[harsh sigh]

*acquires a new hyperfixation* great! this should keep me going for the next 2 months or 24 hours

Keanu Reeves’ filmography: Street Kings (2008)

Constantine (2005) dir. Francis Lawrence

I’m losing it I just walked in front of a parked car in front of a hotel and I had the right of way but this dude didn’t realize his window was cracked and he mumbled “I’ll run you over” as I think we have all said to ourselves about pedestrians before but I said “cool do it” and he looked mortified

everytime i move i crunch like popcorn

and everytime we kiss i swear i could fly

me: “I have social anxiety”

what people hear: “I am a bit shy”

what the internet reads: “OwO cute shy boi,,must protecc!! hehe so quirky!1!!”

what social anxiety really is: taking months of knowing someone to feel comfortable enough to have a real conversation, your mind going blank during small talk, inability to participate in groups of more than three people, mentally rehearsing “simple” tasks such as ordering food or making a phone call and your heart racing anyway, constantly feeling watched, being afraid of getting places too early or too late, fear of being judged over the most random things (”is this a socially acceptable ice cream flavor to buy?” “what if they think my shampoo is weird” “will they hate me if I get up to throw my trash away?” “what if I emptied the dishwasher wrong!”), having panic attacks when you have to ask a teacher for help, constantly feeling left out or excluded even with friends, your hands shaking when you get called on in class, being overwhelmed in crowds and public transportation, disliking being touched, perpetual fear of disappointing those in authority, overall difficulty forming relationships, missing out on milestones or social events because you either have no friends to go with or know it will be overwhelming, preferring to be in groups of three so that conversation isn’t solely up to you, making so many everyday tasks so much more difficult than they need to be due to a crushing fear of being judged by random strangers you will literally never see again and needing to be seen as flawless

You think everyone knows I punched Keanu Reeves?

Keanu Reeves in Always Be My Maybe (2019) dir. Nahnatchka Khan

no one:

me: *sigh* i love keanu reeves

“you have to stop buying every mug you think is cute” what’s that? i can’t hear you over the sound of all my mugs clinking together in the cabinet as i try to find space for this new mug i bought

fav keanu pics|part 1

If you’re ever sad here’s a link to a bunch of people saying sweet things about Keanu

johnny utah is so sexy

academic success is not the most important thing in my life, i tell myself as i’m having a breakdown because of academic success, the most important thing in my life