Im sorry for never finishing this story
Unfinished
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Protector
I used to spend my spare time day dreaming about Bucky imagining him as my personal protector and writing to cope with the immense pain and difficulty of truma. It was a nice escape. But we all grow out of our day dreams sooner or later. That’s not nescesarily a good thing. Some day dreams are good. They serve as an outlet in my opinion. Of course that’s only to an extent I’m not talking about delusion. Right now I need a protector so I’m writing this short piece to help me relax and sleep.
Protector:
I used to spend nights alone on the bathroom floor crying or curled up in my bed with silent tears leaking from my eyes. The pain most times was so intense I couldn’t breathe or move. I’d wish I had parents; the kind who protected me. But I was alone. That is until you came into my life. One would think the cold metal arm of a so called vilianous man couldn’t possibly bring any kind of comfort, but it did. I no longer felt alone when I was with you. The largeness of your being made my problems shrink in comparison. Who knew a good sturdy pair of arms and a tight hug was all I needed. When I was too weak to walk you carried me. You carried me a lot. I’m not sure why. Maybe because you looked into my eyes and saw the pain that you know so well. Maybe easing my suffering eased your own in turn. Like the emotional alleviation one gets from helping another person and the elation that comes from seeing a small smile on a once heartbroken face. You are warm. I love that about you because I’m always cold; and that strength you have could squeeze the sadness out of me with one warm embrace. You make me feel safe. Not just because of your combat abilities or your arm but because of your heart. You are kind. I will sleep well with your arms around me. I will sleep comforted by the knowledge that you love me and that you are true. I will sleep knowing that you will fight off my nightmares, my abusers, and my past. I will sleep comforted by the confidence I have in you: my protector.
Authors Note:
Sometimes heros can still save you even if they’re imaginary.
SOS
guys I need help. if any of u want to be a beta reader. MESSAGE ME.
Honey, take your time and take care of YOU. We'll wait for Sparks. Just want you to be ok ♡♡♡
Hey, hi! Just wanted to let you know that I have a love/hate relationship with Sparks. I get SO DAMN MAD at the girl and Cho. Literally, all the time. But you write so well and I fucking LOVE how you write Bucky's personality, so I can never stop reading. I hope everything is going well with your recovery and summer classes! Stay strong 🖤🖤🖤
Thank you so much for the well wishes! see I wrote Bucky’s personality as my dream guy’s personality and now im triggered every time I want to write because I'm like damn my ass is gonna end up alone isn't it.
"But what does that say about the power of emotions? Or the strength of men?" Unf!! Pure poetry!
I'm going to be so honest I didn’t even realize I wrote this until you pointed it out and for a second I was like who are they quoting? damn that is poetry then I was like wait is that me? and I kid u not I had to go search my doc to confirm I wrote that then I proceeded to think hmmm trash. what idea is the “that” referring to in this sentence. unclear. incompleteeeeee sentence *in my middle school teachers voice* but Thank you u cheer me up
Hello Darling! Don’t want to rush you at all! Just wanted to check in to see how the ending of Sparks was going. Hope you’re doing well 💜
Hi, thanks so much for checking up on the story it means so much to me. I’m going to use this question to answer why I haven’t kept my deadline. A couple weeks ago I was sadly hospitalized and since then I’ve been behind in my summer course. I’ve had to work a little over time to catch up and had no time to do anything but study and heal. I’m so sorry to you and anyone I may have disappointed by not keeping my deadline. I know how, as a reader, I feel when my fan fiction writers don’t keep their word or update their stories. But, it’s life it happens. I fully still intend to finish the story. I just need a while to make sure I’m alright first. I hope this serves as a explanation.
Hi! I've just read the last part of Sparks and girl, I am fucking out of my mind waiting to see what's next. Your story has me hooked!!!!! I just love the character of y/n, basically supposed to be me but we somehow relate on an emotional state rn HAHAHA idk where I'm going w this but yeah, update soon please! Hope you're alright and not experiencing hate & all that. Love your stories, blog and you, yourself!!!! Keep up the great work 💗
I love you for this thank you so much
Anonymous asked:
OMG I love sparks with all my heart and soul (only on chapter 17) And I would like to personally thank you for changing my love from Steve to Bucky.
You’re so kind to write that
is anyone still out there?
okay so I have a question. I know I'm the one who wrote sparks... but like guys I have really shit memory from a shit ton of anxiety so I honestly don’t remember a lot of it. & I am going through orgo chem right now and I don’t have the time or really want to re-read 38 chapters of my shitty writing lol. so when I finish up sparks in 5 chapters would y'all really mind if there are some weird inconsistencies? like if you catch any please let me know be verbal about it I love feedback! comment on this post. also if u like to to continue a specific aspect of the story or go more into depth let me know! this is ur time. June 21st is approaching! & I'm really writing this for y'all. also myself. but myself already has the story in her head like a movie and is really busy. so I don’t want to leave y'all hanging. so its also very largely in part for everyone who cared enough to read and show love.
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hey guys
I didn’t forget about you I’m just slowly dying from school. but y'all deserve a ending so its coming. I’m going to put a deadline up for myself and say June 21. I’ll finish sparks up in about 5 chapters. hold me to it y'all.
so like I'm going to be so honest with y'all. I know how it’s going to end. and I know the 5 chapters. I just have to write them...
hey guys
I didn’t forget about you I'm just slowly dying from school. but y'all deserve a ending so its coming. I'm going to put a deadline up for myself and say June 21. I'll finish sparks up in about 5 chapters. hold me to it y'all.
I started reading Sparks at 7pm on monday, I'm ending it at 5:15am this tuesday. I'm completely destroyed thanks to the multiple heart pains it gave me and I don't know how I'm going to be fully awake at work! I ADORE YOU! Keep writing it! It's lovely and so inspiring!
Aw thank you. Trust me when sparks ends it’s going to something amazing. I just haven’t found the ending yet
Anonymous asked:
Sending you some good vibes on your writing. Im trying to finish a 6 chapter fic and i have to keep going back to the other chapters to remember stuff so I cant even imagine how you're doing it. have a good day babe xoxo
Honestly this was asked prob so long ago bc I just checked my indorbox but good vibes! Here’s to finishing all unfinished fan fictions 2018
Saw this on ig and cried 😭😭
When you realize you’ve been on hiatus too long and now you’re back but you’ve forgotten the plot to your entire fanfiction and now you have to read 37 chapters to remember wtf you wrote.