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@niwamura-eiji / niwamura-eiji.tumblr.com

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I study LGBTQ history, media, & culture in Japan. I really love talking about TV & film production. If I were to ever direct a live-action Banana Fish series, it would be shot on 35mm film and filled with cheesy 80s love songs.
日本語 OKです！でも、ぼくの日本語は上手じゃないです。。。ごめんなさい。(；ω；)
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There are some things I want to address with how I used to form my posts and the kinds of topics I chose to talk (let’s be honest— rant) about.

Looking back even as recently as a year ago, I’m ashamed at how hostile, angry, and childish I was. I let a lot of very deep insecurities affect how I perceived others. I felt like nearly everything that was different from my own experience was an attack on my own marginalized identity.

I’m very worried that I have hurt people with my harsh words and negative attitude. I already know that I caused pain to at least one person I interacted with because I didn’t choose my words carefully and only thought of myself.

I want to talk about all of this some more when I’m able to gather my thoughts more effectively.

Things are very scary in the world for us right now. For our whole community. To EVERYONE in the LGBTQ community, please stay safe and take care of yourselves. I want you to know that I’m doing everything I can to create a safe place here at least.

#piyo piyo
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lastoneout

friendly reminder for the new twitter refugees:

  • change your icon/pfp and put something coherent in your blog description or you're going to get blocked bcs people think you're a bot
  • this site is built around reblogs, so please actually reblog posts(especially art and fics!!)
  • you can set your likes and follows to private
  • checkmarks here are a meme and mean nothing
  • follower counts are private and we like it that way, so get used to not judging people by that metric
  • drama and discourse is boring, use your blacklist and block button liberally
  • DON'T CENSOR YOURSELF!! we can swear and say kill and make fun of corporations all we want, and if you tiktok-ify your tags people who have things blacklisted for whatever reason will still see them, and people who want to see that content won't be able to find it!! spell words out normally, you won't get in trouble!!
  • tumblr live is sketchy as hell and full of fake accounts, if you decide to use it anyway may god have mercy on your soul o7
  • be nice to the reddit refugees, they're our friends <3
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I feel like Banana Fish was so impactful for me because of the deeply transcendent nature of Ash and Eiji’s relationship. I can’t speak for wlw, but for many mlm I feel that we experience a similar sort of “this guy is my brother, my best friend, and also my lover.”

It’s that idea that someone can fill so many roles at one time. Romance for me was never about dating and courtship, but having this person you have an indescribable closeness with. I think there’s also a sense of brotherhood or camaraderie in many mlm relationships due to shared experiences. Obviously I can’t speak for the whole community, but that’s how I’ve always felt.

#banana fish#asheiji#piyo piyo
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HEADS UP, the Banana Fish Official Character & Setting Reference Book is now available for US purchase through Kinokuniya!

I bought this book when it originally came out in Japan and it’s honestly one of my favorite parts of my collection. It’s also an amazing asset for fan writers and artists.

Disclaimer: As far as I know, this book is still in Japanese and I don’t think there are any plans to release any translated versions, but it’s very art-heavy so it’s a cool book to look at even if you don’t know Japanese.

#banana fish#ash lynx#eiji okumura#shorter wong#sing soo ling#lee yut lung#asheiji#piyo piyo
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If someone were wonder what insanity is, they would just need to paint satin sashes

I also got a job, lol

I present to you, God Pleasing Crown Prince, Xie Lian (WORK IN PROGRESS)

I found an image off of Tumblr that I've been using as a heavy reference, so I will try finding it and tagging in the finished product!

@niwamura-eiji dw I'm still alive and working on a bunch of things

#!!!#holy shit!!!#your PROGRESS#I am ASTOUNDED#this is incredible#your art has always been incredible but just being able to see how much you’re progressing is awesome#this is so beautiful keep it up!!!!#heaven official's blessing#tgcf
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niwamura-eiji

y'all can feminine men EXIST and be men like please i'm fucking begging you, i'm so tired of being irl misgendered because y'all have created a culture where any man who deviates from extreme masculinity must not be a man

i see this projected onto fictional men who have more effeminate features and you guys can have your headcanons and i understand the desire for representation, but it still feels super shitty that any time a feminine male character that gnc men can relate to gets revealed, he's automatically ... not a man to you people

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niwamura-eiji

I wanted to add, I’ve now seen this projected onto real, living Japanese men who prefer to dress in an androgynous way while still identifying as men, and honestly I’m not surprised but I am super irritated

I’ve seen Westerners insinuate that these men “aren’t progressive enough” because they don’t identify as agender or non-binary and they’re “just men” and I don’t think people really grasp how fucking pervasive gender stereotypes are in Japan and how much it negatively impacts people and how important and brave it is for these men to do what they’re doing

​I’m sorry if this comes off aggressively, I’m just so, so tired. I’m tired of the real-life problems and struggles I have because of these ideas, from within my own community

Please learn that men/women/non-binary people can all look/act however they want without that being a deciding factor in their gender identity. I am feminine, I am a man, my femininity does not make me less of a man. Please stop assuming otherwise

#venting#piyo piyo
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moonbroth

sad to still see so many people talk about how gross signs of aging are and people aging “poorly”. those are signs of a life that has continued to live and it is a blessing. age is coming for you too btw

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veliseraptor

i think fandom could really learn from improv, specifically the “yes, and” rule. instead of “he killed people, but” why not try “he killed people, and”

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artemeis

he killed people, and he’s sexier for it

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veliseraptor

yes! you get it.

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