is this thing still on? 

MORNING!

So this whole writing thing is still pretty new to me but it’s a change its something different. I want to do more of those things so I can improve myself in many areas. I don’t really know what I will write when I start but it just comes to me and I can go on forever! Doing new things is a way to get out of your comfort zone and although while I’m sitting on my couch drinking coffee (btw I LOVE COFFEE) I’m not all that uncomfortable but it’s still something new. I have learned ever since starting my YouTube channel that getting out of your comfort zone atleast every now and then is the only way to grow. The best way I can put it was in a book I am reading called “the success principles”. When you learn to drive you are always nervous, you step on the brake too hard or you may press the gas too hard, you can’t park right, but as you keep practicing you get so good that you can eat and drive with your knees like it’s no big deal. It becomes second nature to you even if it seemed impossible at first. This works with everything in life and we are conditioned to be scared of new things, we let fear stop us from doing things we really want to do and make every excuse not to do what we really need to do. For me making YouTube videos was stepping out of my comfort zone in a major way, I mean my videos were going to be online for EVERYONE to see and that can be very scary. You can see how nervous I was in my first video I was so quiet compared to how I am now but now it’s nothing for me to be scared of and now we have this amazing community. It all starts by doing something that you have taken a interest in but are too shy to give it a shot. Don’t let your inner thoughts keep you from the things you want because chances are nobody is going to care what you do and your thoughts are just made up roadblocks.

Hi it's been a while.

First of all excuse my lack of grammar it is a result of me doodling naruto and dragonball z characters all over the pages of my school works as well as my homework and sometimes even my text book. Some people may regret not paying attention at school but I can't say I really do, I mean I passed and graduated and all but I am glad I always kept that creative side of me alive and I have my late Grandma and sister to thank as well as all the people who loved doodling so much that they turned it into a full blown career that eventually turned into my favorite anime's. My life has changed drastically this past few years, dreams that I thought were so far away were just in reach, I have lost family members, learned so much more about myself, God, break ups and more. I could have taken really bad turns to the wrong places but here I am just being a little scrub trying to do my best at life. I don't talk about my faith too much but I really believe that the hand of God has been over me too many times to count and has done more for me than I can imagine. I'm sure I can thank my small but very supportive family that I have that I wouldn't trade for the world. If I could teach one thing in life then it would be that you are the creator of your destiny and that you must take responsibility for yourself and your actions and I say this even if you have had the worst experiences in life, whether it be bad parents or a broken home, abusive relationships, bad accidents, bullying, whatever it may be, those things suck but they are NEVER an excuse for why YOU have screwed up in life or your decisions to do something that is destructive. Too many people blame the past for why they are the way they are but again you are not your past or a product of what you parents thought of you or anything in between. You have the choice to be happy and to do everything you set your mind too and you can really do the impossible when you let go of the crap that holds you back. this is why taking responsibly for your own life is so important. I had a bad childhood but I never once blamed my parents for my choices even if it was easy to do. When I mess up i only have myself to blame, that allows me to change and it is a true break through when you practice this. I believe I am right where I need to be and it's thanks to my past and all the bad and the good that had led me right here in the middle of scrubville

Caught the bae sleeping

It's like heaven!