casually tumbles back on here because you guys deserve an explanation for me basically vanishing off the face of the earth without any rhyme or reason. a lot of things happened in my life, not bad things, just things and some things weren’t happening fast and this fandom is a toxic, toxic fandom and it was the opposite of what i needed at the time. i was just starting to rebuild a relationship with my sister, rebuild a friendship, got a job, tried to become a little more independent, started a workout plan and generally just tried to make my life better and while i met so many, many amazing people that made my life better, made me excited about things and made me smile there was also so much negativity, so much sadness, so much cluster and so much that was just becoming impossible for me to deal with on a daily basis...
...so i ran away and tried to make my life better and then found a new fandom that was warm and welcoming, kind and funny and accepted me in a split second and after everything i had went through with this blog, this fandom it was a breath of fresh air that i desperately needed...and then i realized how unfair i was being to the amazing, wonderful people who kept me going on this blog, who were there when things got hard, who accepted me and loved me so, this an apology to those people that you don’t have to accept if you don’t want to, a deep i’m sorry for leaving you all so rapidly without a word.
i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to come back to becca, to this fandom but, i just needed to get this out here, thanks for reading.
