//well, i think it’s a pretty open secret at this point that i’ve been struggling with this blog for a little while. i’ve tried multiple things to regain my muse, including putting certain muses on hiatus, highlighting the muses that i’m feeling, and doing a soft reboot, and nothing has really worked. so, i have decided that it is time for a hard reboot, a clean start.
i will be remaking and archiving this blog. the url will remain the same because it is very fucking choice, so i won’t be hard to find again. however, i will be dropping over half of my active muses and, therefore, over half of my active threads.
muses who will be making it over to the new blog will be:
- akali
- brit
- ekko
- five
- the joxter
- lain
- max
- mordecai
- snufkin
their current threads will likely be kept and picked at whenever i feel up to it.
the thing is that over the course of the past two and a half years, i have really boxed myself in mentally when it comes to this blog. the fact i was able to write so many different muses and keep such consistent activity became a point of pride for me, and i kind of felt like i had to keep doing it, like i had some kind of reputation to maintain and i would be considered a disappointment or a failure if i couldn’t. i started to set arbitrary quotas for myself, telling myself that i had to write a certain number of replies here before i could work on the ones i actually wanted to work on. i would sacrifice a lot of sleep just to meet those arbitrary goals. my sleep schedule is still completely shattered, haha!
anyway, yeah, this blog has just become very overwhelming and the source of a lot of undue stress, and i have no one to blame for it but myself. i’m not happy here, and i’m no longer excited to add any of the muses i have been hoarding aesthetics and musings for in my drafts for over two years.
i would miss a lot of my muses here, so i can’t just leave, but i need to get the hell away from this blog to free myself from the cage i’ve put myself in.
seeing as i still have a lot of stuff - aesthetics, musings, memes - in both my queue and my drafts, this blog will continue to spit stuff out for another couple of months or so. basically, i’m turning it into a resource blog for aesthetics, musings, and memes. feel free to reblog whatever you want from it. i straight-up don’t care if you destroy my activity because there is no longer anything that i need my activity for. and i should hope that in leaving this pile of stress behind, i might do some good for somebody else.
i may see you on the other blog, but if not, have a good one, and take care of yourself. 💕