Its hard for me to relate.

People just want to retaliate.

I trade love for hate.

So I retract to escape.

I want a different fate.

#mood

The most tragic of them all..

The love story one has with oneself is the most tragic of them all, we spend our whole lives trying to be good enough for ourselves, chasing the love for ourselves, and just as we believe it is in arms reach, it fades into the distance. Staying just over the horizon of tangibility, but like the moon and the sun, we only exist as a reflection of the other, we coexist, never being fully accessible to each other. So we spend our existence admiring our true self, our higher self, our true essence from a distance, knowing that there is no greater love than the love that exist for us just over the horizon. The love that knows every single Dark spot in our DNA, every secret, every thought, every ripple in consciousness. What a surreal experience to realize you are living out the greatest, yet most tragic love story in history. You come here whole, and the minute you breathe that first breath of earthly air you are separated from your true self, split in half, and forced to live just out of each other's touch. You literally only exist as a reflection of your one true love, your higher existence. And you spend your entire life trying to remember why you are here, what you came here for, your purpose..some of us awaken to our purpose, some of us don't. Some get so lost in false self that they never remember their true essence. While we have communication with our higher self, it is only with our human senses. We have to seek, connect, and remember. As well, our higher self can communicate with us, we are given signs, commands, guidance, etc..every day, but we are also given free will, and our higher self will likewise communicate with us using mostly only our natural human senses, we are an extension of our true self, and it is us who must seek, connect, and remember. Sometimes, when we lose things..they tend to be right in front of our face. Our whole lives are a mirror, our purpose is to be a reflection of your truest love without becoming tangible to the other, for the moment you do..your purpose is fulfilled.

So. Do it already. Get off your ass, out of your feelings, and into your goals. Hypothetically speaking, what if every move you made had to have a plan in place? Bet you will execute that plan to eat, or sleep, or breathe. So. Do it. Breathe, and do it already.

Think about it, but not for too long

Does anyone still fit in their clothes from high school? What about Jr high? Anyone? Ok..Surely at least one person fits like a glove into their kindergarten T-shirt. No? Well even though you may not fit in all your clothes from the last 35 years, I'm willing to bet you still have them. I'm even more sure that you have already purchased your future wardrobe as well. You have the next 35 years worth of clothes hanging there, too! You know..so you can vision what you will look like when you're older. I have no doubt you are filtering through 70+ years worth of clothes everyday until you find something for your present stage of life. Now it all makes sense. No wonder were late everyday. For everything. Especially for the present moment. The present moment. Do we ever get to the present moment? Do we ever make it out of the past, and do we constantly have our nose in the future. Are we tottering between "if I had only" and "what if I can't" I would say 99% of our thoughts are dedicated to things outside the present moment. Situations to avoid, or embrace. Regrets about a situation. Fear about a situation. Nostalgia. Excitement about something upcoming. "Memories" we share on fb. Reminiscent. Sharing stories about our experiences. Writing. Singing. Looking through photos. Shopping. Going to school. Financing a car. The things we inadvertently do to stay out of the present moment are endless. Everything we are accustomed to is saying "think, think, think" and the problem here is while yes, we were given free will(our mind; thoughts) we were meant to operate here in love (our heart; feelings). We are built in the image of God, who is love, but we are operating in the image of Satan, who is fear. The present moment is hard to grasp, because as soon as it's there, it's simultaneously gone. The second our thoughts start, we are stuck in the past, or the future. I went to high school. I went to college. The amount of reading and researching I have done would probably shock most people, but everything I know to be true..all of my true knowledge came from not thinking, every bit of my wisdom came from the present moment. People only grow when they are sleeping. My brain only grows when I turn it off. Back to my first question. Who all has 70+ years worth of clothes hanging in your closets? If you answered "well not me, I only have the ones that I wear now"... Now, like in the present. Nobody is keeping up with 70+ years worth of clothes. Your mind grows too, don't make it hold on to 70+ years worth of thoughts. That's alot of work. Stay present.