people need to stop fetishizing mentally ill women. no it is not “pink and grippy”. i have vaginismus and haven’t had a libido since my last relapse. just admit that the only way you can get laid is taking advantage of hypersexual and manic women 😑

last night i prayed for a long time that God would show me the truth and then i had a dream that Jenna Marbles came back to Youtube

i hate the illusion of a slow forward progression of time. i wish i woke up some days unborn, some days d*ad , some days 87, and some days 2.

everyday i wake up and study russian and french and arabic and read deleuze and edit my manuscript and find a new rabbit hole of info to explore and read books and try to be good at chess then at the end of the day i try to make myself explode with my own mind

i would destroy myself to reach fluency in every language on duolingo.