slay........

sometimes i think about this blog. it makes my thoughts go brr. and then i forger

anyway hi how are you how are you doin ha

ough

masha posting

project zomboid girls

dain

suzume and yuri redesigns

also you should follow my twitter, im more active there

the burden of knowing how built she is

catharsis

some cho & shi art for your enjoyment

something ive been working on for the past 2 months

its a bit loud

thank you everyone

update on personal health and other things

hi hi, niko here

as you probably noticed, this blog has become much less active, my discord server was shut down and in general the mood of the blog is slowly going down (or perhaps you didnt notice that, thats ok too)

and if im honest i am considering total withdrawal from social platforms. its really hard to keep going and continue drawing as if nothing is happening. its just hard to do what i enjoyed because it consumes so much energy that i just dont have anymore

i have been suffering from depression for a few years now, and it has been a tough and bumpy ride for me. these past 6 months however have been especially hard. it has been a long and consistant spiral downwards to the bottom, i dont have any strength to do what i loved to the point that i have to force myself, and when i do i cant bring myself to put care into my work

it isnt just about my art or music too, i guess... my headspace is in shambles, i break down and try to collect myself again but it ends up getting worse and worse. im beginning to feel that soon i will stop caring altogether and ill just be gone. its hard, really really hard to get up every day, and no matter how much i rest i still feel exhausted

a person i love very dearly has told me to seek help as soon as i can, and so i am going to do that. i dont know if ill be active, often, rarely or at all, and i dont know how long it will take me to get better. until then i dont think ill be able to work on anything

guess i just wanted to post an explanation as to why my content is dead and my discord server got closed

so yeah, until better times come i hope you guys hang on tight

(or dont, thats okay too)

ill see you all soon, hopefully. bye bye 👋

sona doodles