my jinji

crying when you already have a child feels illegal lmao i don’t even know how to break down properly now.

does the mom guilt ever go away?

U make me blue~

parang i wanna sell private content wahaha 🤔🤕😬🤯

July.

Hi mori, I woke up and spent the whole day feeling a little less blue. Still hard and sad but at least i can see a little light na. 2 times lang nag cry si mommy ngayon. I know you’re guiding me my love. Help mommy cope up ha? I still have lot of regrets. I could’ve done better.. Sana mas pinansin pa kita, baka buhay ka pa sana ngayon. Kung sa ibang vet ka namin dinala baka buhay ka pa ngayon. Sorry my love.. Mommy was in so much pain kasi. Sana lumaban ka pa, mas maalagaan na kita ngayon :-( Sabi ko pa naman ikaw din best friend ni baby fumi.. But i know you’re in a better place now. Isa lang wish ko ngayon, just one more cuddle with you.. I’ll do everything to have one more cuddle with you. I know you’ll wait for me kahit gaano pa katagal. I miss you terribly. I wil miss you forever i love you i love you i love you Mori ko.

Mori ko..

It’s been 2 days na nung iniwan mo kami. I still don’t know how to cope up. I still cry every time. Home doesn’t feel like home without you my baby boy. Ang empty ng atmosphere dito sa bahay. Wala na akong titirhan ng ulam, wala na ko ilalakad, wala na ko pupunasan na ihi, wala na mag greet sakin pag uwi. Ma mimiss ko tahol mo, pati amoy mo kahit mabaho. Hinahanap hanap ko amoy mo. Naiyak nga ako nung nakita ko yung tali mo kasi nandoon parin amoy mo :-) I don’t know how to move on. Please help me move forward baby boy.. I know you don’t want me sad and I know you’re in a better place now pero ang sakit sakit parin. I feel so guilty kasi hindi kita masyado napansin last few weeks bago ka nawala.. Sobrang sorry mahal ko, nagpapagaling kasi si mommy. Seloso ka pa naman.. Alam ko na alam mo rin na mahal na mahal kita. Ikaw parin number 1 baby ko :-) Hindi man lang tayo nakapag bonding bago ka nawala.. Bigla mo nalang kami iniwan. Maraming salamat sa walong taon na nakasama kita. Ma mimiss kita ng sobra. Pakiramdam ko hindi ako makaka move on. Araw araw ko parin hahanapin presensya mo pero i’ll try to move forward kasi i know you don’t want me sad. Guide mommy ha? Help mommy to lessen the pain. Habang buhay kang nasa puso ko. Mahal na mahal kita Mori.

hewwo

umaapaw damdamin ko kanina sa aking bf. tipong miss na miss ko sya kahit nandun lang sya sa labas. tapos ngayon gusto ko na sya sakalin habang natutulog :—) di na talaga ako mag stalk hakhak

tinopak nanaman si ako hahaha self sabotage pa mor. ganito siguro talaga kapag buntis lmao

saddest new year so far.. but it’s okay i learned a lot this year :-)