MELIORATE

Every time you put yourself out there, despite the possibility of rejection, you validate your courage and willingness to take risks. Embrace rejection as a form of empowerment. Your journey is one of hope, not self-shame.

Context.

you go kitty

i should really make the overdue print of this one!!

Had my first appointment today for my own medical mystery. Bilateral leg numbness and drop foot during daily activity. Started with a million labs today, next stop: rheumatology.

Labs show no autoimmune markers so we’re skipping rheum - sports med next. Could be CECS or PAES.

The sensation that I have of cold water running down my left leg is very strange.

Getting ultrasounds on my legs to rule out CECS/PAES now 🙃

My ultrasound is FINALLY tomorrow (today, since it’s after midnight)!!!!

sea story; el matador beach, california

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I hate feeling like I’m not living enough. like I’m not experiencing enough

My friend explained the spoon theory to our DM and he was like “ohhh so it’s like when you’re out of spell slots and you need to take a long rest to regain them all” and now I keep thinking of myself as being out of spell slots instead of out of spoons

It’s perfect actually because taking a shower is like a 2nd level task, whereas making an important phone call is a 5th. If you’re out of 5th level task slots, you can’t do that phone call. However you can expend higher level slots to take that shower if you’ve spent your lower task slots on dishes, eating, and getting dressed.

Browsing social media is a cantrip

I actually say this all the time!

Also if you don’t finish a long rest (ie sleep well, taking your meds as directed etc) you do not regain spell slots and the next day you’re working with what you had left over from yesterday

there are also ritual spells ! where if you’re allowed enough time and a comfortable, quiet environment you might be able to accomplish something without loosing a spell slot ! 😌

I love the additions here

And there are some spells you’re never going to be able to cast, because your class doesn’t allow for it. Sure, you can maybe level up to the point where you can take a feat and learn one or two of spells - if you’re in a campaign that allows feats - but for the most part, if it’s not on your list, it’s not on your list, and that’s all there is to it. No matter how simple it seems to someone else, or how useful it would be to you.

@my-autism-adhd-blog @autisticallyadhd Spoons explained using ttrpg terminology.

Omg yess

Just happy to be here

My Neighbor Totoro | となりのトトロ (1988) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

Ponyo (2008) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

Kiki's Delivery Service (1989) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

Vladimir Mayakovsky, from a letter featured in "Love in the Heart of Everything; The Correspondence between Vladimir Mayakovsky & Lili Brik, 1915-1930,"