nights with you — honesty
you picked up the final pieces of your room as you shoved the last item of clothing hanging around in your closet, closing it and fanning yourself from sweating. you put your hair behind your ears as you heard the doorbell ring.
you jumped from the sudden sound, now in your head realizing jake was here.. at your house. you quickly checked if your room was spotless clean before running to the door. you quickly prayed for a second before opening it to see him.
jake smiled at you as you quickly admired him. he was wearing a dark blue sweater with some black sweatpants, his hair was down and he looked really pretty. “hey y/n!” “hey jake! come on in.” he walked in your apartment and observed it as he took his shoes off by the door.
you closed the door behind him, “are you thirsty or anything?” he shook his head. “im good! i have a bottle of water in my backpack anyways.” you understood as you guys awkwardly stood in the hallway for a second. “okay anyways let’s go to my room.”
he followed you to your room as you opened the door. your room wasn’t as big and it was simple but it was cute and comfortable, just the way you liked it. “her room matches her well.” jake thought in his head as he observed it, he looked over at your desk to see you had a pc.
“woah y/n you have a pc? do you play games on it?” he asked excitedly. you didn’t use your computer for games, you used it for your streams (which you saved all your money for) “no no i don’t play games on it! i use it just to.. use it.” you lied to him as he understood.
“well we should get started on it so we can finish this project right?” he asked as you nodded, opening up your school computer and getting to the google doc, you didn’t have many chairs in your house considering it was just you and your parents together. “you can sit on my chair jake! i’ll just sit on the edge of my bed.” you offered to him.
you two sat and worked on your project, plus made small talk in the process, “wait.. after this, me and jake will be done with this project..” the more you thought about it, the more feelings you were starting to feel about it. you truly wanted to be honest with jake and just open up to him, but you were too scared for that.
jake noticed you getting quiet and didn’t know if he should ask if you were okay or if you were just concentrated. “..are you okay yn?” he asked you in a concerned tone as you quickly looked up at him, “no no im fine! i was just concentrating on this.” you lied to him again.
he nodded, looking back at his work. you looked over at him. jake was such a beautiful person to look at, as corny as it sounded it was true. jake was truly a perfect person in your eyes. you felt your face get hot as you stopped looking at him, putting your attention back on your screen.
half an hour went by of just comfortable silence. you suddenly felt the need to use the bathroom and a well needed stretch break. you let out a small noise as you put your computer down beside you and stretched. jake looked at you in awe. “im going to use the bathroom really quick! i’ll be back but you can still work on your slide.” you told him.
he understood as you got up and went to use to the bathroom which was across the hall. jake put his computer down and got on his phone, scrolling through twitter and instagram. he put his head back on the chair, but he went too hard with it and pushed your chair back to hit your desk, which made your desktop turned on.
jake quickly turned around to see your desktop turn on. “she might’ve accidentally left it on.” he thought in his head as he turned himself completely around to turn off your computer for you. he tried to find the turn off button but he saw something that threw him off. “nights with lofi — stream.” in your tab.
jake wasn’t a nosy person, and he didn’t want to invade your privacy, but it just intrigued him, “it wouldn’t hurt to just.. take a look right?” he thought in his head, figuring out wether or not he should look. he put his hand on your mouse and pressed the tab, to see.. start stream now?
“wait a minute.. no this can’t be..” jake felt his heart start beating faster than ever, he looked all over the tab, from the lofi songs to night animations to the name.. nights with lofi. “is y/n.. is y/n the owner of nights with lofi?”
you turned off the bathroom light and walked back into your room to see.. jake looking through your desktop, and worse of all, the nights with lofi stream was on the screen. jake looked at you and got startled, jumping out of the chair. you didn’t know what to say, you felt your heart start beating faster than ever like you were gonna throw up.
“i fucking forgot to turn off my computer the whole way.” you thought in your head as it was dead silence in your room for a couple of minutes. “y/n.. are yo-“ “yeah.” you cut him off. you felt embarrassed, ashamed that you weren’t honest with him.
“i guess since you saw it i might as well tell you now, im the nights with lofi owner, everything that you listened to for these pass couple of months has all been me.” you got quiet, you wanted to just crawl into a ball and vanish. “why couldn’t i just be honest with him in the first place?” you thought in your head.
there was silence that filled your room, you looked down at the floor, being scared to look at jake. jake didn’t know what to say, though he was startled by the sudden confession, he was surprisingly not mad, how could he be mad? the girl he liked practically helped him with his sleeping issues for the last couple of months.
“y/n..” you didn’t look up at him. “y/n can you look at me atleast?” you sighed before looking at him, you thought there would be some type of expression that was negative in his face, but… there was nothing, it was the opposite of that.
“y/n that’s really cool.” what the hell.
“what?” “yeah! i think that’s really cool.” he happily responded to you. you thought he would’ve been mad or tell you why you lied to him. “i uh- your not mad?” you asked him. he smiled at you. “what? no y/n why would i be mad about that?” “i just thought you would’ve been upset because i wasn’t being honest with you, and i knew you listened to nights with lofi.”
you quietly said to him, “y/n.” he walked up to you. “i would never be mad or upset at you, it’s not like it was any of my business to know, that was your business and if you didn’t want me to know i would’ve been fine with that.” you felt your heart start going at a steady beat again.
“really?” you asked him. “yeah! i will never be mad at you for keeping some things a secret from me, plus i think it’s really cool! you practically helped me with my sleeping issues, that’s the best thing to ever happen to me.” he gave you a reassuring smile. you felt relief at that, it didn’t have to be a secret anymore.
“i do feel as though i should also apologize for going through your computer, i truly didn’t mean to! i was just.. in the moment.” he said as you shook your hands. “it’s okay! it was bound to happen..”
“are we good then?” “when have we not been good? of course we are good.” it was a bit of silence in your room before you thought of something, “just confess, it’s better to do it now then later.” you thought in your head as you sighed before speaking up.
“jake.. there’s something else i need to tell you.” he looked at you as you moved pass him, sitting on the edge of your bed and putting your computer behind you. you patted the side next to you as he moved to sit in that spot. “there’s something you have to tell me?”
you nodded, “i just felt like i’m not being completely honest with you, and this isn’t about the lofi channel, it’s something else.” you didn’t want to look at him for this part. jake looked at you, waiting for you to speak up.
“okay here it goes, i uh..” “i like you jake.” silence completely filled up your room. “i like you a lot, more than a friend type of like, and im sorry for not being honest with you about any of this, i just didn’t know how to approach the situation and i didn’t want you to think i was weird or anything.” you looked down at your fingers, forcing yourself not to look at jake.
“if you don’t feel the same way as i do then that’s completely fine! i won’t force you to have feelings for m-“ “y/n.” you felt yourself get embarrassed by each second. jake knew you wouldn’t look at him as he softly put his hands on your cheeks, bringing your face to look at his. you were shocked by the sudden gesture.
you looked at jake as his cheeks were pink. he took his hands off of your cheeks and put his hands with yours, “to be honest? i really like you too y/n.” what. “huh…” you were shocked by his answer to say the least. “you like me? like-“ “more than a friend? yes y/n, i like you too.” holy shit.
“i uh.. wow sorry this is a lot to take in.” jake laughed as his hands were still on yours. “how long have you liked me for?” he asked you. “since…. the beginning of the school year.” you mumbled but he could still hear you. “what? since the beginning of the school year? i could’ve known you ages ago then.” he said to you as you laughed.
“i was just.. scared to talk to you i guess? you were with your friends and nobody really knows me at school so i thought it would’ve been weird.” you shyly admitted to him. “atleast we know each other now right?” he asked as you nodded at him. you two looked at each other as the room got silenced, jake hesitated before putting his hands on your cheeks again.
“y/n can i..” you nodded at him as he leaned in, pressing his lips on yours. you didn’t know how to kiss, considering this was your first kiss, you just followed jake’s movements as his soft lips moved against yours. it was a quick but soft kiss as he let go, both of your faces were feeling hot in the process.
you were shocked as jake, your first and biggest crush, liked you back and was your first kiss. “woah.” you accidentally let out before covering your mouth, jake let out his contagious laugh as you two ended up laughing like two idiots.
being honest with him definitely was a success in your book.
notes — FINALLY!!! THEY CONFESSED!!! #ynandjakeparty 💪 take a shot everytime jake says “yn and cool” btw i’m so sorry for the kiss scene that was my first time writing one (it was funny to write)😕 one more chapter and then nights w you is officially finished </3
