As a kid i would imagine my future self studying in domed buildings, surrounded by oceans of books and inked words.

Study time!

I’ve got a week off from school and exams starting in three weeks time. Time to start revising and studying everything.

01.02.19 | Working hard 📑 Yay, I’m so happy to say that I’ve passed all the exams that I have taken so far with really good marks and there is only one left! 🙌🏻 Unfortunately I think that it’s probably going to be the most demanding one since it’s in immunology which my brain doesn’t seem to like to study… But hey, I’m not going to give up now. I can do this and so can you (whatever you’re studying at the moment)! 📚 Keep going! 🌟 zuzia

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The main reading room of the Czech National Library is probably one of my favourite places in the world ♡

“I study, I think about studying, then I study some more.” — Paris Geller

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20.04. Enjoying the uncommon calm of my favorite study space since everyone else seems to be outside enjoying the weather instead. 😔 But I need to get some shit done. (At least the desks around here have grass prints 🌱)

Destroy the idea that you have to be constantly working or grinding in order to be successful. Embrace the concept that rest, recovery, and reflection are essential parts of the progress towards a successful and ultimately happy life.

*a happy and thus ultimately successful

Remember : your productivity doesn’t define your worth. 

mornings.

01/03/18

I’m sorry guys - I’ve been neglecting my Tumblr account a lot recently and concentrating a lot more on my Insta (so ya’ll should go find me out there 🤗) • But anyways, today was my absolute favourite kind of day - a snow day! So it’s been half productive and half relaxing hehe ❄️❄️ • • Writing up these notes took me back to the end of last year. Where so many of these symptoms were my daily AND only companions. They do still come back to haunt me from time to time, buut I’m now much better equipped to deal with their company. And that’s through the support and understanding of those around me. ❤️

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So - if you’re struggling through a mental health issue at the minute just know you don’t need to struggle on in silence like so many of us are guilty of. It’s okay to be weak and let your guard down sometimes. ✨

My workspace whilst I stay at my grandparents’ – I’m mostly just birdwatching and reading and drinking my grandad’s homemade wine and it’s lovely

things you need to hear this exam season

- don’t beat yourself up for struggling even if you’re doing your best - you are smart and capable so don’t let laziness stop you from achieving your potential - stop self sabotaging. that tv show can wait. take a break but don’t become your own obstacle to success. get shit done first - eating right, staying hydrated and sleeping well are non-negotiable. look after yourself - grades do not define you so be kind to yourself. but do your best and work hard for what you want

it’s that time of year again

3.18.18 Moving In A Forward Direction 

My weekend was interesting. I spent all of last week inside of my head reliving some painful experiences. I didn’t go to class, and I nonchalantly walked into work late every day - silently wishing I’d get fired. But I’m still stressed-out-painfully-organized me, so by late I mean I walked in three minutes late silently pleading to be challenged even though I knew nothing was going to happen. And nothing did, for an entire week. There were a few people I wanted to call, to cry to, but I couldn’t. It’s unfair to reach out to some, and unrealistic to reach out to others, and what’s left are people too far away to actually feel comfortable confiding in. So, I was alone and inside my head accomplishing nothing in silence. 

The one thing I did do was drag myself up to the gym to workout with Anthony. I needed to be doing something because living on chocolate Oreos is definitely not the path to ultimate health. I made myself sore all over so that I wouldn’t feel as pitiful on the inside. 

On Friday I conducted my editorial meetings with the writers I’m working with for Forbes & Fifth this semester. The meetings went really well, and for one of them, it was more of a brainstorming session to help inspire the writer. I felt in my element and we were able to figure out a solution for some of the content issues in his lyric essay. After the meetings, I went to my favorite cafe. Sometimes I like going to Big Dog because even though it’s two feet away from campus, once I’m inside I feel far away from Pitt and from my life. I get to be this student who does work, a writer who drinks lattes while mastering the plot of her novel, a girl making eyes at other girls. This week I was a girl who did not recently realize she’s been struggling with PTSD for a few years now, and those were the most productive hours of my week. 

After the cafe, one of my friends came over. She’s someone whose company I enjoy a lot, but not someone I consider a close or best friend. She’s the perfect distance to be someone to confide in the hard truths that I’m not ready to have permeated my life. So I told her everything. Actually, I wrote it on a piece of paper that I tore up after she read and then she made us go on a walk to a field where she pushed me to tell her everything. For the first time, I recounted all of the details of my assault. I laughed nervously until my shaking body shook with sobs. It was the worst pain but a great feeling. 

On Saturday we studied together, and being around her was nice because now she knows the truth. We did homework for seven hours, said our goodbyes, and then I went to Anthony’s 21st birthday party (his incredibly late 21st birthday party). It was fun.

[11.February.2018 - Gloomy mornings in the library]

Thank you all for your kind words yesterday! I am feeling a bit better today~

I am currently in the library studying for my last final on Friday. [Advanced criminal law].

I hope you have a wonderful Sunday!

Working at the art museum cafe this morning! Typing up my notes from a webinar. Happy Sunday ☀️

Listening to: Florence + the Machine