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Please read this. As an ARMY of color, I can relate to some of this. Racism within K-Pop fandoms is so fucking real and it needs to stop. Reading this actually hurt my fucking heart and i wanted to fucking cry because this is so fucking real. So many fans are disgusting. Please believe us when black kpop fans talk about this. Do not belittle our experiences and do not defend these fans or even the idols. Please share this.
I'm so sad to see this, i think that it doesn't matter the color of your skin, the only thing that matters is that you like a group and you support him. The amazing thing of supporting a group is that you can make friends in the process, i made a lot of international friends who also like Bts (and another k-pop groups) and i would never offend anyone because of his skin color, country, etc... We should support each other the same way we support our idols, we are a big family.
People can be so mean out there and on social media where they can "attack" you and offend you without knowing who is the person who said it, so if you ever feel attacked or offended come to talk to me, let it all out, and i will, no, we will support each other.
Please share this so we can end this together
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GIF not mine!
Genre: Angst, Hanahaki AU
Word count: 2.7k
Warnings, Mentions of blood, suffocation, death, and choking.
There is in fact, a song I used for this as well, please listen and if you can, read the lyrics of Day6 - I Loved You
In which different types of petals increase little by little, until a full flower is formed to be coughed out, which at that point, kills you.
“I don’t know Jimin, It’s just a small crush, it’ll definitely go away.” You told your best friend, and coworker.
“Just think about it (Y/N)! He might like you! And you know this isn’t just a crush! You’re totally smitten with him! You’re in love dammit!” Jimin stressed.
“Tha-! That’s not!” He raised an eyebrow at you.
“Fine…You’re right. But he doesn’t see me as anything else but a sister Jimin….” You replied sadly.
Who were the two of you talking about you say?
Kim Seokjin.
The boy- man, who you’d known for ages- but just recently fell in love with. And he somehow made it impossible to fall out of love with.
He was just too stunningly perfect and handsome.
Like a fully grown flower.
“Of course I’m right, I’ve been your friend since our diaper days anyways. And come on (Y/N)! At least try to be a little confident! What’s there not to like about you?” He whined.
“Um I don’t know? A lot of things? Listen jimin-” Your words were cut off by the ringing of the bell, signaling the arrival of a customer.
The two of you rushed to your posts, him, to the small barista counter, and you, to the cashier.
“Welcome to Latte World! How may I help you today Seokjin?” You asked, trying not to stutter.
“Hey (Y/N)! Hey Jimin! I just want an espresso today, and when’s your next break? I have something to tell you.” He said, convivial.
“That’ll be seven dollars please!” He handed you the money, and in exchange you handed him his receipt. “And Jimin and I were actually gonna finish out shift in just about ten minutes, Hoseok’s waiting at the table to clock in because he said that he’s too precious for overtime.” You said, rolling your eyes.
Seokjin chuckled, and you were definitely convinced your stomach did a full flip.
You and Jimin finally finished your shift, and went to the small locker rooms in the back to change out of your uniforms, then went to the small table Seokjin was sitting at.
“What is it Seokjin, I have a little sister to go feed.” Jimin told him.
“Come on kids, sit, sit, this won’t take long.” He urged.
Reluctantly, Jimin sat down across from Seokjin, and you took the seat next to Jimin.
“What is it Jin?” You asked him.
“Well…There’s this girl I like…I’m gonna ask her out on a date tomorrow! I really like her, and I think I might have a chance with her!” He said, his million dollar smile blinding your eyes, but shattering your heart at the same time.
“Oh really? That’s great Seokjin! I’m happy for you.” You said your voice cracking ever so slightly. You really were happy for him, why wouldn’t you be? You just weren’t contented with the fact that he was happy with someone else.
“That’s great Seokjin! I’m very happy for you and I’m really sorry to cut this short but I really have to go feed my sister now, she should be out of school bt now and I’m sure (Y/N) is busy too.” Jimin explained.
Thank the heavens for Jimin You thought, trying your best to blink the tears away from your watery eyes.
“Alright then, see you guys! I’m gonna stay here and buy a cake pop! See you guys soon!” Seokjin
“(Y/N)? Are you gonna be okay? I’m sorry…But let’s not assume okay? There’s still a chance it could be you after all~” Jimin said, trying to comfort you.
“Thanks Chim, I’m not too sure, but thank you for trying. I can’t go with your sister today I’m sorry, my throat is kinda itchy and I wanna take some medicine just in case I’m getting sick.” You told him.
“Sure! It’s okay, take care of yourself, and if you need anything, just come over! Bye (Y/N)!” He exclaimed.
You waved, giving him a small smile, then walked to your home.
But your throat has been horribly itchy and there was a bubbling suffocation at the bottom of your throat.
So you rushed home, hoping it wasn’t what you thought it could be.
Rushing to unlock your door, you felt like the breath was taken out of you.
Literally.
There was something suffocating your throat, there was something making it so itchy, there was something that caused this.
You just didn’t know what.
Rushing open the door, you were gasping for air, feeling something smooth and somewhat velvety trying to rise up your esophagus.
Choking on your already very little air, you rushed to the restroom.
You opened the door frantically, going to the sink and hurling over, gripping the sink so hard your knuckles turned white.
Tears rolling down your face in excruciating pain, you could feel the thing that was choking and cutting your flesh resting on top of your tongue.
Spitting it out, it was a single petal of a striped carnation, it’s beautiful pigmentation being stained with the crimson red blood it emerged from.
The familiar scene of what had happened to your mother was happening to you now.
A striped carnation - I wish I could be with you.
Hanahaki.
It’s not me.
You stared at the flower petal, right now it is only one measly petal, but later, who knows what the whole flower will look like.
Who knows if there will be a full flower or not.
Letting out a loud cry, you searched for your phone in your bag.
Dialing the number you had set for emergency contact, you tried your best to speak with your sore and throbbing throat.
As soon as you heard that he picked up, you tried your best to speak.
“J-Jimin? Can I come over please?” You asked, your voice trembling and feeble, almost incomprehensible from your tears.
I resent you
I hate the times I had with you
After I lost you everything became meaningless.
“Oh my god what happened (Y/N)?” He asked, his face contorting into one of worry once he saw you at the door.
“Let me in first.” You croaked out.
Nodding, you both walked into the living room, careful to not wake up his sister.
You placed yourself on his couch and started speaking the best you could immediately.
“I have hanahaki Jimin. Seokjin isn’t in love with me.” You said smiling sadly, tears running down your cheeks again.
“You’re going to get the surgery right? There’s only a one percent chance it won’t work but I don’t think you’ve loved him long enough for that to happen.” He said, his voice cracking.
“I don’t want to forget how it feels to love him Jimin. He’s too easy to love that I’m afraid it won’t work.”
To be honest, no matter how much I try to erase you
I know I can’t, yeah
To be honest, I know that to me
You’re someone who I just can’t forget
The next day, you and Jimin are at the cafe again, only this time around, it’s far more deserted than usual.
But when you see Seokjin walking into the cafe with a bright smile on his face, you knew it could only mean one thing.
“Guys! She said yes! Our date is in two days!” He beamed.
The itch in your throat started to become intolerable, so you excused yourself to the employee restroom where you started coughing horribly, each couch burning your throat worse than the last.
Finally, on short breath, you felt the velvet like petals rising up into your mouth and you spit them out, and around eleven blood tainted petals fluttered down to the floor.
Yellow Tulips.
There’s sunshine in your smile.
Wiping your face clear of any remnant blood, you looked into the mirror and smiled the best you could, trying to make it look believable.
Once you deemed your phony smile believable enough, you exited the bathroom and the sound of Seokjin’s boisterous laugh rang through your ears and seemed to reverberate throughout your entire body.
Dear lord I love this man too much. You thought.
“(Y/N)! You have to help me in choosing what to wear in two days! I really want to impress her!” Seokjin exclaimed.
I’m Happy for you, I really am
~
The day of the date has arrived, you and Jimin were in your house, trying to distract you from anything related to Seokjin.
But then both of your phones ring at the same time, only meaning one thing.
Seokjin
*image attached*
Thank You (Y/N)! She loved the outfit!
I’ll make sure to enjoy the date thoroughly~ Gah
I love her so much.
The image showed a selca of Seokjin and a girl more beautiful than you could ever imagine.
“Wow It’s no wonder he’s so whipped for her she’s so pretty…” Jimin whispered softly, even he was left in awe.
But what bothered you was not the girl, well she still bothered you but, what bothered you more than that was what Seokjin said along to it.
I love her so much
And there it was again, the familiar itch at the back of your throat.
This time around, the itch only became more and more suffocating, you knew there was more petals than last time, and you knew that you had to see a doctor now.
The feeling of the petals suffocating you.
The feeling of them crawling up your throat, shedding off any layers of your esophagus.
And the feeling of the petlas rested upon your tongue covered in blood, waiting to be spit out.
Twenty-three blood covered Jonquil petals.
Desire for affection returned.
~
There you were, at the doctor’s clinic waiting to be treated.
“Miss (Y/L/N)? Doctor Min will see you now.” The nurse exclaimed.
You grabbed your bag and followed the nurse into the room where a short and pale man was seated on chair in front of a computer.
“Hello Miss (Y/L/N), please have a seat.” He said.
Complying, you sat in the seat next to the bed.
“So you have Hanahaki huh?” he said, almost a hint of nostalgia was heard in his voice.
“Yes, last time the petals came out it was around twenty three in total. I didn’t count.” You said bitterly.
“You might want to consider a surgery and quick, one you start seeing forty or more there’s a big risk that the full flower will come out soon.” He said.
“I don’t want to forget what it feels like to love him…” You whispered.
“I get the feeling…” He whispered, barely audible enough for you to hear it.
“Here, for now I’ll prescribe you some medicine to soothe the peeling of the skin inside your throat. And take these papers, it’s the agreement papers to the surgery, think it over. No love is worth dying for. I would know.”
~
At home, you lied down on your bed and though things over.
Was it really worth dying for Seokjin, who didn’t even know you were dying for him?
Should you risk yourself and confess to him?
The questions were almost like a never ending carousel, spinning around and around with no visible end.
You almost couldn’t hear the sound of your phone going off.
Seokjin
*attached image*
Omg guys you remember In middle school when I used to have the biggest crush on (Y/N)?
😂😂😂
Chimmie
I still ship it
Seokjin
Hey! I’ll have you know I have a girl.
That I’m planning on asking to be my girlfriend ///////
And there the feeling was again.
The itch.
The damned itch.
Almost as if you were gagging, you felt the petals rising slower than they ever had before.
There’s more You thought in agony.
You were coughing violently, wanting to get rid of the damned petals that clogged your throat.
And finally, the petals were coughed out, and almost like confetti, the blood covered petals scattered in different directions.
That’s around thirty seven huh…
Tea rose petals.
I’ll remember always.
Standing up weakly, you tried the best you could to wobble to the table where you left the documents Doctor Min gave you.
And you signed them hopelessly.
~
“Are you ready miss (Y/N)? You made a big decision, and remember after this, it will feel funny but the petals will stop coming and you won’t feel the love for him anymore.”The surgeon told you.
You nodded yes, and although you didn’t want to forget how to love Seokjin, you didn’t think it was the time for you to die just yet.
“Then please relax as we will inject you with this anesthetic and commence with the removal of the petals.”
And your eyes drooped closed as the needle poked your arm, making you lose consciousness.
~
Once you awoke, you felt a strange…emptiness to you.
You looked around the room, an IV drip was injected in you and you felt the uncomfortable stitches under the horridly thin gown the hospital provided.
The door slid open and Doctor Min entered.
“Ah you’re awake Miss (Y/N), you’ll be able to leave by tomorrow if you feel well enough by then, I think the surgery went well, but you must be careful, there is still that tiny one percent chance it didn’t work because of a love too strong, so I recommend you stay away from the person you loved for a while.” He said.
Simply nodding, your eyes fluttered closed once again and you heard the faint shutting of the door before you lost yourself to sleep.
~
“Chim I’m fine really, I just feel kinda empty is all. Come on, It’s only been a day and I’m super fed up with this place, take me home?” You said to your best friend, who was crying at your feet.
“Are you sure you’re okay (Y/N)?! Are you sure you don’t love him anymore?!” He wailed.
Rolling your eyes, you left to the counter to pay for your hospital bill, which mind you, was very expensive.
“Let’s go Chim!” You said, with the first real smile in what seemed like ages.
~
A whole week later and you seemed to get back to your lifestyle before you fell in love with Seokjin.
It was peaceful and serene.
No coughing up bloody petals and no itchy throats.
So you decided to invite Seokjin and his new girlfriend over to get to know her better,
“(Y/N)! It’s been almost a full week since we last talked! I thought we were closer than this! The cruelty! The betrayal!” He said as soon as he saw you.
No more fluttering of the heart.
Both you and his girlfriend chuckled simultaneously.
“You’re even more beautiful in person. Hello I’m (Y/F/N).” You greeted.
“Thank you! You’re too sweet!” Her honey like voice making you shiver.
“I’m Cha Eunjae!” She said.
“Well don’t just stand there! Make yourself at home!” You said, beckoning them to your living room.
Almost three hours of chatting about each other, and you embarrassing Seokjin, Eunjae deems it’s time for them to go.
“Get in the car without me! I need to ask (Y/N) Something real quick!” He said to Eunjae, who left happily, tusting Seokjin enough to not cheat.
“So what is it that you so desperately need to tell me?” You said dramatically.
Without saying any words, Seokjin engulfed you in a hug.
And to your despair, your heart started beating faster than it should.
No No No This isn’t supposed to happen! You thought fearfully.
“Thank you for accepting Eunjae, she means the world to me and I know she’s the one.” He said, before leaving and closing the door behind him.
This isn’t supposed to happen.
The itchiness of your throat.
It was supposed to be gone.
The lack of breath from suffocation.
I’m not supposed to love him anymore!
The stem tingling behind the flower.
I don’t want to die…
You fell to the floor, your vision coming on and off like an indecisive light switch.
Letting out your final vicious cough, you saw the flower, the stem still slightly in your mouth.
A Sweetpea…..
Thank you for your time…
Goodbye, I loved you.
Because I want to forget you but I can’t
And your final breath left your body.
~
Well that was one hell of a ride huh? I’m sorry this is vvvvvv shitty
😍 i loved this, you should definitely read it
SOMEONE REBLOG THIS FROM ME PLEASE
So my lovely @lindzaylove tagged me on this alphabet tag (?) I hope you know more things about me and if you want to know more just ask💖😂
A. Age: 17
B. Birthplace: Spain
C. Current Time: 14:55 pm
D. Last Drink You Had: Water
E. Easiest Person To Talk To: My little cousin Claudia
F. Favorite Song At The Moment: Bts Don't leave me
G. Grossest Memory I Can Think Of: when i was on a sleepover and one of my friends throw up on the floor (i almost throw up)
H. Hogwarts House: Gryffindor 🦁
I. In Love: With Kim SeokJin from Bts💖
J. Jealous: Yes😂
K. Killed Someone: hundreds! (On Call of Duty, Far Cry 4, Uncharted...)
L. Love At First Sight: with a boy of my school, he was older than me, and was my crush for 4 years.
M. Middle Name: Elena (my name is Maria Elena)
N. Number Of Siblings: One, my twin brother (i sell it if someone wants it)
O. One Wish: End with racism
P. Someone didn't know the alphabet
Q. Someone didn't know the alphabet pt. 2
R. Reasons To Smile: My baby cousin, she always makes me smile
S. Song You Last Sang: Momoland Boom Boom
T. Time You Woke Up: 9:30 a.m
U. Underwear Color: ... Really?!
V. Vacation Destination: I want to travel around the world but since i was little i always wanted to go to London
W. Worst Habit: I'm a very proud person, it doesn't matter if you are right, if i say otherwise it has to be as i say
X. X-Rays: For my knee, i got a surgery on December
Y. Favorite Food: instant noodles
Z. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
And that's all! If any of my followers want to do it feel free to do it! But don't forget to tag me 😊 i want to know more things about you all💖
Best friend!Jungkook and y/n trying to go out to eat something Requests are open 😄💖
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Photographer!Seokjin and y/n, who's the real model?🤔 Requests are open!😊
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i am conducting a research study for my master’s degree dissertation analysing the positive impact BTS and involvement within the fan base has on us, the fans. a full explanation is provided on the questionnaire !!
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Word count: 401
Pair: reader x bts member (you can decide wich one by leaving a coment here)
Fanfic: bts au
Blurry faces...that's what you first saw when you opened your eyes, but that's normal, after all you're still a baby. You were growing up and nothing seemed to change, of course you asked your parents if this was normal, but they always tried to avoid your questions, or tell you that it was an illness, but it will cure with the time.
17, that's your age at this moment and you only see blurry grey faces, of course you can see everything perfectly fine (in grey but still...), but not the people's faces.You don't know any colors (even tho your parents tried to teach you how they are), you don't even know how your parents look like! (And neither how do you look). One day you were returning home after school, and as you entered home, you heard your parents calling you. You went to the kitchen and they asked you to sit with them.
How was school sweetie?- asked your mom
It was ok i guess, the same as usual- you replied- that's why you called me?, To ask me for school?-you said laughing a bit
No sweetie, your father wants to tell you something, right?- she asked looking at your father.
Yes-he sais with a serious tone-Y/n,
You've always asked us why you couldn't see anything, and we told you that it was because of an illness...
Yeah i know that- you interrupt-.
Well, we kind of lied to you...-he said-.
What...?- you hardly believe it-.
It's not a hole lie... What you have, what we all have...you can call it an illness if you want...the thing is that you only can see blurry faces it's because you haven't found your soulmate...-said your father-
My what?!- you nearly screamed-.
Your soulmate- said your mom- we all have one, at the beginning we all can't see anything, i was 25 when i found my soulmate, your father. I was going to get a coffe with my friends and when I entered the coffe shop and i looked towards your father his face shined for a few seconds and when i blinked i could see his face...and my friends faces, and the colors...it was beautiful
Wow... that's so... Wow....- you couldn't find the right words- i hope i can find my soulmate soon- you said-.
Well...-Your parents looked at each other- there's another thing that we have to tell you...
So here's the first part! I really hope you like it, i would appreciate any kind of comments (please be kind this is my first time writing) so i can see if you like it.
Thank you all! Kisses and hugs❤️💞
