I think like I'm going to end up making being bullish about confronting the blatant and popular bigotry and objectifying double standards that people have around nonmonogamy my next big social issue to start shit about, I'm not kidding. And honestly I think you should too when posts like this get 50k likes.

"It's a joke" except it's also like. Clearly not a joke. The joke is she's being honest.

I can't even be snarky about this, I'm too tired, it's just. People are just so fucking mean by default and they truly do not give a shit about it unless it could result in social consequences.

I think like I'm going to end up making being bullish about confronting the blatant and popular bigotry and objectifying double standards that people have around nonmonogamy my next big social issue to start shit about, I'm not kidding. And honestly I think you should too when posts like this get 50k likes.

"It's a joke" except it's also like. Clearly not a joke. The joke is she's being honest.

That neurodivergent feel when you are ordering food/going to a restaurant and you are like "hmm what shall I order today" but then every time you wind up getting exactly the same thing you ordered last time.

Not because you are dedicated to sticking to the same food mind, but because you are optimizing for the same criteria as before ("tastes nice") and after running that procedure through their menu you realized that you've come out to the exact same result as last time and so you never end up eating anything different, lmao.

"Why not just have something different then" but then I would be having something that. Tastes less optimally nice why would I do that

personally, I like to stay open to optimizing for taste over multiple meals. if I feel confident that one thing is the most appealing and that I'm not at risk of getting tired of it, I'll stick with that. but if there's other things that sound like they have a lot of potential, I'll often try one of the others to see how it is, because that offers knowledge that can contribute to later enjoyment. and sating that curiosity is an appeal in itself!

I have a Master's in Machine Intelligence so really I should have been better prepared for this situation, huh

The stereotype of tumblr being like "I am personally offended by this offhand comment you made in your personal blog, explain why your words did not hit right for me immediately" feels like silly 2014 online culture war nonsense but sometimes it is just so real.

Anyway if anyone seriously thought that I was seriously equating being a Homestuck fan to being in a repressive cult (despite the fact that the point I was making is that it's not like that, just that it helps me understand the power of a feeling of community and in-group/out-group better) then I'm sorry but you're dense as a stack of bricks.

But it shouldn't even matter. I wasn't writing an essay there, that was a personal blog where I was reminiscing about my childhood and relating my feelings, not an attempt at discourse or content. This should be obvious. Stay in your lane please I have so little patience for this shit these days honestly.

The stereotype of tumblr being like "I am personally offended by this offhand comment you made in your personal blog, explain why your words did not hit right for me immediately" feels like silly 2014 online culture war nonsense but sometimes it is just so real.

Man I miss the old Homestuck days so much. Closest I've ever felt to really belonging to something bigger than me, a unified purpose and community and identity and I guess cause even, centered around something I found uniquely compelling and important, even if only because I was a teenager and as such could trick myself into believing it was really that important.

Closest I've ever felt to what it must be like to be in a cult, the hidden recognition of other fans holding something in common in comparison to the outside world, the culture of special outfits and symbols (horns, God Tier cosplay), I used to wear my old sign of the signless under my clothes as a hidden marker of allegiance, lol. And if that's what being in a cult feels like even 5% I see why people go for that, it fucking ruled.

Annoying to realise that the reason I've never found anything that hit the same is not because I can't find equivalently compelling works of art (albeit nothing will ever quite be Homestuck in style), but because I have grown to a point where it would be considerably harder to give me the feeling of being a teenager joining my first subculture.

Being trans is a bit like that I guess but it also fucking sucks because the news is always so bad and people randomly hate us. Being into the kink scene is also a bit like that, but it's spoons-draining enough that it can't be an always-on thing.

Often I'll go back and listen to Homestuck music and I'll get a ghost of that old feeling inside of me and I'll honestly ache for it so much. Homesick for something that no longer exists for me in the same way, rip.

Forget your friends what good are they,

Suckers filled with words that chide,

Heads green with envy, and orange with pride,

Screaming at that pumpkin tide.

Listen to the whispering voice,

The currents where the pumpkins roam,

You never saw a thing, never saw the thing you think you saw,

Just shadows looking for a home.

The door into your heart is locked,

It's gun is buried in your mind;

Too heavy to carry, but too huge to leave behind,

Without it you would surely die.

But even that's just another lie,

Sailing on the pumpkin tide.

Man I miss the old Homestuck days so much. Closest I've ever felt to really belonging to something bigger than me, a unified purpose and community and identity and I guess cause even, centered around something I found uniquely compelling and important, even if only because I was a teenager and as such could trick myself into believing it was really that important.

Closest I've ever felt to what it must be like to be in a cult, the hidden recognition of other fans holding something in common in comparison to the outside world, the culture of special outfits and symbols (horns, God Tier cosplay), I used to wear my old sign of the signless under my clothes as a hidden marker of allegiance, lol. And if that's what being in a cult feels like even 5% I see why people go for that, it fucking ruled.

Annoying to realise that the reason I've never found anything that hit the same is not because I can't find equivalently compelling works of art (albeit nothing will ever quite be Homestuck in style), but because I have grown to a point where it would be considerably harder to give me the feeling of being a teenager joining my first subculture.

Being trans is a bit like that I guess but it also fucking sucks because the news is always so bad and people randomly hate us. Being into the kink scene is also a bit like that, but it's spoons-draining enough that it can't be an always-on thing.

Often I'll go back and listen to Homestuck music and I'll get a ghost of that old feeling inside of me and I'll honestly ache for it so much. Homesick for something that no longer exists for me in the same way, rip.

Man I miss the old Homestuck days so much. Closest I've ever felt to really belonging to something bigger than me, a unified purpose and community and identity and I guess cause even, centered around something I found uniquely compelling and important, even if only because I was a teenager and as such could trick myself into believing it was really that important.

Closest I've ever felt to what it must be like to be in a cult, the hidden recognition of other fans holding something in common in comparison to the outside world, the culture of special outfits and symbols (horns, God Tier cosplay), I used to wear my old sign of the signless under my clothes as a hidden marker of allegiance, lol. And if that's what being in a cult feels like even 5% I see why people go for that, it fucking ruled.

Annoying to realise that the reason I've never found anything that hit the same is not because I can't find equivalently compelling works of art (albeit nothing will ever quite be Homestuck in style), but because I have grown to a point where it would be considerably harder to give me the feeling of being a teenager joining my first subculture.

Being trans is a bit like that I guess but it also fucking sucks because the news is always so bad and people randomly hate us. Being into the kink scene is also a bit like that, but it's spoons-draining enough that it can't be an always-on thing.

That neurodivergent feel when you are ordering food/going to a restaurant and you are like "hmm what shall I order today" but then every time you wind up getting exactly the same thing you ordered last time.

Not because you are dedicated to sticking to the same food mind, but because you are optimizing for the same criteria as before ("tastes nice") and after running that procedure through their menu you realized that you've come out to the exact same result as last time and so you never end up eating anything different, lmao.

"Why not just have something different then" but then I would be having something that. Tastes less optimally nice why would I do that

Because variety is a pleasure of its own!

That's also why you try things you know you're not going to like. (And then sometimes I'm surprised! The spicy negroni variant I had on Saturday was pretty good even though I hate both spicy drinks and negronis. I still don't understand how that worked.)

In the spirit of this today I deliberately changed my criteria slightly and had a different sandwich than usual, despite my misgivings that it's maybe not the most optimal sandwich overall, but maybe the variety will give it the edge :P