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i am the ancient

@pastelvampyre / pastelvampyre.tumblr.com

your local vampyre boyfriend // rian matthew // he/they // arospec gay // 21
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rian matthew

age: twenty-one gender: non-binary guy (tme) pronouns: they / he (en), il (fr) sexual & romantic orientation: arospec, demi-aro, gay / queer star sign: cancer sun, taurus moon, sagittarius rising

classically trained pianist of 13 years, avid d&d & v:tm player, perpetual curse of strahd DM, biomedical science major, shitty baritone

neurodivergent with chronic physical pain

dni, my tagging system, my blacklist, and a few answers to some questions are found below the cut.

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The amount of transmisogyny i see towards any "not well passing" transfem person is frankly sickening, especially towards traditionally feminine presenting ones. a lot of y'all will see a masculine or androgynous looking person in a skirt and just say shit like "uwu what a cute femboy" without a second thought, even when the person has said they are not and are in fact transfem.

also some of y'all need to learn how to not refer to someone as he/him just because of a deep voice, even if they're a fictional character, it's still fucking transphobic!

and trans people, don't think you're immune just because you're transgender. the majority of misgendering and casually transphobic and transmisogynistic remarks i've recieved have been from my trans friends and peers, especially tme people.

say it with me everyone, "it's not internalized transphobia if you are expressing it towards others"

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A part of being an adult is living with regret and not allowing it to consume you. The older you get, the more mistakes you’ve made, opportunities you’ve missed, people you’ve disappointed. And every day you have to remind yourself to be kind and forgiving of yourself. You accept and love the you from the past and understand that it’s all a part of the process. Then you move on and live your best life, knowing now as old as you feel today, you’ll never be this young again.

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U know what fuck it. I love men. Men r funny men r hot men r cute men r sweet. I dont hate men I hate the patriarchy. I love my bf and I dont need to make jokes abt hating him to "actually be bi." There r plenty of amazing guys out there and we should fucking respect ppls attraction to men

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I just think we shouldn’t hurt people on purpose and every single day I grapple with how upsetting and angering that idea is to people. 

People will say things like “if you think we shouldn’t hurt people on purpose that’s disrespectful and deliberately callous toward those who have been hurt on purpose already” and I have yet to find language to express the magnitude of how much that’s not true. We shouldn’t hurt people on purpose. Punishment is nothing. Cruelty is just cruelty and it just makes the world we live in a crueler world.

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