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I’m constantly flipping in and out of terror and dread and anxiety and hopelessness and uncertainty. The good feelings don’t last like they used to. I don’t know how much longer I can continue with this. I am 25 and I have to watch myself become 40, 50… the only thing keeping me tethered is the blue sky and the full moon on the rise. But all else fails me.

bout to have a breakdown I found Serge Lutens Feminite Du Bois nearly FULL for $80 with shipping and I messaged the person selling it and they said 'ohh sorry I sold that one I just forgot to update the listing'. It is literally my birthday in 2 days and I wanna die!!!

i painted my nails nearly perfectly yesterday. base coat one coat colour and top coat and it was perfect. but still they got all fucked up overnight!!!!! OH MY GOD!!! LIke what!? What the fuck am I doing wrong for this to happen it's not even like they were wet. they were solid and dry !!! my BEST nail is ruined even... the most consistent colour and coat and everything and now it's got those horrible bedsheet bumps over it... what tha fuck.

the internet truly makes me a miserable, homicidal girl.

maybe i just need to bring my old one back to life and also... decenter her from the h*rry p*tter universe... and also just age her up a bit.

wanting to make an alter ego again but genuinely don't even know who I would be in an ideal world... probably a singer.