i’ve been deep in the trenches with panic attacks where i’m struggling even being by myself

so today i started the morning with a first therapy session, went for a walk in my pjs (my neighbors think i’m unhinged yolo), ate 2 spicy potato tacos, and now i’m deep cleaning the house. if i stay moving maybe the panic will stay away 😌

coffee, carbs, ✨citalopram✨

i started anxiety meds again and forgot how much starting them suuucks. i’m exhausted, nauseas, and have a headache

although if i’m exhausted i’m not anxious so maybe that’s the point 🤷🏼‍♀️

i forgot to snap a picture of my lunch (half a chipotle bowl) and my snack (2 servings of cadbury mini eggs, i’m addicted 😩), but this was breakfast and dinner!

i made homemade pizza dough for the first time and added some violife cheese and green pepper/onion and it was really good!

still no exercise today, but my biopsy came back negative thank goodness. i think i can start doing cardio again friday and then the internet says i can lift weights again after a week 🙌🏼

it’s been a long time since i’ve been on tumblr, and i’ve missed it! too many people i know IRL follow my fitness instagram, so i was craving a more private blog space (other than internet strangers, of course)

so i’ll be tracking my workouts/food here from now on!

i started a challenge similar to 75 hard, but i had to put it on pause since i had a biopsy done on my breast (likely completely fine, it’s just precautionary) and i can’t work out for a few days. i would like to shed the covid 15 that i put on though, so it’s time to buckle down

happy saturday!

-tonight i’m going to a halloween party with my boy, and i’m so excited!

-i’ve been sticking with eating pretty healthy and going to the gym, so i’m super proud of myself because it was a struggle in the beginning!

-my boyfriend and i did go ham on our cheat day yesterday though...whoops. krispy kreme has their halloween donuts and i just kind of blacked out, but yolo

hope you guys have a great weekend! 💕