Dear @sundial-at-night
I stare at your pfp, and there is no green dot to show you’re logged on and there never will be ever again.
It’s weird not messaging you everyday. For two years you were the first person I messaged when I woke up and the last one I messaged when I went to sleep. It’s almost been a month since the last day you were on this earth, and I can’t still comprehend that you’re gone. I can sometimes lie to myself that you’re just busy with school, but I eventually have to come back to reality.
I miss you so much, you know. You were my first and only friend on this site, and now I’m all alone again. You have no idea how much I regret I didn’t ever do a voice call with you when I had a chance. But I keep your dms on the corner of my dashboard where they’ve been for two years. They’ll stay there forever.
Thank you for all the late night messages. Thank you for all the laughter. Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for dubbing me Turtles. I can only be grateful for the 961 days we knew each other. While I’m absolutely devastated that you’re gone, I can only look back at the memories with fondness even as I cry, because I know grief really is just love. I love you, buzz buzz. Rest easy my friend <3
