lol this may very well fall on deaf ears but to give myself a little less stress :
clearly its been years since i’ve been active on this account, i’m 20 now and have lived a little and realized the weight of my actions - especially in terms of what i’ve put out on the internet
the thought of writing smut as a minor (which i was 15/16 at the time) literally makes me cringe and want to vomit so fucking much....this is the reason i left the account in the first place. its done things to me mentally that i still deal with even 5 years later, so i’ve decided to go ahead and delete my writings - all of them. i don’t want something i’ve written to be out there for minors to see and think hey well if she wrote it when she was a minor why can’t i read it? i do not condone minors reading/writing smut and entirely regret getting involved with reading/writing smut at that age. i never saw it as a form of pornography, but it absolutely is. i was completely caught up in the whole “ooh im in a fandom, smut is popular and i crave attention so why don’t i write it??” it genuinely disgusts me and has haunted me for years. i carry around a lot of shame and guilt for ever getting involved in such thing at such a young age.
its not edgy or cool to be reading/interacting with mature content when you’re a literal CHILD. im absolutely shouting this at my 15 year old self and have been for the past 5 years
that being said, this is the last time i will be on this account ever. my old sfw posts will still be up since those aren’t disgusting to me, so i won’t be entirely deleting the account. if any of you out there lol like there’s anyone reading this right now that still care/are interested/wanna follow my art/anime account, my user is @honeyspalette but please do not bring up my past account on there
