the sexy club

don't mind me i'm just here to cry cause I ese something about doctor who on reddit and ir Made me think that i'm never going to watch doctor who with my dar again even though se haven't watched it together in years but he died two weeks ago and there's too many shows we never finished watching or seasons of shows we shared that he'll never get to watch and movies we said we'd watch someday

lockdown hasnt really been that bad for me i enjoy being at home and im getting paid without doing anything at all except sleeping even less than before and watching a lot of youtube and im getting along really well with my parents i kind of miss my friends and yeah i’d love to see them but idk it doesnt feel more urgent than being safe so it’s all well 

we had to put my cat down in april which i’m still processing cause she was my best friend for 17 years but it wasn’t really unexpected cause....she was 17 years and had been ill for a little over two year and it was horrible but it wasnt traumatic i juts miss her loads and feel so lonely without her, i loved every single second with her but i realized how much i took her for granted all the moments i thought to myself im alright being by myself and how independant i thought i was but i really wasnt caue she was always there with me either sleeping in my bed or keeping me company  and it’s my first experience with death luckily i guess but it’s all new to me and i thought i was alright and my grief was under control but it’s clearly not

i don’t really want to come back and i dont think im properly coming back to any fandoms cause its too stressful and i’ve been alright from afar but i need somewhere to vent and i thought about making a new blog with no followers but for some reason i need to feel like at least there’s a posibility that someone else will read this even tho probably most people have already unfollowed me so i might as well just use this blog maybe just today maybe ill be back who knows i just want a place to feel sorry for myself without dumping all my shit on my friends

hi i just want to say that im not gone im just having trouble cause im borrowing my grandma’s phone and it’s very basic and i can barely have whatsapp and instagram so i’ll be back once i get either my new phone or i can save up enough money to fix my laptop

Now my phone won't charge i have the best luck

My whole weekend consisted of binge watching videos of tarantulas on youtube and now i want one