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gentleaffirmations

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Fuck I miss you

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grasstouched

hallucin8

I have SO much love in my dumb stupid bitch ass body

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Sup tumblr, it’s been a minute

I just seriously doubt anybody uses this anymore (except Rosie, I see u girl)

If anyone does, don’t bother reading this.

I just need somewhere to write about my feelings

I don’t even know where to start

This is honestly just so different. Of course there are always similarities but this just hurts in a different way. I’m not angry. I wasn’t cheated on. I wasn’t grossly mistreated. I wasn’t thrown in the trash. It was a small injustice that grew too big. And I was so desperate to ignore it in the hopes it would go away that I lost part of myself. Thankfully I still feel it in me, quiet but there. I hope I can get it back to full volume someday.

Right now full volume is the screaming in my head. The kind where I can’t focus when people are talking or on what I’m saying. I’m not hungry. My head is full and my chest is empty. I’m having trouble sleeping and when I do I wake up from the nightmares.

I’m being dramatic, I know. It’s literally only been one night. God time is moving so fucking slow.

I want to spend all my time with other people so I don’t have to think as much. I want to throw away everything. I’m tired of having so much stuff. I want to clean every inch of my room and bathroom. At the same time I want to spend all day in bed and do nothing. I want to drive out to where no one else is and scream into the void.

I saw her car on my way home from rehearsal and I just fucking lost it. I’m mostly crying in my car where no one can hear me sobbing.

I hurt. I’m allowed to hurt. There is no ‘yeah, fuck that guy’. And I don’t know if that makes this easier or harder.

I’ve never felt so loved

I’ve never felt so anxious

Sad music, cider, too many cigarettes, getting high sparingly until further notice

#i dont want to change my avatar #i just saw all of my suggested tags #theyre all about her #i need to find a new therapist #i just reread all of this and its such a me way of writing why am i like this

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lettingmyselflove

sm0ke-her-0ut

Get you a girl that actually gives a shit

#thanks babe #i love you

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just-shower-thoughts

The problem is that stupid people are confident and smart people question themselves

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celestialreconnaissance

Swirls of Jupiter

Jupiter is a very stormy, turbulent, violent planet. The planet completes a day (or one complete rotation) within roughly 10 hours, which creates massive winds, producing these swirls, and violent storms. The fast rotation coupled with the fact that the planet is nothing but gas greatly multiplies the Coriolis effect. Earth too has a Coriolis effect, this creates the characteristic hurricane shapes and also contributes to the fact that storms will spin the opposite direction in different hemispheres. Luckily, our rotation is slower - our storms are less frequent and less violent than they would be if our days were shorter.

The above images come from the recent Juno mission by NASA.

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I suppose then it’s good that our days are the length they are and no shorter. Though if they were longer wouldn’t the earth be a bit calmer?

Source: celestialreconnaissance

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thecalminside

“That is the simple secret of happiness. Whatever you are doing, don’t let past move your mind; don’t let future disturb you. Because the past is no more, and the future is not yet. To live in the memories, to live in the imagination, is to live in the non-existential. And when you are living in the non-existential, you are missing that which is existential. Naturally you will be miserable, because you will miss your whole life.”

Osho

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thecalminside

“Anything you avoid in life will come back, over and over again, until you’re willing to face it—to look deeply into its true nature.”

Adyashanti

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wnq-writers

Shake it off, write it down. Put on some music, any music, music that you like even if no one else likes it, this is about you. Sad, happy, loud, soft, popular, unknown, listen to the lyrics, sing them, lose yourself in them. Stay away from things that trigger you, get off facebook and any social media, stop looking and comparing yourself with others. Crawl into bed, hide yourself under the blankets, give yourself a moment to just be. Close the curtains, don’t feel forced to be social if you want to be alone. Don’t take this moment away from yourself. Eat a piece of fruit, drink some water, just do it, hydrate. Eat some comfort food, but try to keep it healthy. You are what you eat and this body of yours is so beautiful, take care of it. Shower, wash your hair, feel clean. Put on lotion, take care of yourself. Look into the mirror, and for once don’t look at those features you perceive as imperfections. Look at your eyes and see them for the miracle they are: you can see with them. Do you know how incredibly complex your ears are? Your nose, and how it catches molecules to smell them? Your mouth, and all the tastes, so many of them. Your skin, how it protects you against so much, this soft armour. Look at your hands, your hands, think about all the things you have done with them, all the things you have touched, held, reached for. How faithfully they have served you all these years. If you have anyone you trust enough to tell them what is going on in your head, no matter how scary it is, go for it. But do not mistake this for an obligation. Only if you want to, only if you are ready. Find things that make you laugh: google a feel better list of kitties pretending to be liquids, snapchats of crazy dogs, what if animals could text. Read a book, a story, watch an episode (or two) of your favourite show, live the life of someone else. Write about your dreams, your fantasies, and if you really don’t believe you deserve the world, write as if you were someone else until you feel like you do. Be here, in the space and moment. Focus on what you are touching and doing, eating or drinking or just your saliva, what you are hearing. For one second, don’t think of the past or future. Just be. Give yourself time. Today it is okay to not be okay. Today I’m going to sleep and be unproductive and cry a little. And tomorrow? Tomorrow is another day. And no matter how scary or dark it seems, it is and always will be a blank slate. A new beginning. A new chance.

shamelesslyradiant, writing prompt #71: Write 5-10 things you can do to make yourself happier every day. (via wnq-writers)

Source: wnq-writers.com

#I haven't done any of these things in so long #adding them all to my checklist for tomorrow #and some tonight I'm sure