not want to know that! so he’ll get the exaggerated bullshit!
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bc I’m curious and people always get hate anons for the dumbest stuff rb this and tag the pettiest thing you’ve ever gotten anon hate for