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Just A Dreamer

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Shazz. 25. She/Her.
I love a lot of ships and I write a lot of stuff. Let me know your thoughts/ Send me prompts.
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Chapter two is up! This one is a bit of a heartwrencher so I hope you're ready for it ! Would love to know what you all think!

Excerpt below:

Aaron’s still in the corridor. 

He feels he’s been here for hours but can’t say how long it’s been. He’s kept his watchful gaze on the prison guards situated outside Robert’s door, who seem to be pretty shit at their jobs considering the number of people they’re letting in and out of the room.

He doesn’t even get why Robert needs them. He’s not some high-security threat to humanity. 

He’s a man in fucking coma.

As Aaron leans against the wall outside Robert’s room, his thoughts continue to run rampant, making him think through all possible scenarios of what could be happening in there right now.

He tries not to think about it.

He tries reminding himself he’s not actually married to Robert anymore.

Why, then, is he still even here?

Deep down, he knows he’s never stopped caring about the man he used to be married to. How could he? He’d been such a big part of his life for so many years that now, with the chance of him dying, Aaron’s heart feels like it’s on the verge of breaking for good.

He has no idea if he’ll ever recover from it. Not if Robert actually dies.

He feels sick to the stomach and can’t find the nerve to go back in there, so he just waits.

What he’s waiting for, he has no idea.

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Beauty In the Bad Things

I've decided to cave and started writing the Robron reunion fic that's been brewing in my head. Super excited about sharing this with everybody!

Here's the synopsis if you're keen to give it a look!

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When Robert crashes back into Aaron's life in the most traumatic way imaginable, he's left as a shattered man, unwilling to let anyone in, least of all Robert. But that's exactly what Robert wants. Prison has turned him into a mere shadow of his old self, and he despises the person he has become. He's harsh, angry, and ready to set the entire world on fire. With anger and a deep-seated resentment dividing them, and with both of them burdened with so much trauma, the void between them now feels insurmountable. But, as they navigate their new relationship as entirely different people, can they discover a way to rebuild what they lost all those years ago?

Let me know if you guys are keen for me to keep going!

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Do you think maybe Eddie refused Maddie's plan? That maybe she called him and tried to add him to the schedule, and Eddie politely declined because he knew it wasn't what Buck needed?

I have this headcanon that Eddie and Maddie really don't know one another all that well. That they get along, but they mostly just see one another in passing and at big gatherings. And so, while they know of one another, they don't actually know each other very well.

And so right now I'm thinking about the different ways of knowing, and how Maddie's love and fear for her little brother isn't the kind of knowing he needs right now—because Maddie sees the little brother who spent his childhood hurting himself for attention, and even though this wasn't something he did to himself, she wants to give him that attention he'd always needed before, and she doesn't want to let him close off like she'd done herself and like maybe he'd done a bit after his leg injury. And so she pushes in a way that's motherly and sisterly and what she expects Buck needs.

But Eddie knows that when Buck flees, he flees to Eddie. Eddie knows that Buck needs time to process and to rest. Eddie knows that when Buck needs him, he'll reach out. Because Eddie knows Buck differently. Eddie knows the Buck who broke down his door and pieced him back together when Eddie was ready for it, and so Eddie will wait and trust that Buck will come to him when he needs a safe place to land.

And I can't stop thinking about Maddie maybe being a little bit annoyed with Eddie, and maybe not fully understanding why Eddie would refuse to take a shift, but she'd give in without too much fight, and Eddie wouldn't even be particularly insulted because he'd know that Buck doesn't need him in shifts—Buck just needs him there.

And maybe that's not something Maddie understands, and maybe it's not something Eddie's even really ready to confront.

But it's something that's uniquely theirs.

He 100% knew about the plan! When he asked buck if all the company had tired him out, you could just see in his eyes how he thought it was a futile plan from the get go haha.

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Is it just me or Buddie twitter is... something else.

The delusion is WILD !

I understand now why so many people are/were complaining about 6x11. They put their expectations SO HIGH over.. nothing ? Like cutting parts of sentences in interviews or believing journalists clickbaits or having theories over Oliver's way of answering questions and...

I do understand now that when you see so much people being so sure of themselves about something you end up believing some too.

Don't put your expectations too high ! You can theorize or speculates, of course!, but having so much expectations can only lead you to be disappointed.

I can't wait for some buddie moments on 6x13 for example, but I don't expect for them to go canon or to have a big revelation in this episode. All I want is buddie time, just them together, bonding and being best friends, that's all ! (And if I get more than that, great! And if I don't, no big deal, I wasn't expecting it!)

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Buckle up because this is a long one. But I promise I have a good feeling!

If you think about it… Eddie and Chris’s arcs this season could be beautifully tied up with Buck’s by the finale. Like I feel decisions are being made…

Hear me out.

Chris is growing up. That’s essentially the crux of the Diaz arc this season, and we’ve seen Eddie struggle to come to terms with that, whilst also enjoying all the milestones along the way.

Buck is battling his own desires of becoming a father. It’s something he’s always wanted, and suddenly an opportunity arose for him to essentially be one, even if he hasn’t fully comprehended what only being the donor means. But he’s been sucked into this Kameron and Connor situation because he likes to fix things and help people - no matter the cost to his own safety or mental well being.

Which is what 6x11 was all about. It was him realising that’s what he does. He uses situations where he can fix things as a way to prove his worth in the world.

As he started navigating his way through the coma dream he kept trying to figure out what he needed to fix in order to get back to real life. Like some afterlife business stuff, when, in reality, he just had to find his way back to himself. He had to be selfish and fix himself.

Fix you by Coldplay playing over the montage of him trying to get back to his body? Not a coincidence. Every person that got in his way as he tried to get back to his reality was offering up a situation that in real life Buck would try his damn hardest to fix. But in this instance, stopping to help that person, be it Chim with separating Doug and Maddie, Chris with finding Eddie, or Daniel with… wanting to exist, it would mean that he, Buck, would be the one to die. Fixing things would be the ultimate detriment to him making it back to his own reality.

Now how does this tie back in with Eddie and Chris? Because what if now, after this realisation, it makes him realise that he got sidetracked from spending time with his real family whilst he was working too damn hard to fix somebody else’s life? Notice, with everything going on in Buck’s life this season, he’s been noticeably distant from the Diaz family lately. Other than the Buckley-Diaz family dinner at the start of the season (which I’ll come back to shortly) there haven’t been many scenes with them together compared to previous seasons.

(I honestly do not think a showrunner would be so petty to purposely distance these characters out of spite to Buddie shippers. There must be an underlying reason as to why they’ve been so distant this season.)

Buck wasn’t there when Chris was lying about skipping science club, and when Eddie asked if Chris had spoken to him about it he was visibly distracted. Then he wasn’t there when Chris was trying on a suit for his first school dance. He briefly discussed Chris’s first crush with Eddie, but it was amongst the rest of the 118 and he still missed the milestone.

He keeps missing the milestones.

Chris is growing up, but Buck has been too distracted with the donor arc to notice.

Maybe this is another reason why Eddie was missing from Buck’s coma dream as well, because it was his subconscious telling him that something’s missing. Eddie isn’t as much of a presence in his life as he usually is, and his mind noticeably picked up on the absence, as well as how he fits into the Diaz dynamic. I.e Chris being taken away from Eddie because, ultimately, he never met Buck.

Maybe when Chris was asking Buck to help him find his Dad...he wasn’t referring to Eddie.

Now, moving forward, I honestly thing we’ll start to get more scenes with them together again. I have a feeling Eddie will be there to help him through his PTSD, and rightfully, so will Chris in one way or another. He isn’t going to miss anymore milestones.

I have no idea how the donor arc will play out. I’m making a guess in that Connor will find out that he’s actually the biological father, and not Buck. Then when everybody expects to see Buck spiral he just… doesn’t. Because he has Chris. And he’s done trying to fix everybody else’s problems, and is now focused on just fixing himself.

There’s a reason they opened the season with the three of them having dinner together. There was a reason they had the Diaz family, specifically, bring up the couch metaphor.

Like their arcs coming together wouldn’t necessarily tie into Buddie, but 100% ties into their relationship, whether it be platonic or romantic. The crucial element is the relationship between Buck and Chris.

I’ll say it again…

Choices are being made.

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Okay but picture it.

Buck is hanging around at the Diaz’s just like he does all the time. It just so happens to be another rainy night and bam! Lightning goes off in the distance instantly sending Buck into high alert.

He starts to panic and Eddie instantly realises what it is. That Buck’s experiencing PTSD. He’s been through it. He knows how to get through it. So he sits in front of Buck and he helps him through the panic attack, he helps him catch his breath, and makes him understand that he’s safe and the lightning can’t hurt him. Not here, in Eddie’s house where he will ALWAYS be safe.

Then they sit and talk about it. About the lighting strike. Everything that led up to it. Everything that happened afterwards. Like of all people to help Buck through his PTSD I would hope it would be Eddie. It makes sense.

I may be grasping at straws again but I’m actually feeling optimistic about next week.

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Okay, don’t hate me. It may be too soon for this, but... I just keep picturing the day when Buck and TK meet again, and instantly start comparing comas.

Like can you imagine them finding out that in the time since they last saw each other they’ve BOTH been in a deep coma. Like assisted breathing and everything. Everybody sitting vigil for them, waiting to find out if they will live or die.

Then they start talking about what they remember dreaming about in their coma. Like TK seeing his mom. Buck seeing...whatever he’s going to see next week. (I have a strong belief it’s a world where Daniel survived).

THEN they start making it a damn competition about who had the more intense coma. TK will say, “I got hypothermia man!” only for Buck to say, “Dude, I was struck by god damned lightning!”

Because you know that’s something those two idiots would do. 

Top it all off with Eddie and Carlos standing to the side, like...guys...that was the most traumatic moment of my life. I literally thought you were dead. Why are you two making light of this????

Like they’ve already started joking about the amount of times TK has been in coma. I honestly wouldn’t put it past these shows.

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This Is Our Sanctuary Playlist

It’s been almost a year since I finished this fic. I honestly loved writing it so much, and am so proud of how well it turned out. 

The music that inspired it still lives rent free in my head, which is why I keep going back to listen to this playlist. Was feeling nostalgic so thought I would share it again.

If you haven’t read the fic, you can do here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/34593895/chapters/86113501

Source: Spotify
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Here’s just something I wrote for Tarlos. Couldn’t get this out of my head, and it ended up being over 8000 words worth of both fluff and angst. I really enjoyed writing it though so I hope you love it as well!

Let me know what you think!

It's a day when TK and Carlos keep running into each other on calls. They have to try their hardest to maintain their professionalism until, that is...they can't.

OR:

The people they save keep noticing their love.

Excerpt below the cut:

The day started off just like any other.

TK woke with Carlos still asleep, lying on his front with an arm spread across TK’s chest, their legs tangled together under the covers. The rising sun had started shining through the curtains as the alarm clock on the bedside table read: 5:45 am.

TK usually woke up just before it went off at 6:00, his circadian rhythm completely attuned to waking up just before he had to. He never wanted to miss out on his daily dose of morning cuddles with his fiance; those last 15 minutes of sleep be damned. And because they were always so in sync, TK knew it would only be another couple minutes before Carlos woke as well.

As if on cue, his fiance let out a cute groan as he slowly rolled onto his side. His forehead wrinkled into lots of little lines as he willed himself to wake up after a good night's sleep. A massive yawn escaped him as he palmed at his eyes, trying to get rid of the sleep around his eyelids.

TK couldn’t contain the love that swelled in his heart at the sight. Sometimes he still couldn’t believe that he got to wake up next to this beautiful man every morning for the rest of his life.

“Morning, baby,” TK said, brushing a curl away from Carlos’s face as his fiance finally opened his eyes to look at him.

“Hey.”

“Did you have a good sleep?”

Carlos let his eyes slip closed again for another few seconds, only letting out a soft “Mhmmm '' as a response to TK’s question. But almost instinctively, he found TK’s arm and tugged him closer so that TK could snuggle into his side.

“You?” Carlos asked, his voice still raspy from sleep.

“Yeah,”

They stayed like that for those treasured 15 minutes, with TK’s cheek pressed firmly to Carlos’s solid chest. As he felt the soft beat of his fiance’s heart, he could feel Carlos draw soft circles against his bare back with his finger, and it made the nerves on TK’s whole body stand on end. He’d always been slightly ticklish, but it was never to the point of discomfort. It felt nice and soothing, and a part of him wished they could stay like this all day.

But they both had shifts they needed to get to, and this would be their only chance to hold each other for the rest of the day.

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I will always maintain that this show was just too ambitious considering the resources they were given.

I liked the finale but there were just so many holes in the characterisation and pacing of the storylines that everything felt incomplete.

They constantly tried to fit a storyline intended for 22/24 episodes per seasons into only 13 and I just wish that they were given the time and resources to tell the story they wanted to tell without jeopardizing the characters or relationships along the way.

It’ll always be one of my all time favourite shows and i’m glad we got our Malex happy ending, but it still feels a bit bittersweet.

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Okay I have another theory.

You know how Liz used liquid from the pod to help create the drug that gave Michael his powers back?

And now she’s been exposed to that same drug.

We know she obviously reacts badly to it at first but what if…

What if the pod contents actually helps to heal her and/or slows down the reaction? We know the pods leave the aliens in stasis so…

And then they learn this and the effects it has on humans?

Tidbit of information for future use?

*Cough* Alex *Cough*

I mean… it’s a theory at least.

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Can we step back and chill for a sec?

I am not a fan of the Malex storyline right now, specifically Alex missing.

HOWEVER

I also understand they had to work around Tyler being injured and having surgery on his back! If I remember he said he couldn’t move he was in so much main and the surgery was major back surgery.

It’s sucks that Alex has been so MIA and they announced that the show was canceled, a part of me feel robbed but I also know there are things out of everyone’s control.

I’m glad the show runners were able to accommodate Tyler and put his health first and not make him work through immense pain.

I know people are like how is Michael just now finding out?! Alex told him he was going to be in the middle of nowhere and wouldn’t have service. So Michael is none the wiser to Alex predicament. Yes they have a cosmic love but that doesn’t mean Michael knows when Alex is in danger. Alex reached out to Maria because of her abilities and knew she was his best bet to get back to everyone.

Can we stop attacking Michael? It’s not him, his the situation behind the scenes and writing but I honestly would have gotten annoyed with a emo Michael for the last handful of episodes. As long as Malex is reunited and get a happy ending then I’m happy! Their continued story will live in fanfiction.

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Did anyone else think for a tiny itty bitty second Michael could feel something bad happening to Alex and that’s why he was out of it… and immediately thought of all your favorite soulmate bond fics?

I HAS A CRAZY THOUGHT JUST NOW!

What if they took Alex because they have a bond and that’s how they were able to take Michael’s powers away. Tezca wants another savior not the dictator’s son so she kidnapped Alex, did some hand-wavy-alien-science thing and got Bonnie to introduce it with that kiss so he’d lose his powers and now Max doesn’t have an equal anymore. (I mean, Isobel’s delightful self is far superior than either of them but you know what I mean.

If Im not making since, blame it on the special brownies.

No I was totally thinking along these lines too. Like what if the only way for Michael to get his powers back has something to do with Alex...

That’s why they made sure that Alex was out of the way.

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